middaeg | [closed] winter pool time

[ Alright. Scratch that. This is maybe a lot more something he didn't expect and it sure as hell shows on his face as he just. Takes a second. To process that. ]

Sorry- what? You... kissed Alucard?

Yes. After I saw his...desire...in the pool.

[She smirks a little.]

And mine too.

[ For the record... that sounds really weird??? Yeah. ]

Why were you looking at his... desire or whatever? Why was he looking at yours?

[ He's confused. REALLY CONFUSED among other things and just... sighs then, hand coming up to rub over his face. ]

Actually, I don't want to know. I just want to go back. I'm tired.

[ And he just gets himself up then, soggy cloak around him. ]

We fond the stupid pool together, is why.

[She hops up beside him and steps in his way.]

...We just happened to. It wasn't planned or anything, Trevor.

[She does want to explain this. Because no.]

Before you ask, it's not my place to tell you his. But for me...it was you and him, and me in the middle.

[ He doesn't look to Sypha as she reveals such a thing to him. Instead, he looks anywhere BUT to her. Finally, he shrugs, a hand waved as he turns. ]

Like I said. I'm tired and we need to do your Bond. So we should get going.

Do you...does it bother you that I kissed you?

[clearly that's what's important here.]

I don't really care.

[ He pulls his soggy cloak around him a little tighter, slooowly starting to make his leave down the path. ]

Liar.

[But now, she's annoyed. Maybe a little hurt. So, she pulls up her hood and stalks past.]

[ He's seen that face. Well... sort of?? But he knows she's annoyed and when she stalks past him, he can't help but feel something within his chest sink a little. Fuck. Why does he suck so bad at this?

He picks up his steps to come up behind her a little. Afraid to come up beside her in case she sets his ass on fire or something. ]

I'm... getting the feeling you're mad at me.

Maybe I am, because I just told you that I have strong feelings for you...and you just said you did not care.

[She hasn't quite got the hang of setting asses on fire yet though, he's lucky.]

You could have just given me one of the many different grunts in your vocabulary and I would have accepted that. But you don't care.

You- what?

[ WHEN DID THIS HAPPEN??? Or... unless she's talking about that pool of desire crap... oh. But he still comes to step around in front of her and block her way. ]

You told me you kissed Alucard and saw his desire?

I also told you that I saw you in my pool.

[Think. Moron.]

The pool. That shows you what you want most. The pool that you were in. And I also kissed you.

[ Sypha are you sure you want to hitch your star to this wagon?

But when she clarifies what she means because apparently Trevor fucking needs that done in the moment, he just... stares to her. Silent. Thoughts tumbling away over what he himself saw within that stupid pool of desire. Because that's what it is. It's stupid and it's caused him to kiss Alucard and for Sypha to kiss Alucard and now Sypha to peck his cheek and... can they all just blame that stupid pool for this?? He'd like it. He really really would.

But he also knows the things he said to Alucard. The things he had been... trying to forget and he just... sighs. Fingers pinching the bridge of his nose. ]

I... know. I'm sorry.

[Sometimes, she is not sure.]

Is it that hard for you to understand that I care? I know you're a wreck, inside. You've been burned a lot. But please remember that I'm not going anywhere. And I care about you, a lot.

[Right now, that's not one of those times. She knows he needs help.]

It's just...

[ Does he want to go into this? Not really. But it just feels like the right thing to do? Or he's so fucking tired of keeping it all in. ]

...I was trying to forget you. [ That sounds bad. ] I was trying to forget how you made me feel like I wasn't alone. Like I could be something more than whatever drunken mess I was.

[ As he talks, he paces a little. ]

Because I didn't know if I'd ever have someone like that who could make me feel that way or like I mattered or something. So if I just forgot about you, forgot about whatever it was I felt, then... it wouldn't hurt so bad with being here.

[ A gentle admission there. ]

I've done it before, so. Why not just do it again?

[ Forget the people he cares about who are no longer here so that he hurts less. ]

But now you're here and I... missed you? But I don't want to see you end up beaten and tortured or turned into something you hate and you're kissing Alucard and kissing me and maybe I feel jealous now but I kissed that asshole as well and I don't know what the fuck is going on except that I'm becoming a vampire and going to die.

[ Well. At least it's all out now?? ]

Trevor...

[Sypha lets him finish. She's quiet the whole way through, her expression turning fairly serious.]

...I know you missed me. I know you don't want to see me get hurt.

[The mention of torture, well, it's something she's beginning to connect the dots on. He doesn't want to talk about something big. Sounds like he probably was one of the abducted, but now is not the time to bring that up.]

But I know you also don't want to be alone. And I know you care about me. And I care about you. Come what may, you're stuck with me.

[And him, but, later.]

I just want...you to know that you aren't alone.

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You do?

[ Care about him... know that he cares about her. Yeah.

He chuckles softly albeit more tiredly than amused and a hand comes to run down his face before resting over his mouth, eventually slipping down to fall against his side. ]

I'd forgotten what it's like to not feel alone.

Yeah. I know.

[She holds out her arms to him anyway.]

Give me a hug? That's a good start to learning how to be connected again.

[ He just... feels tired. From getting more weak and sick as the days go by, the sunlight, and... being on this emotional rollercoaster all of a sudden. And yet, when she holds her arms open for him, when she asks for that hug, he finds himself coming towards her and gently wraps her up in an embrace. Gentle at first but soon, tight, though mindful of the vampire strength he's been starting to have. His face buries itself against the crook of her neck and he just... breathes, for a moment.

This is her... she really is here. ]

I missed you...

[ Words he mumbles softly to her. Just for her. ]

[She holds him back tightly. She's not the strongest, or the fittest, but she has a good grip and she knows how to hug. She's the experienced one here, somehow.

Holding tight, Sypha tilts her head to mirror the gesture, ignoring the soggy feeling of his cloak.]

I know. And I'm here now. So. Let me help you, Trevor.

[ Despite her not being able to see it given his face pressed against the crook of her neck and all, he smiles to himself at her words, at the way she feels with her arms around him. Safe. Wanted. That's... how it feels with her. Even if they sometimes argue.

With a hum, he nuzzles at her, a hand coming up to rest against the side of her neck. His fingers aren't as bruised as they had been and his touch is a little cool what with his still turning into a vampire. But he closes his eyes, just... feels her warmth against his skin and despite the fact that they're not yet Bonded, he still feels a closeness to her that he can't really put into words. ]

Don't take this the wrong way but... your blood smells really good.

[Sypha relaxes a bit, her fingers warm against his soggy back. She'd do more, but he's kind of a big oaf, and she's not really sure how to move without disturbing a peace he seems to have finally, at last, found within himself.]

It's fine.

[She laughs softly, playful, unconcerned.]

Maybe I'll share with you sometime. I don't mind, if it's you.

[ That's... something. He's not sure what. He hasn't even drank Alucard's blood nor has he asked nor has the blond offered. He gets his blood from someone else and... that took a good two months to even be somewhat ok with. Truthfully? He's still not all that ok with drinking blood but he's... getting better at it. Disgusting as that sounds.

But he turns his head some, still resting against her as they stand there and slowly blinks.]

I'd rather have something else first.

And what's that?

[Okay. She will bite. What's he got in mind?]

[ The fact that she actually asks shouldn't surprise him as much as it does and yet, here they are. But he pulls himself back from, strands of hair messily in his face and it's with that hand still resting against the side of her neck that he leans in, not as quick as a viper as she had been, and presses a kiss to her lips. Just like that. ]

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