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[ Trevor doesn't usually dream when he sleeps through the day. Or, if he does, he never seems to remember them. Whether or not that's a good thing is anyone's guess and personal preference, really. But despite the inability to dream, he still remains a heavy sleeper and there's really not much that can stir him from his slumber once he's gone down in his casket.
So it's confusing- a shock, really, when he finds himself suddenly being pulled to wake within the darkness of his casket and it takes him only a second or two of realizing that he's awake when he suddenly feels that dull ache deep within the center of his chest.
The top of his casket is pushed off, a hand gripping the side as he pulls himself up and gasps a bit because- what the bloody hell?? He's not supposed to be awake yet, there's still daylight outside. So why... is he awake??
But the ache which pricks at him in such a dull manner has him roll himself out of his casket and hit the floor with a THUD before he rights himself up and tries to figure out just what the hell is going on.
Alucard he hears. His heartbeat that he's come to memorize and after taking a moment to pull himself out of the hazy fog that is currently his mind with still being sleepy and confused at the same time, he notices that he doesn't hear Sypha's heartbeat... and that causes him to get himself up rather quickly.
He finds Alucard within a matter of moments and it's with that tired but still quick speed of his that he comes to stand there in the doorway of wherever it is Alucard's found. ]
What happened?
So it's confusing- a shock, really, when he finds himself suddenly being pulled to wake within the darkness of his casket and it takes him only a second or two of realizing that he's awake when he suddenly feels that dull ache deep within the center of his chest.
The top of his casket is pushed off, a hand gripping the side as he pulls himself up and gasps a bit because- what the bloody hell?? He's not supposed to be awake yet, there's still daylight outside. So why... is he awake??
But the ache which pricks at him in such a dull manner has him roll himself out of his casket and hit the floor with a THUD before he rights himself up and tries to figure out just what the hell is going on.
Alucard he hears. His heartbeat that he's come to memorize and after taking a moment to pull himself out of the hazy fog that is currently his mind with still being sleepy and confused at the same time, he notices that he doesn't hear Sypha's heartbeat... and that causes him to get himself up rather quickly.
He finds Alucard within a matter of moments and it's with that tired but still quick speed of his that he comes to stand there in the doorway of wherever it is Alucard's found. ]
What happened?
Edited 2020-07-19 23:18 (UTC)
[ The Sly Seadog isn't exactly the sort of place Trevor usually finds himself, but with everything that's gone on, he sure as fuck needs a drink. Or two. Three. Make it four, five, six, seven. Which... says something, really. It's been a long fucking time since he's drowned himself in glass after glass after glass of beer because... things had been going pretty well. About as well as they can go for someone who's both seen and been through some shit here in the almost year that he's been here now. But he'd formed friendships, found himself some bonds, and even... felt like he had a place with others. Like he cared for others and they cared for him in return.
But, as life usually goes, that's all bullshit now and that's why he's here at The Sly Seadog, downing his... whatever number this is drink. Hell if he knows and hell if it matters.
Suffice to say, he's... a little gone. Slumped over on the table he's found for himself in the far corner of the place with his leg stretched out and fingers dipped in the half-empty glass that ISN'T tipped over like all the others. He's not passed out but he's definitely trying to get himself to be there. It's just, you know, NIGHTTIME AND ALL and being a vampire, he's sure as fuck wide awake.
There's a deep-rooted heartache that flickers throughout his bond and when someone accidentally trips over his leg and Trevor just LAUGHS to himself while peeking through fingers against his face, he's grabbed by the scruff of his cloak and yanked up to his feet to which Trevor just GRINS and drops his head back. He's about to get his face smashed in. ]
Go ahead you... goat fucker. Make my fucking day.
But, as life usually goes, that's all bullshit now and that's why he's here at The Sly Seadog, downing his... whatever number this is drink. Hell if he knows and hell if it matters.
Suffice to say, he's... a little gone. Slumped over on the table he's found for himself in the far corner of the place with his leg stretched out and fingers dipped in the half-empty glass that ISN'T tipped over like all the others. He's not passed out but he's definitely trying to get himself to be there. It's just, you know, NIGHTTIME AND ALL and being a vampire, he's sure as fuck wide awake.
There's a deep-rooted heartache that flickers throughout his bond and when someone accidentally trips over his leg and Trevor just LAUGHS to himself while peeking through fingers against his face, he's grabbed by the scruff of his cloak and yanked up to his feet to which Trevor just GRINS and drops his head back. He's about to get his face smashed in. ]
Go ahead you... goat fucker. Make my fucking day.
Edited 2020-07-20 02:12 (UTC)
[ It's dusk when the knocks come, the distant sound of crickets chirping around him as he stares to the door. He has... absolutely no idea what the fuck he's doing here but, here he is. At Hector's place. Shared place, mind you, when he's not even sure if the faun is home or not. Maybe he should have checked that sooner but... he just sort of ended up here somehow.
He lacs the cheery, playful sort of aura about him he carries with him even as a vampire and, instead, seems quiet, gaze turned down, pale fingers gently tugging at his cloak around him a little more. He's not even cold. It's just something for his fingers to do. Something he can focus on somehow? Which is maybe why he's here. Yeah. Yeah, that's it.
That's definitely what he'll say instead of anything else he doesn't want to be thinking about. ]
He lacs the cheery, playful sort of aura about him he carries with him even as a vampire and, instead, seems quiet, gaze turned down, pale fingers gently tugging at his cloak around him a little more. He's not even cold. It's just something for his fingers to do. Something he can focus on somehow? Which is maybe why he's here. Yeah. Yeah, that's it.
That's definitely what he'll say instead of anything else he doesn't want to be thinking about. ]
Edited 2020-07-20 01:41 (UTC)
[Alucard made the house possible to walk through if Trevor needed to in the middle of the day. There's a part of the house on the first floor that connects to the basement that has no windows, and the door on it opens opposite a wall. It isn't ideal, but it's enough for Trevor to get up to the door, open, and yell from the area if there's a true emergency.
They haven't had to use it until just now. Because that's where Alucard is standing. Door ajar, his shoulder leaning against the frame, back towards Trevor. His shoulders are slumped, and he pauses before reaching one hand back towards Trevor.]
She'll be back, I'm sure.
[His voice is soft. Not sad, not yet. Just slowly carefully absorbing what has come to pass.]
They haven't had to use it until just now. Because that's where Alucard is standing. Door ajar, his shoulder leaning against the frame, back towards Trevor. His shoulders are slumped, and he pauses before reaching one hand back towards Trevor.]
She'll be back, I'm sure.
[His voice is soft. Not sad, not yet. Just slowly carefully absorbing what has come to pass.]
Edited 2020-07-20 01:10 (UTC)
[ She? She'll be back? He's sure?
Trevor stands there in silence for a long moment as he lets his sleepy mind wrap around that. Fingers are both careful and gentle in the way they take hold of Alucard's, so cold and pale against the blond's. ]
Back from... where?
[ Yet even as he asks that... he knows. ]
Trevor stands there in silence for a long moment as he lets his sleepy mind wrap around that. Fingers are both careful and gentle in the way they take hold of Alucard's, so cold and pale against the blond's. ]
Back from... where?
[ Yet even as he asks that... he knows. ]
[Silence is the response. It is heavy and thick and as suffocating as the summer heat that swelters outside of the house. Sypha was working with ice magic among other things. Alucard was a miserable thing in heat now that he wasn't naturally cool.
Alucard shifts his angle slightly, so that he can lean back and feel Trevor behind him. He doesn't dare to do more than that right away, but. But.
He breathes out, and they both know.]
Wherever you and she went after the castle, I imagine.
Alucard shifts his angle slightly, so that he can lean back and feel Trevor behind him. He doesn't dare to do more than that right away, but. But.
He breathes out, and they both know.]
Wherever you and she went after the castle, I imagine.
[ Trevor's gaze drifts past the blond and just... keeps drifting. To somewhere. Hell if he knows. The only thing to keep him right here in this moment is the fact that Alucard comes to lean back against him and having those fingers held with his own. ]
You felt it too then...
[ Because of course he did. Of course they both did. ]
You felt it too then...
[ Because of course he did. Of course they both did. ]
[Alucard makes a soft noise that sounds like a general agreement one. He doesn't move much. He only closes his eyes and tries to let his breath settle.
It doesn't.]
Can I please go downstairs with you?
It doesn't.]
Can I please go downstairs with you?
[ His dragon bonded, Berserker, had gone through losing two bonds and the second time it had happened, they'd been bonded together and he had felt the grief and heartache that came with it and this... this is very very similar to that feeling he had felt through their bond back then. It's why he knows exactly what this is and he just... doesn't know what to think, what to feel... what this means for the two of them now.
But he doesn't let his thoughts linger on that, at least not right now. ]
Yeah. If you want.
[ Gently, he tugs at Alucard's hand. ]
Come on.
But he doesn't let his thoughts linger on that, at least not right now. ]
Yeah. If you want.
[ Gently, he tugs at Alucard's hand. ]
Come on.
Safer for you. Sun's still up.
[Summer and all.
Descending the stairs into the basement apartment feels familiar enough. What he always does to check on Trevor when the twilight hits and he can come upstairs to join the two of them and--
--it'll just be him.
That hits. That pokes at grief in a way Alucard doesn't like, and it coincides with his flopping onto the sofa that's down in the basement.
Sypha's not dead. Just gone for now, and it is a miserable way to try and console oneself through such grief. Yet it is a fact Alucard clings to, bringing his knees close to his chest and then looking to Trevor.]
You okay?
[Summer and all.
Descending the stairs into the basement apartment feels familiar enough. What he always does to check on Trevor when the twilight hits and he can come upstairs to join the two of them and--
--it'll just be him.
That hits. That pokes at grief in a way Alucard doesn't like, and it coincides with his flopping onto the sofa that's down in the basement.
Sypha's not dead. Just gone for now, and it is a miserable way to try and console oneself through such grief. Yet it is a fact Alucard clings to, bringing his knees close to his chest and then looking to Trevor.]
You okay?
[ His movements are slow as he follows along down to his safe haven and when Alucard drops himself down to the sofa, Trevor just stands there in front of him. This is... fuck. He has no idea what this is, what he feels, what he thinks, what he wants to feel or think. His thoughts are more or less aligned with the blond's in the sense that it's not like she's dead... to his knowledge... but she's still. Not here. And with everything that's happened in the few months she had been here between them... what does any of that mean?
It takes him a moment before he realizes Alucard is asking him something and blue eyes blink slowly before he just lets himself nod a couple times. Slowly. ]
Yeah. Just... standing here.
It takes him a moment before he realizes Alucard is asking him something and blue eyes blink slowly before he just lets himself nod a couple times. Slowly. ]
Yeah. Just... standing here.
I can see that.
[Standing. Not sitting with him. Alucard knows that they can't go back to their shitty communication problems, and so he tries to head problem one off at the past by looking at the space beside him.]
Sit? Please?
[Standing. Not sitting with him. Alucard knows that they can't go back to their shitty communication problems, and so he tries to head problem one off at the past by looking at the space beside him.]
Sit? Please?
[When Trevor sits, Alucard moves closer. Leans his head against Trevor's shoulder, and he hopes that the vampire will be able to at least put an arm around his shoulder. Beyond that though?
Who the fuck even knows what to do here.]
Just....be here, with me.
Who the fuck even knows what to do here.]
Just....be here, with me.
[ There's a part of him that wonders if they're going to fall back into their old ways of just... snarking at one another and not exactly being the emotional support for each other. that they might need. That thought worries Trevor a bit, recalling the days when he had thought he was trying to be there for Alucard and the blond just more or less blowing him off... but then he apparently did feel things for him and that just confused Trevor and god help him he CANNOT go through that confusion again.
But when Alucard leans against him, he sighs, hand coming to touch at the blond's knee where he gives a gentle but reassuring squeeze. ]
Do you... want to cry or something?
But when Alucard leans against him, he sighs, hand coming to touch at the blond's knee where he gives a gentle but reassuring squeeze. ]
Do you... want to cry or something?
It may happen.
[He sighs, and simply snugs further against Trevor. One arm goes low around Trevor's waist, and the dhampir is for all the wall just trying to get comfortable against Trevor. He wants to be held in the new wave of emotions that are swinging between grief and sorrow and a gentle relief that no, she isn't actually dead.
Alucard's breath is unsteady.]
Can I sleep down here the next few days?
[He sighs, and simply snugs further against Trevor. One arm goes low around Trevor's waist, and the dhampir is for all the wall just trying to get comfortable against Trevor. He wants to be held in the new wave of emotions that are swinging between grief and sorrow and a gentle relief that no, she isn't actually dead.
Alucard's breath is unsteady.]
Can I sleep down here the next few days?
[ Without even realizing it, his arm gently snakes around the blond's back and he carefully pulls him in close, fingers pressing softly against his shoulder. This just... feels like the right thing to do, doesn't it? Even if he's still not sure what he's feeling or thinking. He knows Alucard has dealt with a lot- has lost a lot and he doesn't want him to sink further. ]
Yeah. I can... try and stay up during the day for a bit. If you want.
[ It's not IMPOSSIBLE but it's just... a little more tiring to do. ]
Yeah. I can... try and stay up during the day for a bit. If you want.
[ It's not IMPOSSIBLE but it's just... a little more tiring to do. ]
[Alucard's head tucks right under Trevor's chin. This is good. All he wants right now, being held and having reassuring pressure against his shoulder. There is a very soft sigh that makes it clear he can manage through this.]
I appreciate that. But I don't want you sacrificing your health.
Just be around to do this in the evening?
I appreciate that. But I don't want you sacrificing your health.
Just be around to do this in the evening?
I don't mind.
[ The words are quick to come and yet soft at the same time as he lets Alucard just curl against him in a manner of speaking. ]
I don't want you to feel lonely. So I'll stay up for as long as I can. Just... make sure I have blood to keep me energized.
[ The words are quick to come and yet soft at the same time as he lets Alucard just curl against him in a manner of speaking. ]
I don't want you to feel lonely. So I'll stay up for as long as I can. Just... make sure I have blood to keep me energized.
[Lonely.
That is the threat, isn't it? With Trevor confined to nighttime hours, that means too many hours in the day that he won't have another person around.
It isn't a thought he wants to sit with. He squeezes Trevor's middle gently, knowing that this loss isn't his alone. Trevor has had his own losses in life, and so he squeezes again.]
If you need anything from me--
That is the threat, isn't it? With Trevor confined to nighttime hours, that means too many hours in the day that he won't have another person around.
It isn't a thought he wants to sit with. He squeezes Trevor's middle gently, knowing that this loss isn't his alone. Trevor has had his own losses in life, and so he squeezes again.]
If you need anything from me--
[ He's all that's left of the Belmont name and has been his only family, friend, companion, confidant and whatever else since he lost everyone around the age of twelve or so. He's... used to it. But that doesn't mean he likes it. Doesn't mean he wants to go back to that.
Fingers find their way through Alucard's hair and he gingerly holds the back of his head, chin coming to rest atop the crown. ]
I'll take care of you.
Fingers find their way through Alucard's hair and he gingerly holds the back of his head, chin coming to rest atop the crown. ]
I'll take care of you.
[I'll take care of you.
That's all Alucard can ask for. In truth, it's all he's wanted, just never been able to articulate. Being taken care of means being safe. Reassured. Loved.
Fingers in his hair always soothes Alucard. He's shown it in the moments after sex, but here and now, it settles differently.]
I love you too.
That's all Alucard can ask for. In truth, it's all he's wanted, just never been able to articulate. Being taken care of means being safe. Reassured. Loved.
Fingers in his hair always soothes Alucard. He's shown it in the moments after sex, but here and now, it settles differently.]
I love you too.
[ Berserker is aware of Trevor's status right now -- he has the unenviable task of being the bouncer at this time of night. The rowdiest crowd usually comes out about this time, making his life difficult at best and exhausting at worse. Letting him drink his sorrows away is fine, preferable even. He's keeping to himself and...making a mess, but that's someone else's problem.
Trevor quickly becomes his problem, though.
Sigh.
Time to break it up. He slowly gets to his feet, closing the distance in a hurry. ]
Drop him before I drop you.
[ Something about a very large, very muscular dragon with a look so cold it could freeze you solid is enough to intimidate most into behaving. The "goat fucker", as Trevor so eloquently put it, drops the vampire, stammers an apology, and moves on.
Berserker's look softens a little bit as he looks at his bonded's awful state. He hasn't been this bad in a long time. ]
...I felt that, you know.
Trevor quickly becomes his problem, though.
Sigh.
Time to break it up. He slowly gets to his feet, closing the distance in a hurry. ]
Drop him before I drop you.
[ Something about a very large, very muscular dragon with a look so cold it could freeze you solid is enough to intimidate most into behaving. The "goat fucker", as Trevor so eloquently put it, drops the vampire, stammers an apology, and moves on.
Berserker's look softens a little bit as he looks at his bonded's awful state. He hasn't been this bad in a long time. ]
...I felt that, you know.
[There's really only one person who would be knocking on Hector's door at this time of the evening. Hector's dressed in a robe and getting the animals in the cottage settled in for the night. He doesn't bother dressing to answer the door.]
Hey, you're up early.
[He's in a fine mood, a little teasing, until he studies Trevor's face a little closer. His smirk straightens out into a line.]
Everything alright?
Hey, you're up early.
[He's in a fine mood, a little teasing, until he studies Trevor's face a little closer. His smirk straightens out into a line.]
Everything alright?
Edited 2020-07-21 01:30 (UTC)
[ The fact that he doesn't playfully clap back about his being up early or whatever is another indicator that he's a little "off his game" as it were and he lets his gaze drift off to the side for a moment before he gives a grunt and then a wave of his hand. ]
Fine. Everything's... fine.
[ Sure doesn't sound like it. But, you know, whatever. ]
Do you have those cats here? The ones I can take?
Fine. Everything's... fine.
[ Sure doesn't sound like it. But, you know, whatever. ]
Do you have those cats here? The ones I can take?
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