(closed) parting is such sweet sorrow they say

[quickwhip]

Who: Trevor Belmont and others
When: middle of the month
Where: various spots
What: Trevor loses a bond and pretends everything is ok as you do when in denial
Warnings: Trevor being Trevor, cursing, drinking, possible vampire stuff, others tbd



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[cryptsleeper]

[When Trevor sits, Alucard moves closer. Leans his head against Trevor's shoulder, and he hopes that the vampire will be able to at least put an arm around his shoulder. Beyond that though?

Who the fuck even knows what to do here.]

Just....be here, with me.

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[ There's a part of him that wonders if they're going to fall back into their old ways of just... snarking at one another and not exactly being the emotional support for each other. that they might need. That thought worries Trevor a bit, recalling the days when he had thought he was trying to be there for Alucard and the blond just more or less blowing him off... but then he apparently did feel things for him and that just confused Trevor and god help him he CANNOT go through that confusion again.

But when Alucard leans against him, he sighs, hand coming to touch at the blond's knee where he gives a gentle but reassuring squeeze. ]

Do you... want to cry or something?

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It may happen.

[He sighs, and simply snugs further against Trevor. One arm goes low around Trevor's waist, and the dhampir is for all the wall just trying to get comfortable against Trevor. He wants to be held in the new wave of emotions that are swinging between grief and sorrow and a gentle relief that no, she isn't actually dead.

Alucard's breath is unsteady.]

Can I sleep down here the next few days?

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[ Without even realizing it, his arm gently snakes around the blond's back and he carefully pulls him in close, fingers pressing softly against his shoulder. This just... feels like the right thing to do, doesn't it? Even if he's still not sure what he's feeling or thinking. He knows Alucard has dealt with a lot- has lost a lot and he doesn't want him to sink further. ]

Yeah. I can... try and stay up during the day for a bit. If you want.

[ It's not IMPOSSIBLE but it's just... a little more tiring to do. ]

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[Alucard's head tucks right under Trevor's chin. This is good. All he wants right now, being held and having reassuring pressure against his shoulder. There is a very soft sigh that makes it clear he can manage through this.]

I appreciate that. But I don't want you sacrificing your health.

Just be around to do this in the evening?

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I don't mind.

[ The words are quick to come and yet soft at the same time as he lets Alucard just curl against him in a manner of speaking. ]

I don't want you to feel lonely. So I'll stay up for as long as I can. Just... make sure I have blood to keep me energized.

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[Lonely.

That is the threat, isn't it? With Trevor confined to nighttime hours, that means too many hours in the day that he won't have another person around.

It isn't a thought he wants to sit with. He squeezes Trevor's middle gently, knowing that this loss isn't his alone. Trevor has had his own losses in life, and so he squeezes again.]

If you need anything from me--

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[ He's all that's left of the Belmont name and has been his only family, friend, companion, confidant and whatever else since he lost everyone around the age of twelve or so. He's... used to it. But that doesn't mean he likes it. Doesn't mean he wants to go back to that.

Fingers find their way through Alucard's hair and he gingerly holds the back of his head, chin coming to rest atop the crown. ]

I'll take care of you.

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[I'll take care of you.

That's all Alucard can ask for. In truth, it's all he's wanted, just never been able to articulate. Being taken care of means being safe. Reassured. Loved.

Fingers in his hair always soothes Alucard. He's shown it in the moments after sex, but here and now, it settles differently.]

I love you too.