[Open] Why am I here...

[alpina]

Who: Alpina and anybody who would like to come across her - new CR, existing CR
When: Just past the new year and through January
Where: Various points in the harbour district
What: She's getting used to the fact that her body is changing...or rather she's not getting used to the fact her body is changing

Warnings: Mild body horror... I'm happy to tag back in either/any tagging style so respond in any way you would like and I'll match.

[ Early morning - she'll be here most mornings ] She doesn't know how long she had been sitting there on the side of the pier. The smells aren't affecting her at all but it helps that it's early morning so maybe it's not as bad as it could be. She has been there at least long enough to see the sun rise. She's been more and more drawn to the water recently which logically would make sense. She has kind of worked out what she is turning into. And also worked out that there isn't really any way of avoiding it as much as she has tried to downplay everything. Just after the last full moon she has taken to avoiding everybody that she has known from back home. She didn't want to be seen like this. Not until she's...managed to reconcile it all in her mind somehow. If that was even possible.

[ Temptations ] As the sun is going down or sometimes in the late afternoons, the urge to jump into the murky water was quite high. To some people it may look like she was wanting to end it all but if those people look a little closer, there was something else in her eyes. There was something drawing her into that water. Something asking her to come home. A calling she has never heard before but was getting louder with each passing day. She sits there for long periods of time just staring into the waves. Some days she's closer to the edge than others. Her gills haven't fully developed yet, not that anybody can see beneath her clothing so it probably wouldn't be the safest for her to jump in quite yet but the call is just so loud.

[ Suggest your own ] If there's anything you'd like to do with me feel free to drop me a message! Give me a poke and I would love to develop some CR.

Comments

[alpina]

That was a bit of a relief to hear although the sharp pain she's getting on and off in her chest would speak otherwise. She's done well to hide it until now though. The pain has been growing sharper over time but she was hoping that after a while it would subside eventually.

The admission makes her smile, though. It seems to fit him though. This being cute. She almost has an urge to also reach over the touch those ears to see if they're really as fluffy as they look. "They're...a part of you aren't they? It would hurt to chop them off."

[weiward]

They are - and she could. He's a lot more comfortable with them now. He even has fun with his changes, embracing his puca mischief (like Wei Wuxian wasn't always that way) and other monster perks.

He presses his lips together and nods slowly. Even with Nie Mingjue's skill and sharp blade, it definitely would've hurt.

"But I thought they were embarrassing. And I hated being weak."

[alpina]

Eventually she will but right now she's not quite sure she's comfortable enough around him to do something that feels quite intimate. Touching his ears like that. She doesn't often reach out and touch other people. She wonders how long he's been like this that he can now be so comfortable discussing his features.

She should learn from this. Just, take things as they come and maybe things won't feel as bad when they happen.

Easier said than done.

"You don't look weak." She manages a small laugh while looking over his features. "Even with your fluffy self. You don't appear weak at all. I should learn to be more like you. Just accept what's going to happen to me."

[weiward]

"Thanks."

He smiles at her for that. Truthfully, he doesn't actually feel weak anymore either. He's been in a few fights since then, and he's learned his own advantages. Physical strength isn't everything, after all.

"It might take a little time, but I believe you will. And no matter what, you're still you."

[alpina]

For some reason it was those words that she needed to hear. It takes her a moment to process it but a smile slowly shows across her face and she gives a little nod at that thought. It doesn't matter what changes she goes through. She will still be the person she is and her friends should accept that. She needed to trust that. Or at least, be brave enough to open up to them and give them a chance to make that decision.

She stares at at the water for a moment before turning back towards the person beside her. "And you've only just met me." It's strange, the people that you meet when you're actively running away from your own friends.

"But thank you. Your words sound very sincere. And I feel like I should trust in them somehow."