middaeg | [closed] i walked across an empty land

[ It's such a vastly different experience, dealing with emotions. For years Vanitas either had to force them out or they would force themselves out. Once one would begin to creep up on him, he'd have a choice to make. However, since coming here and being Bonded to others, that's had to change. His Bondmates can feel what he feels and vice versa. In that respect it is good to have someone so closely tied to him again. Like in this case, Sora immediately knows what to do so that Vanitas doesn't begin to let things eat at him - and there are many things that he still struggles to express properly and process correctly. ]

Sora. [ Well. He won't say no to being held tighter. ] You're always weird.

[ Just throwing that out there for the Puca's consideration. Van is always going to find the other weird. That's just a part of the upbeat teenager's personality. It's just how it goes when Vanitas just can't understand the other teen's mindset. They're so different in so many ways. Of course things are always going to be weird to them, in one way or another.

But then he hears the next part and that causes him to blink. First blink and then laugh. ]

Babies...

[ He continues to laugh even as he flips them over. Vanitas laughs as he pins Sora down with his own muscle mass. He isn't laughing to make fun of the other. It's not the idea that is humorous to him at all. Rather, Van presses their foreheads together. ]

Want me that bad, huh?

[ Because he knows what it means to want to have kids with someone else. Yeah, it might be a monster instinct, but the fact remains that these instincts have chosen Vanitas and only Vanitas. ]

We'll make it work. Maybe not like that, but we'll meet your needs, Little Rabbit.

Whoa!

[Sora flops back onto the bed with a whump when Vanitas flips them so easily. He lets his body stretch out underneath the other boy's weight although his cheeks are heated and he wants to bit his lip.]

Come on, you know I do!

[Sora pouts softly but in a fond way. He enjoys the feeling of their brows are together before he lets out a small growly noise again and nips once again at Vanitas' lip. If Weird is Sora's default than he feels a bit better about saying such a weird thing to his bondmate. Two boys certainly can't have babies but at least there might just be a way to scratch Sora's itch for such a connected feeling.]

Okay. But as long as it's us, that's all I really need.

[ Vanitas himself continues to sprawl out on top of Sora. It's a bit of a change from their usual, but he finds that it's not an unpleasant feeling. Honestly he kind of enjoys the reaction, the surprise. There's that underlying emotion again that emits from Sora's side of their bond and Vanitas just soaks it up like some kind of lizard in sunlight. ]

Mmm. You want to be united in more ways than just our bond. More than just words and shared emotion.

[ Sora wants everything that Vanitas is. In the end, isn't that what Vanitas himself wants? Had always wanted? Something or someone to fill in what had been missing for so long? Granted, he no longer wants for two to become one in that sense. He is now fine with being just Vanitas dwelling within his own heart.

Vanitas takes the nip with a bit of a chuckle. His fingers trace over Sora's jaw at a languid pace. This little Puca could probably do whatever he wanted to and with Vanitas and the Witch would probably be fine with it. As long as the other never left him. As long as he never sought anyone else out. ]

Don't go looking for it with anyone else.

[If Sora looked back on his life even just a year ago he never would have guessed that he would have fallen for Vanitas. He used to know so little about the other boy except for the ties their hearts had in common. But now here he is wrapped up in those sharp golden eyes that look at him with the same sort of affection that Sora carries in his heart now. He found Vanitas' broken heart and felt like it was the most natural thing to do to help him fit the pieces back together.

Vanitas has taught him it's okay to want things especially when it comes to both of them. Yes, he does want more than just words and emotions too. He wants to feel and he wants to etch himself somewhere so that they never forget each other. He's never been so needy about anyone.

He does let out a puff of laughter, wiggling under the other boy and sliding hands up Vanitas' chest to feel his heartbeat.]

Ahah, why would I look anywhere else for this? Don't be silly.

[Vanitas' possessiveness isn't new. But Sora can't help but playfully tease.]

You're the only pretty bad boy for me.

[ Why would Sora look anywhere else... Well Vanitas can think of several reasons for that indeed. Perhaps the Puca can feel the others emotions kind of lean that way. If not, then Sora can definitely see it in the seriousness of Van's gaze. It might be teasing, but he knows that the brat can do far better. There are likely many, many options that are better than Vanitas overall.

So he doesn't answer. Instead he leans down and kisses Sora again, biting at that bottom lip that seems to like to pout so much. Yes, he feels better about being called "pretty bad boy," but make no mistake. Van is possessive. The bite and tug of that lip is more display than affection at the moment. Sora is his and even if there are better people for him, Vanitas isn't going to give him up. The Puca is just going to have to understand that there's no way out of this now. Not ever. ]

Don't forget that.

[ Then it will be followed by the Witch reaching for those ears to give the base of them a rub. ]

[By now Sora is fairly used to the lightly veiled threat-like way that Vanitas can speak sometimes. "Don't forget that" said in that possessive manner is because Vanitas wants Sora. And in return that makes Sora feel good too. After all, while Sora's not usually the jealous type he thinks Vanitas would have no trouble attracting someone else too. So it can go both ways.

His cheeks get warmer and he lets out a small rabbit-like noise as soon as the base of his ears are rubbed. He grabs onto Vanitas and tugs him closer.]

You're the only one who makes me feel like this, dummy. I picked you.

[A gentle reminder and some praise too.]

I like you, Vanitas. No one else is you.

[ Maybe Vanitas could, with time. However, Van hadn't even been looking for this in the first place. Yet he had found it all the same in Sora. Strange how that works in the end. He doesn't think that someone else would really have the patience for him though. Van might acknowledge that he has value, but there are still issues of self worth that pop up from time to time.

Not right now though. Not with Sora tugging on him and Vanitas just sort of becoming dead weight on top of the Puca. ]

Wow. A dummy am I?

[ He starts to pull his hands back from the rubbing. ]

Then a dummy can't continue, right?

[ Although both things are reminders that he needs. That he wants. ]

Ooph!

[Sora lets out a laugh and wiggles uselessly underneath Vanitas' weight. He snickers and puts his arms around Vanitas to hug him and pat his back repeatedly.]

A dummy I like! A dummy I like!!

[He's saying it with such playful affection!]

[ There it is. The Sora that Vanitas is more accustomed to. He's fine with the needy, wanting Sora as well. Not the one that's insecure, sad, or even unsure. This is better. So much better.

Van even shifts so that he can nuzzle and nip under Sora's jaw. He doesn't have the same senses that Sora does, but it doesn't matter. He can feel the warmth. The affection. ]

I... Like you.

[Sora's chest is full of affection and barely withheld mirth as he wiggles again under Vanitas' weight. He squeezes him and lets out a soft happy chitter at that nipping mouth tickling his jawline.]

You like me so much now you've gotta deal with me even more since you've let me move in.

[Said with an air of happy pride and joy. It seems Sora's easily fallen back into his happy-go-lucky mood once again, indeed.]

[ Vanitas shifts a little. Now most of his body is off to the side. However he still is resting quite comfortably on Sora's chest. Let him just bask in those more positive emotions. ]

Whatever. Honestly I wanted to ask you sooner.

[ For a while, actually. Vanitas just hadn't known how to bring it up. Or how to get Sora away from others! ]

You did? Really?

[Sora lets out a curious hum. Like this he can tuck his fingers into Vanitas' hair to scratch at lightly and gently.]

It was always so busy at the other house! I kinda liked the noise, though.

[ That's fine, really. Vanitas can just stretch out here and enjoy the fingers through his hair. ]

I don't. [ Like much noise, that is. ] The quiet and calm is much preferable to all of that nonsense.

[ Though Sora tends to bring plenty of nonsense into his life! ]

[Sora lets out a puff of laughter.]

Uh-huh. I guess it just reminded me how much we're all here and living our lives and stuff, I guess.

[Even if that aspect is going to be a little quieter now.]

I can't promise I'll be quiet all the time here!

People live in the quiet just as much as the live with all the noise that surrounds them.

[ That sounds so deep doesn't it? Van rubs his face into Sora's chest and takes a deep breath. It does feel so much better being this close. Having his Bondmate right here. Where nothing and no one but Vanitas can touch him for the time being. ]

Your kind of loud is okay.

But it was just nice to have everyone around like that.

[Sora will also be that extroverted type who thrives the most when he's around the people he cares about. That's all he's going to miss. The noise of them all being there.

But this is important to him too. The quiet of their now shared room and their bodies curled up together like puzzle pieces that have always meant to fit together.]

Your kind of quiet is okay too.

Who knows. They might show up again. Or you can just use it as a chance to meet different people that can create that sort of noise in your life.

[ It's not like that group will be parted forever anyways. No doubt that they are working hard to bring Sora back into their lives. Chances are they'll likely succeed to. Everything seems to work out for those guardians of Light in one way or another.

But that's not for right now. Vanitas hums instead, noting the serene feeling. It might be fleeting, but it is here for the moment. ]

I imagine you'll shake things up a bit.

[It's moments like this that Sora's heart surges for Vanitas. He always seems to say just the right things in his blunt and sharp way but he gets to hear such soft and sincere things now. It's wonderful.

He snuggles a little closer, fingers still playing with black locks of hair.]

I like our life here, you know. Noise or not, or if I bang around here later...! [Sora laughs.] I'm glad things are the way they are.

[ Well after a year being here, it is to be expected right? Vanitas has had such good, positive influences in his life upon arrival. He obviously had struggled with so many things for such a long while. It takes time to come to terms with oneself and fighting himself over everything that he had come to learn versus everything that he had thought was true prior. A shifting of paradigms, thoughts, and feelings. Ideals and beliefs.

So yes. He is also rather fond of the life that he has built here. Van likes what he has gained. ]

I... Am too. [ It is still hard for him to verbalize such sentiments without being embarrassed ] It’s not a bad life. .

[Sora adores every single bit of it. Being able to see Vanitas change and grow into his own person, seeing things in a new way. That's the Vanitas that he fell for. This boy that decided to pick what he wanted to be, learnt how he wanted to see things and grew from it all.

He knows he has this deep-rooted feeling for Vanitas that he needs to say. Something that's grown over their time together here. Karin said he shouldn't' wait before it's too late but Sora is just waiting for a good time to say it. Blame it on his sappy romantic side, after all.]

But we need more blankets. [Sora jokes, laughing again.] Or maybe just some baking tools for me. I wanna make bread or something.

[ This time it's Vanitas that is giving Sora a bite to the collarbone. Blankets... ]

I said one and only one. You're little puppy eyes don't actually work on me.

[ He sticks his tongue out at the other teen, huffing. Then Vanitas just curls up a little more. This is actually pretty comfortable. ]

There's plenty of baking stuff. Mira has been showing me how to cook things, remember?

[ Additionally, Vanitas knows that there is some emotion within Sora that's not being shared. He doesn't really have a name for it, but know that he feels it himself. It's... Well it's a little hard on him still, coming to terms with the fact that there is, indeed, someone that he'd do just about anything for - even kill. Though that's not much of a stretch for Vanitas, hmm?

He's always thought that to be a weakness; being fond of someone and caring for them would expose you. It would give someone the means to hurt you. And it's true. Vanitas hasn't really changed when it comes to that. But at the same time... How can he not want this? ]

Ouch!

[Sora pretends to be hurt, making a dramatic chitter noise before he laughs again. He wiggles against the other boy and tugs him close.]

Oh, yeah! Well, I don't want to get into her things if I can get my own too.

[Sora hums.]

Or does that mean you'll do some baking for me instead?

[ Close enough that he can tuck his nose into Sora's neck. Then maybe wrap arms around the other's waist. ]

That's a waste. There's no her things and your things when it comes to items that are meant to be shared across a household.

[ This is a thing that he has learned! But being asked to bake something... Van curls up a little more against Sora. ]

...Suppose I could.

[He has to admit that cuddly Vanitas is one of his most favourite moods that Vanitas can have. Sora's in bliss as he curls around the other too. His ears twitch as he inhales softly at their mingling scents.]

Like a family!

[Sora laughs softly with a gentle rumble.]

Let's make fresh bread together in the morning.

[ Look... This is entirely Sora's fault. There is no one that can even be blamed for more cuddles. Sora is the one that got him used to being touched. Sora is the one that put that little bug in him that touch could be a good thing. That it can bring the safety and security that he's lacked nearly his entire life. ]

Well... Yeah. S'what she is.

[ And not hiding his face in that neck at all, nope. Not blushing like mad! ]

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