[Closed] We'll go the distance 'cause we can't help but to act supernatural

[adventageous]

Who: Alice and Karin
When: morning of Maiuril 2
Where: their home
What: a heart-to-heart about the men in their lives, timey-wimey bullshit, and most importantly how they feel about each other
Warnings: massive spoilers for Shadow Hearts and Shadow Hearts: Covenant
(will add additional warnings if/when they come up)



[May arrives with a deluge of rain, the sort of weather that makes a person want to stay in bed where it's warm and dry. Karin and Alice both soldier through the first day of the storm, seeing to obligations inside and outside of the whom. However, when Alice wakes up to find the second morning of May to be as dreary as the first, she decides to lean into the desire to be unproductive.

Karin isn't a late sleeper, but Alice is up and out of her bed first. When Karin finally awakes and walks out to the living room, she'll find Alice curled up on the couch nursing a mug of tea. She's still dressed in her nightgown and half-buried beneath a blanket. A box of donuts--purchased the day before from one of the local bakeries--is open on the coffee table, two small plates set out beside it. Alice may have already finished her first, as evidenced by the crumbs sitting on the plate closest to her.

She greets Karin with a warm smile.]

Good morning.

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[sonnestark]

I still don't know what all of it means for me, or how things are going to move forward if I ever go back. I feel guilty, that I'm not in any hurry to do so.

[Not when she knows how brief her time will be, and while it's more than Alice has left, the idea of a life that's not her choosing makes her throat feel tight and her chest feel hollow.

Alice's words, however, cause her breath to catch in her throat, and she looks back to her bondmate.]

I don't know why I thought it might change things. I thought... maybe you would decide I wasn't who you thought I was. Some days, I feel like I don't even know how I am. But I do know that while I'm here, I don't want to waste any more time being afraid to tell the people I love that I care about them. I want the life I have here to be shaped by my choices, not destiny.

[adventageous]

[Alice is no stranger to guilt when it comes to how her life has developed here, but it comes from a different place. As far as she's aware, her role in their world has come to its end--there's nothing preventing her from staying in Geargadas indefinitely until she's called home and to heaven. For her, it's the depth and breadth of the relationships she's formed here pressing up against notions of what she's always believed love should look like that makes her feel uncomfortable with herself.

They'll have to discuss it, but first she wants to enjoy this moment and the warmth in her chest from hearing Karin reciprocate her feelings, even if it comes with a bit of uncertain sadness.]

I can't begin to understand how you feel, but this doesn't change anything about who I know you are. You're strong and beautiful, and your heart is large and loyal. I'm so lucky that I get to see your smile every morning, when you let yourself truly relax. What kind of terrible person would I be to recoil from that because your future is more complicated than I first knew? Neither of our lives have happened the way we had intended.

You owe it to yourself to be happy, and to choose and love as you please while you're in this world. And I'm honored, to be here with you.

[She pauses, searching her bondmate's face.]

Would... it be all right if I kissed you?

[The moment feels right, but she doesn't want to push anything--especially after what happened in the Cwyldheart. It's better to make sure Karin's okay with things before acting.]

time to cry

[sonnestark]

[Is this what it felt like, to finally be the person someone chose for themselves? Even if there were others— and Karin, of course, was no stranger to having to come to terms with strong feelings for more than one person at a time— Alice is still sitting beside her and asking to kiss her, and somehow the fact that she feels the need to ask is even more powerful than the moment they'd shared in the Cwyldheart.

She's so used to not being good enough, or being told she's too good. She's never had the chance to just be with anyone she loves, not without compromises, and this...

It feels wonderful, to finally be chosen.]

I'd... I would like that.

[It's so few words, compared to all Alice had said, and she can feel her face burning bright red even as she responds. This time, she's ready for what comes next.]

♥

[adventageous]

[The words are few, but they're just as deeply felt. Alice is just as grateful to be accepted as Karin is to have been chosen, and the swell in her heart she feels and sends through their Bond is proof positive of that.

She leans in and presses her lips to Karin's softly, kissing her with less intensity than in the Cwyldheart but with no less love and passion. In the moment, nothing else exists--not the rain, nor the tea, nor the coffee that's to come. Just them.

And it's perfect.]