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Okay then...

[ So that's what it is. Sora's instincts must be telling him to do something and Sora himself is struggling with how to deal with it. It's not like this sort of thing hasn't happened a few times. Though he doesn't know what leaving behind a permanent mark could mean.

Still, he meanders over to the bed and takes a seat. ]

So go ahead.

[ Now Vanitas doesn't think that Sora can actually do it but... ]

Though I have a few from you already. Unless this is something different.

[That is exactly what he's struggling with the most. Vanitas and Sora share a lot of things. Not to mention their shared matching earrings that are very public displays that they're a pair. Yet there is still something that is itching under Sora's skin like he has to do something more. He's just not sure exactly what would satisfy this needy feeling he's having. ]

I don't know, I just know since Riku and Kairi left it's felt like everything's all jumbled up.

[His heart, his magical signature, his wants...? It's why Sora wants to be here instead of his last residence. So he comes to Vanitas and sits next to him close enough that they're touching.]

I think what I want is something different. Something more?

[He leans close to Vanitas, his nose twitching.]

[ Jumbled up feelings. He can't relate to it in the same sense that Sora is describing. All he can really equate it to is if Sora and Mira were to leave him behind. Even then, Vanitas doesn't actually know what he would feel. He's never had anything to lose before. Never had a sense of loss. ]

Isn't that considered normal?

[ To be all confused and twisted in this situation? To want them near and yet be happy that they are where they are meant to be? For Sora it must be difficult, especially knowing that he can't exactly be by their side upon return to their "home."

As for something different? Something more? Vanitas clicks his tongue. ]

"Something more" isn't very specific. I do let you get away with a lot unless it's putting yourself into harm's way.

[ In other words, figure it out and maybe he can do something! ]

Yeah, I guess so.

[Sora tilts his head with a faint blush starting to warm at his cheeks. It's normal to miss Riku and Kairi of course. Vanitas luckily is still here with him so it eases the ache that he feels. But furthermore, it seems to be heightening this feeling of... need. He's trying to follow his instincts as much as he can so there aren't any chances that Sora might actually go feral or have any monster-self issues. But it's hard to listen to instincts when he doesn't know what he's supposed to be doing.

So for now he leans close, nose touching at Vanitas' cheek again.]

It's kind of like... [Sora's voice gets a bit breathy as he feels the itch get itchier.] I need to make you mine.

[But they already belong to each other...? Sora's gaze drops to Vanitas' neck where he bit before.]

Um. Maybe that's not the right word. It's more like I want to make you my ... mate?

[What an embarrassing thing to think!]

[ Not want. Need. That's how Sora is phrasing it right now. Vanitas hums, not quite sure what all that entails. ]

I am already. [ Just as much as Sora is his and only his. At least this is the sentiment that Vanitas has regarding things. He's so very casual on how he says it. ] Just like you're mine.

[ He feels Sora at his cheek. Van now reaches out and wraps an arm around the Puca's waist. Maybe the Witch draws him in a bit closer. This part, these nice feelings that are generated by their proximity to one another, has always been addicting for Vanitas. Sora might have a thing about magic, but Vanitas is absolutely obsessed with positive physical contact. ]

So what does that entail, exactly? Becoming your mate...

[ Hey now. Vanitas doesn't rightfully know! ]

[As soon as the arm wraps around his waist it triggers yet another needy moment and Sora lets out a low chittering noise that sounds almost like a soft dangerous growl. Then he simply moves to straddle Vanitas' hips like they have so many times before.]

It's uh... [They can't even do the thing that Sora's itching to do. Why does it itch so much?] I guess it's like letting me leave something of me inside of you.

[This is so embarrassing. Regardless, he nips at Vanitas' lip.]

[ But it really is a habit by now, isn't it? Vanitas likes the closeness. Seeks it. What is his, again, is his and he doesn't really want to let go of it. In a sense, Vanitas is obsessive and so very possessive. That is why a part of him is rather pleased that the other friends are gone. Now he can have this little bit of Light to himself and all to himself.

To hear Sora also want to make some sort of claim, to also kind of delve into the same feelings that Vanitas has? It sure does give him a bit of a thrill. To be desired. Wanted... Valued and needed. Of course Vanitas is a greedy little sponge that is going to soak it all up.

Though now he is starting to feel Sora's discomfort over their bond. A need to do something about this strange itch... ]

I fail to see why you are struggling with this. If you need to, then just do it.

[ It's just that simple! Even with the nip to his lip, all he really does is pull Sora closer against him and nip back. ]

Stop thinking so hard.

[Sora hums softly, rocking close to Vanitas and enjoying the feeling of teeth tugging on lips.]

But I don't know what I'm supposed to do. Besides wanting to touch you some more!

[That's why he's thinking so hard! His nerves are a little shaky, wanting, needing, all at once. Vanitas pulls him in and he can't help but give into those feelings of wanting each other. It's just too strong.

He huffs softly.]

I just need to figure it out.

[He finally kisses Vanitas.]

[ Well that just encourages him to slide both arms now around the other.]

You won't find me complaining about that. [ Not anymore and not in a long time. ] Take your time, brat.

[ This time it's Vanitas taking a moment to nuzzle just under the Puca's jaw. It's Van that leaves a gentle bite. He isn't sure how he can actually ease these monster instincts. How can the other leave something of himself behind? The only way that Vanitas can think of has already been done - through their bond. However he has no issues with Sora doing what he can to try to appease these impulses. In the end, he benefits. ]

You're not leaving any time soon, so what's the rush?

[ Because they share a room now. Their scents are going to continue to be mingled. Perhaps with a little time that urge will fade? Not that it matters right now because Sora is kissing him and Van is kissing back. ]

[Neither of them are going to be leaving anytime soon, right? Sora's heart seems to be so warm and content to hear that. To know that somehow they'll stay together and Sora might not have to wake up one day to find Vanitas gone to somewhere he can't reach.

His fingers come up to Vanitas' cheeks and he holds them gently there as he takes his time to kiss. Lips and tongue playing languidly against the other while his ears twitch backward. He wants to feel more warmth, smell more of Vanitas, hear more of his voice...

If only he could make something with Vanitas...

The thought hits him a little hard, embarrassment flaring as he realizes what it all might mean. Rabbits are known for having high libidos but ... that's because they make babies so fast isn't that right?

Sora beaks the kiss to pout softly, warm breath on lips.]

Yeah. That's right! Ahh... I think for now... Let's finish with unpacking.

[He can't tell Vanitas that he wants to mate with him...]

[ Again, Vanitas really likes these moment. Lips moving against each other. Tongues sliding and tasting at a leisurely pace... Vanitas is actually kind of getting into it, eyes halfway closing and his fingers rubbing small circles against Sora's back. That desire hits him pretty strong and, fortunately or unfortunately for Sora, that want is thrown right back at the Puca.

So when that surge of embarrassment strikes, it's with shock and surprise. Sora's already backing off and it leaves Van blinking and almost stupefied. ]

But... [ He frowns, still in this weird state of desire and trying to figure out what he must have done to change the situation. ] That's not?

[ It's not really what Sora wants? ]

[The side-effect to having such a strong bond is always feeling that trickle of emotions going back and forth like tides in the ocean. For every emotion that Sora feels Vanitas feels washes of it and then Sora feels everything that Vanitas goes through when he reacts. So he can feel that flutter of desire mixed with sudden confusion and self-doubt which makes Sora immediately hug the other boy, bringing their bodies tight together.]

I don't want you to think what I want is weird, that's all! There's nothing wrong!

[He nuzzles his nose into Vanitas hair. Holding on tight to the other boy. His cheeks are heated just like his body is slowing getting to be. An itch...]

It's just that... two boys can't make babies together...

[There. He admits it with a chitter of his breath. They've fooled around with each other, made each other feel good many times now... But they can't do that.]

I don't know why I can't get that feeling out of my head. I guess it's because that's what mates do??

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[ It's such a vastly different experience, dealing with emotions. For years Vanitas either had to force them out or they would force themselves out. Once one would begin to creep up on him, he'd have a choice to make. However, since coming here and being Bonded to others, that's had to change. His Bondmates can feel what he feels and vice versa. In that respect it is good to have someone so closely tied to him again. Like in this case, Sora immediately knows what to do so that Vanitas doesn't begin to let things eat at him - and there are many things that he still struggles to express properly and process correctly. ]

Sora. [ Well. He won't say no to being held tighter. ] You're always weird.

[ Just throwing that out there for the Puca's consideration. Van is always going to find the other weird. That's just a part of the upbeat teenager's personality. It's just how it goes when Vanitas just can't understand the other teen's mindset. They're so different in so many ways. Of course things are always going to be weird to them, in one way or another.

But then he hears the next part and that causes him to blink. First blink and then laugh. ]

Babies...

[ He continues to laugh even as he flips them over. Vanitas laughs as he pins Sora down with his own muscle mass. He isn't laughing to make fun of the other. It's not the idea that is humorous to him at all. Rather, Van presses their foreheads together. ]

Want me that bad, huh?

[ Because he knows what it means to want to have kids with someone else. Yeah, it might be a monster instinct, but the fact remains that these instincts have chosen Vanitas and only Vanitas. ]

We'll make it work. Maybe not like that, but we'll meet your needs, Little Rabbit.

Whoa!

[Sora flops back onto the bed with a whump when Vanitas flips them so easily. He lets his body stretch out underneath the other boy's weight although his cheeks are heated and he wants to bit his lip.]

Come on, you know I do!

[Sora pouts softly but in a fond way. He enjoys the feeling of their brows are together before he lets out a small growly noise again and nips once again at Vanitas' lip. If Weird is Sora's default than he feels a bit better about saying such a weird thing to his bondmate. Two boys certainly can't have babies but at least there might just be a way to scratch Sora's itch for such a connected feeling.]

Okay. But as long as it's us, that's all I really need.

[ Vanitas himself continues to sprawl out on top of Sora. It's a bit of a change from their usual, but he finds that it's not an unpleasant feeling. Honestly he kind of enjoys the reaction, the surprise. There's that underlying emotion again that emits from Sora's side of their bond and Vanitas just soaks it up like some kind of lizard in sunlight. ]

Mmm. You want to be united in more ways than just our bond. More than just words and shared emotion.

[ Sora wants everything that Vanitas is. In the end, isn't that what Vanitas himself wants? Had always wanted? Something or someone to fill in what had been missing for so long? Granted, he no longer wants for two to become one in that sense. He is now fine with being just Vanitas dwelling within his own heart.

Vanitas takes the nip with a bit of a chuckle. His fingers trace over Sora's jaw at a languid pace. This little Puca could probably do whatever he wanted to and with Vanitas and the Witch would probably be fine with it. As long as the other never left him. As long as he never sought anyone else out. ]

Don't go looking for it with anyone else.

[If Sora looked back on his life even just a year ago he never would have guessed that he would have fallen for Vanitas. He used to know so little about the other boy except for the ties their hearts had in common. But now here he is wrapped up in those sharp golden eyes that look at him with the same sort of affection that Sora carries in his heart now. He found Vanitas' broken heart and felt like it was the most natural thing to do to help him fit the pieces back together.

Vanitas has taught him it's okay to want things especially when it comes to both of them. Yes, he does want more than just words and emotions too. He wants to feel and he wants to etch himself somewhere so that they never forget each other. He's never been so needy about anyone.

He does let out a puff of laughter, wiggling under the other boy and sliding hands up Vanitas' chest to feel his heartbeat.]

Ahah, why would I look anywhere else for this? Don't be silly.

[Vanitas' possessiveness isn't new. But Sora can't help but playfully tease.]

You're the only pretty bad boy for me.

[ Why would Sora look anywhere else... Well Vanitas can think of several reasons for that indeed. Perhaps the Puca can feel the others emotions kind of lean that way. If not, then Sora can definitely see it in the seriousness of Van's gaze. It might be teasing, but he knows that the brat can do far better. There are likely many, many options that are better than Vanitas overall.

So he doesn't answer. Instead he leans down and kisses Sora again, biting at that bottom lip that seems to like to pout so much. Yes, he feels better about being called "pretty bad boy," but make no mistake. Van is possessive. The bite and tug of that lip is more display than affection at the moment. Sora is his and even if there are better people for him, Vanitas isn't going to give him up. The Puca is just going to have to understand that there's no way out of this now. Not ever. ]

Don't forget that.

[ Then it will be followed by the Witch reaching for those ears to give the base of them a rub. ]

[By now Sora is fairly used to the lightly veiled threat-like way that Vanitas can speak sometimes. "Don't forget that" said in that possessive manner is because Vanitas wants Sora. And in return that makes Sora feel good too. After all, while Sora's not usually the jealous type he thinks Vanitas would have no trouble attracting someone else too. So it can go both ways.

His cheeks get warmer and he lets out a small rabbit-like noise as soon as the base of his ears are rubbed. He grabs onto Vanitas and tugs him closer.]

You're the only one who makes me feel like this, dummy. I picked you.

[A gentle reminder and some praise too.]

I like you, Vanitas. No one else is you.

[ Maybe Vanitas could, with time. However, Van hadn't even been looking for this in the first place. Yet he had found it all the same in Sora. Strange how that works in the end. He doesn't think that someone else would really have the patience for him though. Van might acknowledge that he has value, but there are still issues of self worth that pop up from time to time.

Not right now though. Not with Sora tugging on him and Vanitas just sort of becoming dead weight on top of the Puca. ]

Wow. A dummy am I?

[ He starts to pull his hands back from the rubbing. ]

Then a dummy can't continue, right?

[ Although both things are reminders that he needs. That he wants. ]

Ooph!

[Sora lets out a laugh and wiggles uselessly underneath Vanitas' weight. He snickers and puts his arms around Vanitas to hug him and pat his back repeatedly.]

A dummy I like! A dummy I like!!

[He's saying it with such playful affection!]

[ There it is. The Sora that Vanitas is more accustomed to. He's fine with the needy, wanting Sora as well. Not the one that's insecure, sad, or even unsure. This is better. So much better.

Van even shifts so that he can nuzzle and nip under Sora's jaw. He doesn't have the same senses that Sora does, but it doesn't matter. He can feel the warmth. The affection. ]

I... Like you.

[Sora's chest is full of affection and barely withheld mirth as he wiggles again under Vanitas' weight. He squeezes him and lets out a soft happy chitter at that nipping mouth tickling his jawline.]

You like me so much now you've gotta deal with me even more since you've let me move in.

[Said with an air of happy pride and joy. It seems Sora's easily fallen back into his happy-go-lucky mood once again, indeed.]

[ Vanitas shifts a little. Now most of his body is off to the side. However he still is resting quite comfortably on Sora's chest. Let him just bask in those more positive emotions. ]

Whatever. Honestly I wanted to ask you sooner.

[ For a while, actually. Vanitas just hadn't known how to bring it up. Or how to get Sora away from others! ]

You did? Really?

[Sora lets out a curious hum. Like this he can tuck his fingers into Vanitas' hair to scratch at lightly and gently.]

It was always so busy at the other house! I kinda liked the noise, though.

[ That's fine, really. Vanitas can just stretch out here and enjoy the fingers through his hair. ]

I don't. [ Like much noise, that is. ] The quiet and calm is much preferable to all of that nonsense.

[ Though Sora tends to bring plenty of nonsense into his life! ]

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