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middaeg2019-09-18 01:08 pm
overworker) wrote in middaeg2019-09-18 01:08 pm
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✧ [OPEN]
Who: Towa Herschel and open
When: after 9/16
Where: Dorchacht
What: After the shared dream, Towa has a lot on her mind.
Warnings: None
Resistance Work
[It might have been wise to take a step back for her. Even she knew that. But she can't bring herself to do that with so much to be done still.
But this isn't something that can be done safely when your mind isn't actively in it.
The mission was still a success. But she'd made a number of careless mistakes that resulted in a number of cuts and bruises that shouldn't have happened. After, she can only do one thing-- and that is wrap her wounds. Luckily she prepared a number of first aid supplies when she left. It wasn't like she could begin to pretend that she was practiced in healing. She usually left that to others. Well... it will do for now. But it's a new sight for her-- bandages wrapped around her right arm and her left leg.]
Good as new.
[...right. If you witnessed her performance earlier though, you might wonder what's really going on. It's not hard to see something's bothering her.]
By the Docks
[The boat has already returned, so she knows there's really no point in her being here. Yet she finds herself wanting to sit by the water for a while. Looking out at the sky she tries to remember exactly what direction the city of Aefenglom was. There's no hope of seeing it, so she can only imagine what's going on there right now. Biting her lip, she kicks a little stone into the water and watches it splash.]
Towa, you can't keep being indecisive every time something important happens. You always do this... so it's no wonder you always end up with so many regrets.
[It certainly would be embarrassing if someone heard her own self-lecture.]
Shopping
[Towa promised Fie a souvenir and that at least is something she should be able to handle even in this state. It will give her some time to wander and maybe think through her-- her thoughts, fears, regrets, wishes... But with all that on her mind, she could probably actually use the help finding a suitable gift.]
I. [There are suitable weapons, an obvious choice perhaps, but one she knows Fie could put to very good use. The style is dark and sleek, and surprisingly light to carry.]
At this size, even I could wield it.
II. [She also observes the plants; both flowering and not. Fie was a member of the gardening club, after all. Maybe she would enjoy having something like this to plant back home?]
I wonder if they'd still grow comfortably back in Aefenglom...
When: after 9/16
Where: Dorchacht
What: After the shared dream, Towa has a lot on her mind.
Warnings: None
Resistance Work
[It might have been wise to take a step back for her. Even she knew that. But she can't bring herself to do that with so much to be done still.
But this isn't something that can be done safely when your mind isn't actively in it.
The mission was still a success. But she'd made a number of careless mistakes that resulted in a number of cuts and bruises that shouldn't have happened. After, she can only do one thing-- and that is wrap her wounds. Luckily she prepared a number of first aid supplies when she left. It wasn't like she could begin to pretend that she was practiced in healing. She usually left that to others. Well... it will do for now. But it's a new sight for her-- bandages wrapped around her right arm and her left leg.]
Good as new.
[...right. If you witnessed her performance earlier though, you might wonder what's really going on. It's not hard to see something's bothering her.]
By the Docks
[The boat has already returned, so she knows there's really no point in her being here. Yet she finds herself wanting to sit by the water for a while. Looking out at the sky she tries to remember exactly what direction the city of Aefenglom was. There's no hope of seeing it, so she can only imagine what's going on there right now. Biting her lip, she kicks a little stone into the water and watches it splash.]
Towa, you can't keep being indecisive every time something important happens. You always do this... so it's no wonder you always end up with so many regrets.
[It certainly would be embarrassing if someone heard her own self-lecture.]
Shopping
[Towa promised Fie a souvenir and that at least is something she should be able to handle even in this state. It will give her some time to wander and maybe think through her-- her thoughts, fears, regrets, wishes... But with all that on her mind, she could probably actually use the help finding a suitable gift.]
I. [There are suitable weapons, an obvious choice perhaps, but one she knows Fie could put to very good use. The style is dark and sleek, and surprisingly light to carry.]
At this size, even I could wield it.
II. [She also observes the plants; both flowering and not. Fie was a member of the gardening club, after all. Maybe she would enjoy having something like this to plant back home?]
I wonder if they'd still grow comfortably back in Aefenglom...
no subject
[ Probably far worse than Towa ever will. ]
But when people have that much faith in you, it's probably not just that they think you'll do the right thing. It's also that they trust you to realize when you've done the wrong thing, and do your best to fix it.
no subject
[Try as she may, that's where her hesitation lies.]
And... It's because I know that that I always find myself hesitating. I'm afraid of what my mistakes could mean for others. [...] I worry that the trust they've given me may simply be a result of all the work I've put in, and not my true skill. If I'm not really cut out to be a leader... then my inadequacies could one day really hurt the people I care about the most.