middaeg | [Open] Why am I here...

[Open] Why am I here...

Who: Alpina and anybody who would like to come across her - new CR, existing CR
When: Just past the new year and through January
Where: Various points in the harbour district
What: She's getting used to the fact that her body is changing...or rather she's not getting used to the fact her body is changing

Warnings: Mild body horror... I'm happy to tag back in either/any tagging style so respond in any way you would like and I'll match.

[ Early morning - she'll be here most mornings ] She doesn't know how long she had been sitting there on the side of the pier. The smells aren't affecting her at all but it helps that it's early morning so maybe it's not as bad as it could be. She has been there at least long enough to see the sun rise. She's been more and more drawn to the water recently which logically would make sense. She has kind of worked out what she is turning into. And also worked out that there isn't really any way of avoiding it as much as she has tried to downplay everything. Just after the last full moon she has taken to avoiding everybody that she has known from back home. She didn't want to be seen like this. Not until she's...managed to reconcile it all in her mind somehow. If that was even possible.

[ Temptations ] As the sun is going down or sometimes in the late afternoons, the urge to jump into the murky water was quite high. To some people it may look like she was wanting to end it all but if those people look a little closer, there was something else in her eyes. There was something drawing her into that water. Something asking her to come home. A calling she has never heard before but was getting louder with each passing day. She sits there for long periods of time just staring into the waves. Some days she's closer to the edge than others. Her gills haven't fully developed yet, not that anybody can see beneath her clothing so it probably wouldn't be the safest for her to jump in quite yet but the call is just so loud.

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[ It's taken Geiz a while to find her, if he could've ripped this place open and shaken her out he would've done that, but she's well trained in the aspect of keeping out of sight and out of mind. It's actually something they'd both been trained in back in the future. However, he also has his own tricks that he's learned from fighting over the long years and despite it taking up most of the night till morning, he's still able to find her, finally.

He has a guess as to what's going on. A guess that includes him because he's already lost teeth and had them replaced with newer ones; fangs that sharpen at the mere smell of blood. Not a big change as of now, but it doesn't bother him. He'd already come to terms with it before she'd disappeared. He can't change back to normal so he's just accepted it and moved on. But she's not like him in that aspect. He knows how much new changes send her into a mental tizzy.

So he gives a sigh and walks up to her before sitting down next to her on the pier. He doesn't say anything yet, wanting her to slowly warm up to him being around her now.

He can wait.

He can be patient for her. ]

[ She would probably have dealt with this kind of change had she figured out who she was before she was transported here. Gone through all that understanding that her past and who she is doesn't matter. But here she is...with no memory of her past and no idea what's going to happen to her future.

His sudden appearance makes her jump a little bit she stays focused on the water in front of her. She knows deep down that if she ignores him for the entire day he still wouldn't leave but a part of her was hoping he would give up and go away.

She pulls her clothes more around her body like she's trying to hide the changes that have already happened. Although it's hard to hide the scaling that's starting to appear now around her wrists. At least while she stays seated the scales up her legs aren't visible.

It never occurred to her that Geiz might also be going through the same thing. She had assumed he would be more like Sougo. They couldn't both be this unlucky. ]

[ Yeah, Geiz actually doesn't know that Tsukuyomi doesn't know about her own past. He does, but he usually never brings it up because it's a tetchy sort of gamble to talk about it. He can inquire, yes, but he won't push her in this aspect because it's up to her to figure out if she's comfortable enough to speak to him about it. ]

Hey.

[ Is all he says while he reaches over to gently grasp her hand in his own. He squeezes it a bit and just holds her hand for a couple of minutes before he tugs her in close so that she can lean against him while they sit together. He's not good at communicating, but he's known her for so long that he does know what he can offer and do for her. And that is to do this. Not push, but also make her know that he's here for her.

He squeezes her hand again and gives a soft sigh. The air is slightly cool so he lets go of her hand and wraps his arm around her shoulders, tugging her closer to him as he tries to provide comfort for her.

At the same time, he doesn't bring up his own changes. Not just yet. He wants to make sure she's fine first. ]

[ She jumps a little at the touch but it was a little too late to pull her hand away. It wouldn't be long before he realizes that she's starting to develop some skin between her fingers. The webbing has been steadily growing there for the past week. The changes to her body were beginning to get harder and harder to hide.

At first, she was nervous about showing any changes. As she started feeling comfortable to show the changes that were taking place, more and steadily worse changes started happening which made her want to continue hiding away.

Although a part of her knew she wouldn't be able to hide away forever. It takes her a few moments longer but she finally accepts the contact and relaxes onto his body. When she finally brings herself to say something, it's in a very soft voice. ]

I'm sorry...

You don't have to apologize.

[ That's the first thing he says in answer to her apology. He had expected this to happen ever since they'd first learned that they'd either be a witch or monster. He knows she would've probably at least preferred to be a witch because being a monster comes with so many physical changes. Ones that he knows she wouldn't welcome no matter what. ]

I gave you some time because you needed it.

[ He's willing to do that for her, but it's time now to actually offer support and no judgement about her changes. So he reaches for her hand again while holding her close. His fingers trace along the slight webbing before he gently grasps all her fingers together in a soft squeeze ]

If you try to hide I'll just end up finding you again. So at least spend some time in your room where we can easily reach you.

[ He squeezes her hand again wkth his own ]

I'm a monster too, if it helps.

[ That admission causes her to widen her eyes and she turns to take a closer look at him. Her eyes gaze over his body up and down like she's trying to discern what changes have happened to him already. ]

I was so caught up in what was happening to me I forgot that...you could have...

[ She was apologetic, in a slight panic but also showing concern at the same time. It was a pile of different emotions. It's frustrating that this was happening to the both of them. Is it because they both come from the same time whereas there was something different about Sougo?

She isn't angry at Sougo just...she wanted to know what it was. Maybe if they can figure that out they could reverse...whatever this is. ]

Are you okay? Are you in pain?

[ Okay, now Geiz has to make sure Sougo never tells Tsukuyomi that he had to die before he became a vampire. Stg, Sougo, you better not say a thing. Outwardly though, Geiz looks down at their intertwined hands as he gives hers another reassuring squeeze ]

I'm fine. I feel fine. I already formed a bond with Sougo so I won't go feral in the future. He'll probably offer you a bond too.

[ He pauses for a second, his fingers tightening around her hand ]

Don't argue about it. Just make the bond. It doesn't take that long.

[ After all, Geiz had agreed to the bond and Tsukuyomi is one of the few people that knows how hard that must've been for Geiz. So it must be important and serious enough to make him do it, right? ]

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[ It isn't that she doesn't know that this would be something she would need to do. More, she was trying to avoid it until she was able to learn more about it. Bonding with someone sounds like a big commitment. It isn't like hopping into a device and hopping to another time zone.

It felt like more than that. And yet Geiz...

Although, from her past experience, Geiz also seems like the type to just charge blindly ahead and think later. ]

It's about what you would be giving up to make the bond. And what if...this bond continues when we go back home? What about what we went back in time to do?

[ They have gone back and forth about this so many times. What do you do when you start to care about the one person you've gone back in time to defeat? She stares at his hand quietly thinking through the options. ]

Even if the bond continues after we leave . . . it's not so bad. At least you'll know what you're in for.

[ There's an annoyed look on his face as he remembers learning about feeling each other's emotions after the fact that he and Sougo had bonded. The bastard had lied by omission but he's not intensely angry about it the way he would've been in the past. He's just vaguely annoyed in Sougo's general direction ]

You'll be able to feel some of how he feels and vice versa though.

[ Which is something he's not too keen on, but he'd adjusted and acclimated because it's not like Sougo can read his mind. He can just feel the general ebb and flow of his emotions. So the positives outweigh the negatives in that case ]

If you want, we can bond after you and Sougo get bonded.

[ If she says no to that, he won't mind. He just wants her to know that option is available after she bonds with Sougo. But he'll also understand if just being bonded to one person is enough for her ]

[ There's a small pause at that suggestion. It isn't that she's opposed to bonding with him...she was just unsure about the whole bonding process in general. Even more so at the idea of being bonded to more than one person at a time.

How would that even feel? Having emotions invading your mind from all directions. ]

Maybe try one bond first.

[ Another small pause. ]

And I would prefer it if I started with you but I read that...it's better to not bond with someone that's...the same as you.

[ She chooses her words carefully. Calling themselves monsters was still a little awkward. She wonders for a moment if that's how those people felt back at home when they were changed. ]

[ There's no surprise in that for Geiz. He wants her to make a bond with Sougo because she'll be more comfortable with him than some stranger. And he knows it can't be himself because he's not a witch, which means he can't stop her from going feral. Still, he places a hand over her's and squeezes it gently ]

I don't mind. But . . .

[ He hesitates ]

You'll have to accept it someday, Tsukuyomi. It won't get easier until you do.

[ That she is a monster. Not a bad one. Not a villainess one. Just a monster like him where they change slowly day by day and try to cope ]

[ She stares out towards the water a moment and just enjoys that touch while she's mulling it over in her head. She doesn't know what kind of history she has come from. What type of person she used to be. Now she doesn't even know what kind of person...non-person she's going to turn into.

But he is right. What else could she do? There isn't anything she can do to stop this from happening. The sooner she accepts her fate then perhaps the less painful things will be. ]

I'm sorry. I'll go back to our room so...you know where I am.

[ She knows she's being irrational about this whole situation. ]

The water feels so peaceful though. Like I should be here.

Wei Wuxian can usually be found near a bar at this hour of the day, a drink before going home for dinner, sometimes returning after Lan Zhan is asleep. Other days - like this one - he doesn't actually stay in the bar, but takes his drink to go and wanders in the direction of the pier.

It's familiar. He grew up near the water, another lifetime ago - maybe even two by now. He keeps his eyes on the water as he lifts the bottle to his lips, spotting her when he lowers it again.

Wei Wuxian's not sure what she's doing - or thinking of doing. He wanders in that direction, sitting down a comfortable distance from her.

"I bet the water's really cold." He smiles and sets his bottle down. "My Bonded's from a place called Gusu. They had a special cold pond there that was good for healing, if you didn't freeze to death first."

She jumps a little at the sudden voice and actually looks around like perhaps she made a mistake and he was talking to somebody else. It takes her a moment to realize he actually is talking to her and she pulls her clothing around her a little more in an attempt to hide the scales forming around her wrists and up her arms and the scales that are now appearing above her knee high boots and travelling up her legs.

Alpina isn't one to be rude so even if she isn't really looking for the company, she isn't going to say anything mean to make him go away. Or perhaps she actually doesn't mind a stranger's conversation at the moment. Someone that doesn't care that she doesn't know where she came from or the monster she's turning into.

"A cold pond would be worth getting into if it can heal what's happening. I would risk being frozen to death." Her eyes stay focused on the water in front of her. A moment passes before she continues. "It's like the water is calling for me."

The way she pulls her clothes around herself ironically just draws attention to it, if he hadn't noticed the scales already. He has some idea of what's going on here - or at least he thinks he does. It's something that a lot of monsters probably goes through. He did too.

Wei Wuxian leans back on his hands, staring out at the water himself. But her words make him glance her way, eyebrow arching.

"So what's happening to you?"

The very direct way he seems to be asking the question makes her stiffen just a moment. She keeps her gaze on the water and goes silent for a short while as she thinks about the question. A part of her is actually finding comfort in this random conversation with a stranger while another part of her finds it strange that she's talking to someone she's never met before when she's avoided talking to her actual friends from back home for days and days now.

"My body is changing..." There's another pause before she's pushing herself to elaborate just that tiny bit more. "My skin is hardening and I can't find a way to reverse it." Even though the scales were actually...quite pretty to look at if she could ignore the fact that it was her own skin changing.

Sometimes it's easier. Wei Wuxian has never had a problem with talking to anyone - this is the perfect example. But there are things that he could never tell his family.

"You must be like my brother!" His voice is bright, clearly not thinking it a bad thing. "He's a merman. I get jealous sometimes. See, we grew up on the water and I could always outswim him. But not anymore." He clicks his tongue before looking directly at her. "But I'm cuter, so I guess it evens out. Don't you agree?"

He's a puca with golden eyes and black bunny ears...as far as monsters go, he thinks he's pretty cute.

That sudden cheeriness in his voice catches her off guard just slightly and she turns towards him with wide eyes. There's a pause when his next question catches her even more off guard and she can't help the slight smile that touches on her lips and then the laugh which follows. This person was definitely not the kind of person she expected to meet sitting here on a random dock.

She hasn't actually noticed until now, being so lost in her own thoughts and frustrated at the changes happening to her body. Tsukuyomi takes a moment to actually take in the eyes and his cute features and then nods slowly. "You are...adorable. You turned fluffy rather than...cold." Her voice betrayed the slight envy. She would have much preferred a bunny transformation. "Did it..hurt?"

"It was uncomfortable sometimes, but I wouldn't say that it hurt." And it was more getting used to the changes than any actual discomfort. "Still...I didn't like it. Not at first." Wei Wuxian didn't really want to be adorable. He wanted to be strong, especially for his Bonded. And Puca aren't known for strength.

He reaches up, giving his own ears a tug.

"I even tried to have them chopped off."

That was a bit of a relief to hear although the sharp pain she's getting on and off in her chest would speak otherwise. She's done well to hide it until now though. The pain has been growing sharper over time but she was hoping that after a while it would subside eventually.

The admission makes her smile, though. It seems to fit him though. This being cute. She almost has an urge to also reach over the touch those ears to see if they're really as fluffy as they look. "They're...a part of you aren't they? It would hurt to chop them off."

They are - and she could. He's a lot more comfortable with them now. He even has fun with his changes, embracing his puca mischief (like Wei Wuxian wasn't always that way) and other monster perks.

He presses his lips together and nods slowly. Even with Nie Mingjue's skill and sharp blade, it definitely would've hurt.

"But I thought they were embarrassing. And I hated being weak."

Eventually she will but right now she's not quite sure she's comfortable enough around him to do something that feels quite intimate. Touching his ears like that. She doesn't often reach out and touch other people. She wonders how long he's been like this that he can now be so comfortable discussing his features.

She should learn from this. Just, take things as they come and maybe things won't feel as bad when they happen.

Easier said than done.

"You don't look weak." She manages a small laugh while looking over his features. "Even with your fluffy self. You don't appear weak at all. I should learn to be more like you. Just accept what's going to happen to me."

"Thanks."

He smiles at her for that. Truthfully, he doesn't actually feel weak anymore either. He's been in a few fights since then, and he's learned his own advantages. Physical strength isn't everything, after all.

"It might take a little time, but I believe you will. And no matter what, you're still you."

For some reason it was those words that she needed to hear. It takes her a moment to process it but a smile slowly shows across her face and she gives a little nod at that thought. It doesn't matter what changes she goes through. She will still be the person she is and her friends should accept that. She needed to trust that. Or at least, be brave enough to open up to them and give them a chance to make that decision.

She stares at at the water for a moment before turning back towards the person beside her. "And you've only just met me." It's strange, the people that you meet when you're actively running away from your own friends.

"But thank you. Your words sound very sincere. And I feel like I should trust in them somehow."

It's funny, but Sougo thought that when his friends showed up in this world that the three of them would be doing everything together immediately. After being the only one from his world here for so long he hadn't really made plans for what it would be like to have the two of them at his side again, but the minute he saw their faces on the street the gears had started whirling.

Which is why it has been so disappointing that Tsukuyomi has been so scarce from relatively early on. He's seem Geiz plenty; hell, he's formed a Bond with Geiz once he realized his friend's Monster status, but he's barely seen more than Tsukuyomi's fleeing back of late.

The fact that he finds her at the edge of the water seems like a good thing to him, because in his mind it cuts off her easy ability to escape from him. It doesn't feel good to have to corner a friend this way, but she's not giving him a lot of choice here.

It's with that preoccupation in mind that he approaches her, still somewhat unaware of the expression of longing on her face.

"Tsukuyomi!"

It hadn't been her intention to disappear for so long. When things started appearing on her body, she had initially wanted to just find a way to cure it. It shouldn't have taken long. Just some...rash or whatever it was. The more she read up on things in this world, however, the more she realized that perhaps this change was permanent. The skin growing hard and then developing this unique pattern...deep down she knew right from the beginning what was happening.

She wasn't a witch.

It has taken her this long to kind of start accepting what was happening to her and she was about to go find her friends again when the pain along each side of her rib cage started. The pain has now started turning into welts and she could barely bring herself to see her friends.

She jumps as she hears her name called out in that familiar voice and she turns towards him with a wide eyed expression. She then turns to the water and then to the other side of her, realizing that he somehow has managed to sneak up on her in a way that she would have to confront the situation she has successfully evaded until now.

"S-Sougo..." Her legs well hidden under her outfit, she remains exactly how she is but tries to hide the remainder of her arms under her sleeves.

There's no telling if it would have actually been easier for her or not to have Geiz and Sougo know about what was going on with her. Certainly it doesn't seem like sharing secrets will do much to help ease any of the physical discomfort that seems to come with Monster transformations. Sougo had seen Mikasa suffer from her the alterations that happened with her teeth, and he knows there is nothing he can do for Geiz when the time comes that he briefly dies.

He's not even sure what kind of Monster Tsukuyomi is going to become, considering she's been so cagey about what has been happening to her of late. As his gaze flits out across the water, however, he does have a guess to what it might be. He doesn't have any close relationship with a Merrow, but he has met some before.

Looking at the water doesn't mean he misses how she adjusts her clothing to hide her body though, and the smile on his face is a little sad as he turns back to her. Telling him might not do much to help her with the physical effects of becoming a monster, but it does sting a little that she's hiding it from him. It probably shouldn't considering how guarded Sougo has often been with his thoughts and feelings at times, but it does.

"I haven't seen you much lately. Have you been that busy trying to find a way home?"

"I...yeah! Trying to find a way home." She latches onto that out for a moment, staring into the water and hoping for just a split second that with that he'll leave her be for a little longer while she gathers her thoughts. She knew he wouldn't though. Not Sougo and not with the way he's approached her. It looks like he was going to stay here until he got everything he wants out of her.

It takes her just a little longer before she lets her grip slip and her sleeve slide up from her arm slightly to show off the glittery scales already working their way up from her wrist. Her voice is soft, almost apologetic like her past has appeared in a different form and isn't what anybody is expecting. Although, that itself is yet another bridge to cross if those memories surface while she's here.

"I'm not a witch."

The moment he found her was the moment Tsukuyomi was doomed to have some kind of talk with him, though Sougo is at least kind enough to stay quiet for a bit and let her collect herself. He remembers Geiz's reaction to finding out he was going to become a monster, and the moment of vulnerability with it that Sougo genuinely hadn't expected to see from his friend.

It might be because Sougo never had to come face to face with this possibility himself. At least having helped Geiz through some of it means that he's more prepared for Tsukuyomi's struggle. He still tries to smile at encouragingly at her as she finally shows off her scales to him, and even holds out a hand to her, offering to take that hand she's been trying to conceal.

"It's not so bad not to be. Honestly, magic is kind of dangerous, so in some ways it's probably better not to be."

He's avoiding saying the 'M' word until she seems ready to say it herself though. While Sougo has gotten used to it, he figures it must be harder to apply to yourself when you haven't been here for some time now.

"I don't suppose there's something you can do in your repertoire that can reverse any of this." There's a soft smile now as she starts to feel a little more comfortable in his presence. At least her changes haven't made him turn away from her. She wasn't sure she could face anybody from her home if they saw the changes and decided to turn away. At least she knows somebody who's been here long enough that he likely knows what...some of this feels like even if he hasn't been through it himself.

She reaches her hand out towards him, pausing just a moment before she places her palm on top of his own. Her hand is slightly cooler to the touch, not completely cold blooded yet from her change towards her new self but still slightly cooler than how she used to be. The most obvious change would be the webbing starting to grow between her fingers and the scales glinting from her wrist and along her arm.

As she rests her hand down on his, she flinches just the smallest amount. She takes a small breath and meets his gaze slightly more confidently but with a small amount of panic. "It hurts. My body is changing and the water is calling for me. Every day the water calls louder."

Having a close friend, and a Bondmate who had long since undergone some very drastic changes to her body? Yeah, Sougo has a pretty good idea of how difficult this must be, at least from an outsider's perspective. Mikasa's body had undergone a lot of changes in the time he knew her, and while she was still recognizably herself, she was also drastically different than she had been when he first arrived.

Noticing the cool feeling of her hand, Suogo is quick to place his other over top of it, as if she needs to be warmed right up. He doesn't know a ton about the various species of monsters, though he does know a lot of them don't run that warm. Still, it feels wrong to not at least attempt to provide a little heat to a cold friend.

As he looks back at her, his smile looks a little pained. Geiz had gone through a lot of physical pain as well from his transformation, and it feels awful that there's not much he can seem to do to ease his friends suffering. Almost unconsciously he starts to rub her hand to try and warm it up more.

"I don't think so... But have you tried getting in the water? It won't stop the change, but it might help make things not hurt."

Just his touch in this moment was enough to start reminding her that friends were there for her to rely on if she needs them. In her little world, she had forgotten that for a while. She takes a deep breath, calming her mind for a moment and glancing at the water before looking back towards him. "It doesn't look like the kind of water a person would normally jump into and go swimming in."

Although she has a feeling that he has other reasons for suggesting things. Sougo has this way about things. A carefree smile hiding a dozen gears that are rotating in multiple directions just behind. She watches him a moment and then carefully extracts her hands from his. "I spoke to Geiz. I didn't realize he had gone through his own changes." She takes a breath, thinking over her words a moment. "He also told me you convinced him to bond with you. Somehow." A small smile touches on her lips like she couldn't believe that he had somehow already taken that step.

She makes a fair point with that one, as Sougo glances out at the water he certainly doesn't feel particularly compelled to go for a dip. Then again, he's not the one who is transforming into a mer-person right now. He's not about to have those same strong compulsions.

It really wasn't until his friends arrived that Sougo started to realize just how difficult it must be for Monsters. He certainly got enough hints of it with Mikasa, but she seemed to take everything with relative stride. Maybe because she was already used to transforming by the time he became close to her, while Tsukuyomi and Geiz are on the start of their Monster adventures.

He hums in agreement at the first couple of things she has to say, but looks just a little delighted at the accusation that it was a challenge to talk Geiz into the Bond. He's kind of thrilled to admit the truth of it.

"Honestly, it wasn't hard at all. We went and had a Bond set up after we talked it out for only ten minutes or so, because Geiz realized pretty quickly it was better for everyone that one."

He pauses, his expression getting a little more serious as he studies Tsukuyomi's face.

"Has anyone told you what happens to Monsters if they don't end up forming a Bond after a few months?"

"I've heard some things about what could happen. I just didn't want to think..." That she would really succumb to some of the things she's heard. And the fact that even with a bond, some of the things will still happen regardless but at least she would be able to better control herself. She takes a breath and sighs softly. Also, wouldn't it be better to be with someone you trust? She's seen a few people post messages about looking for bonds with complete strangers and she wasn't sure that would be something she would ever be able to do herself.

Considering... "You would be able to hear my thoughts? Or something like that." It seems like you really let the other person in when you enable something like this. "What if it's permanent?" What if they go home and it stays like this? She wonders what would happen to all of them if they were to go home like this. Considering some of the things they've thought about doing.

She's carefully watching him. That seemingly carefree gaze. If she watches closely though, sometimes she can see hints of something else underneath there. Something deeper. A part of her wonders if the bond works both ways. Perhaps it would also let her see the gears that are turning under there that she knows he hides.

Even without knowing what a Bond entails, it's a hard thing to let yourself commit to. The word itself is pretty lofty, and considering the future that his friends came from, it's not surprising to Sougo that neither of them seem that eager about the idea. Hell, he took an unfortunate amount of time to form one himself, and the consequences of it had been pretty disastrous.

If his magic hadn't burned him up from the inside... if he hadn't ended up dead until the Coven could resurrect him...

He wonders if he would have formed a Bond at all.

But he knows the dangers for both Witches and Monsters, and he's going to be a little pushier about this than he might otherwise be. It sounds like it'll be a little harder with Tsukuyomi having done more research than Geiz about them, though...

"Eh? You can't hear anyone's thoughts though."

First issue debunked, though with Tsukuyomi it would be better to tell her now rather than let her figure out the surprise later.

"It's more that sometimes you can kind of feel what the other person is feeling, but you don't have any idea what they're thinking. Not really."

It takes her a moment to consider this. Just being able to feel what the other person is feeling would be okay. Although, having Sougo being able to feel what she's thinking may get a little awkward sometimes especially with the changes going on with her body. There were so many things running through her mind at the moment that she isn't sure she would want to burden him with.

However, the fact that he has sought her out to discuss this and is now pushing on the matter is giving her an idea that this is much more important than she originally believes. She drops her gaze and gives a small nod. Important enough for Geiz to have made his decision quickly and not only that, he also sought her out to discuss this and press unto her that she should bond with Sougo.

"It helps that I've known you long enough that I think I can trust you." Her voice is soft as she says it. Not something she says out loud often. If at all. The fact that she hasn't attempted to kill him until now shows that there is some trust there, right?

"Currently my feelings are a little bit all over the place though with these changes. I'm not sure if you'd like to wait.." ...for her to go feral while she's biding her time until everything is complete before she commits. It doesn't occur to her that she may have another half a year of changes before anything is complete.

There's a mix of emotions feeling that she think she can trust him. On one hand it's nice to hear that she does believe she can, but on the other hand there's something cutting in that remark. The fact that she has to clarify 'think' means that it's not an explicit thing the way it has apparently become for Geiz, and that hurts a little. It makes sense, of course, because Tsukuyomi has always been the more careful and thoughtful of his two friends, but it's still a little tough to swallow.

It's why there's something sad about the smile he gives her in response to that remark.

"I don't mind something like that though. Your feelings, I mean."

He hesitates for a few seconds, not sure if he should put the pressure on as well, but deciding it's better too. He wants to spare his friends some pain, even if it means they have to put themselves into a slightly uncomfortable position by bonding with him.

"It's probably not a good idea to wait too long either. Has anyone told you about going feral yet?"

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