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Fie Claussell ([personal profile] sylphid) wrote in [community profile] middaeg2020-07-04 11:23 pm

ANIMAL HOUSE

Who: Fie, Shinjiro, Louis, and/or Minato (Animal House)
When: July
Where: The Animal House (or whatever)
What: ... things
Warnings: N/A (will update as needed)

[Shit happens, and here we go. Or whatever.]
hoboagogo: (Wrote the gospel on giving up)

[personal profile] hoboagogo 2020-07-05 05:03 am (UTC)(link)
Probably just 'red' flavour.

[He glances down at it as they walk. Farther from the festivities of the unfurled carnival, in the direction of the the Haven. Long familiar streets, circling close to the coven, up towards the Northern district that they'd found a home in. And he'll even take a bite of it-- nearly literally. Bringing it up to his mouth and using his tongue to wrench off a chunk of the shaved ice to just eat it like that. And just as she's surmised, it's not quite correctly any kind of fruit, just a sweet sort of 'red'.

At least that's something consistent across universes.

Still, the brief respite of simply walking next to one another does help. And he gives an aggravated noise at the question. Mostly just a token protest, really.]


Kinda hard to explain.

[But he'll at least try. While he still very clearly doesn't want to delve deep into it, with the shut down sensation on his end of the bond, he's at least willing to communicate with her.]

Apparently there's different versions of my world back home. I met another Minato. [He waves his free hand, as though dismissing something.] Didn't feel like dealing with it.
hoboagogo: (Take all I've got from me)

[personal profile] hoboagogo 2020-07-05 05:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Nah, the red's fine.

[The ice is good in the muggy warmth of Aefenglom, at least. And so he'll bring the small paper cup up again to just.... shake the rest into his mouth and crunch it down. Which is a good way to get a brainfreeze, but whatever. It at least gives him an excuse to be quiet for a bit as Fie carefully points out the details in what he said and what he didn't, something he'd honestly expected.

And really... it's nice, how calm and patient she is. Even though she'd come for him immediately, there'd been no overbearing or demanding details. Just that soft, nudging pressure of emotions and support through the bond.

But it's hard to work out just what it was exactly that had blown the interaction with Minako all to shit. Maybe he words-- It shouldn't have happened. When his own dying breath, through lungs destroyed by lead, had been This is how it should be.

Maybe whatever 'him' had been back home for her felt differently. Maybe the worlds weren't as similar as they wanted to believe.

And so he shakes his head- ears down, tail low, everything in his posture clearly not up for any deep-soul-searching-- but despite that, he'll answer. Over all these months, Fie had absolutely earned his trust in matters he never wanted to address.]


She felt responsible for me dying. Wanted me to forgive her for letting it happen. [He can't help the roll of his eyes.]

Fuckin' stupid.
Edited 2020-07-06 00:13 (UTC)
hoboagogo: (Knives in the heart on my sleeve)

[personal profile] hoboagogo 2020-07-06 01:57 am (UTC)(link)
[She talks, and it sounds reasonable enough, but... He can't slot it in place in his mind. Sure, he's seen it. When Akihiko had lost his sister, for sure. But at least he had focused his efforts onward. Into improving himself, top prevent it from happening again. (No matter how many times Shinjiro told him 'we were just kids, what could you even have done?'

Sure, people felt responsible for things they didn't have to. But--]


Wondering about that kinda thing is one thing. Coming up and asking to be forgiven for it's another. [He shakes his head, clearly disagreeing with the whole logic of it.]

The last thing I wanna do is be responsible for someone else getting over my death. They can work through that on their own.

[And... it's a very personal thing, isn't it? His death is his own. It's a personal, private thing. He chose it, he accepted it, he took responsability for it. Others could mourn, sure. They could have their greviences. But being told that it shouldn't have happened-- it really had bitten at him.]

Anyway, she got pissed and told me not to lecture her on death, and that's it, alright? Sorry I didn't get back to you sooner.
hoboagogo: (Feel like you are breaking down)

[personal profile] hoboagogo 2020-07-06 02:47 am (UTC)(link)
[He'll huff, but he won't argue the first point. Because he'll give her that. She doesn't need to be snapped at, just because he doesn't feel like examining the motivations of someone he just had a run-in with. Hell, there hadn't even been that much of an argument. It had just been a clash, really.

His fingers curl around the remains of the cup from the shaved ice, crumpling it in his hand, and he'll just... tuck it into his pocket. He'll toss it out when they get home.]


Does it even matter why it happened? [He rolls a shoulder as he walks- though can't help that frown deepening at her voicing her worry. Be it from guilt or from just being exhausted at being responsible for someone's feelings again, it's hard to be sure.]

And it's not like I was hurt or anything. [It's still a bit on the defensive side, though not consciously so. At the very least he isn't trying to be obstinate, for once. He'll accept that she was worried-- those sudden shifts in emotion through the bond are prominant, and seeing a huge change is always a concern. So he gets that part.]

I get it. You were worried. But I don't see why you gotta be now, since you know what it was about. I just didn't want to talk to her anymore, so I didn't.
hoboagogo: (Close your eyes but it won't erase)

[personal profile] hoboagogo 2020-07-07 03:39 am (UTC)(link)
[Again, he can't claim she's wrong. Because she's exactly right-- his plan had been mnostly to go home and shove his face into the couch and just let himself be aggravated over the whole thing. Work it out in his mind, try and figure out even how to feel about it, let alone what to do.

He can't help but frown at her words, though.]


So what am I supposed to do? I can't just not feel something about it. [This time, at least, it's not snippy. But tired. Resigned, almost. Because sure, she's right. And yeah, his feelings probably are exhausting to deal with. But he doesn't know what else to do. He can't help having them. And yeah, he's irritated by it all, and irritated that his irritation is apparently an immediate problem for bondmates that has to be addressed before he can even get home and process it all himself.

It's one of the few times he's frustrated about the idea of being bonded. Of being even more of a fuckup and not able to keep his emotions to himself, and the fact that others are unwilling witnesses to it.

She likens them to a team, but it's hard to feel as though he's equally contributing to any sort of balance.]


Please don't give a speech. [He pulls a face when he says that. Because man, he could absolutely do without a 'we're in a relationship and something something partnership' speech right now.] Just-- gimme some time to even figure out what the hell it's all about.
hoboagogo: (Because my backbone is paper thin)

[personal profile] hoboagogo 2020-07-07 04:36 am (UTC)(link)
[Her explanation might have felt unnecessary, but... really, he hadn't even known what she meant. And so he does look over at that tug on the sleeve, brows still furrowed, but at least trying to get what she means.

It's exhausting to deal with, but she and Louis want to help deal with it. (Well. Fie, at least. He's not sure Louis would view 'support' in the same way, but that's neither here nor there.) And so he slows to a stop in the walk, attention fully given over as she expands on it. And that really does lay it out a lot better, doesn't it.

It's the exact same thing he'd get yelled at (and punched for) over a year ago, back home. Taking it all on himself, refusing to let others in. But he already had, here, hadn't he? Fie and Louis had already been let past all those defenses, were already emotionally tethered to him. And on top of that, they actually cared. In different ways, sure, but that wasn't up for debate.

And so he just... slumps slightly with a sigh. Some of that tension being given up, as he brings a hand up to gently rub at one of those soft, round ears. Reinitiating that contact, and the comfort of the bond it brings. Sure, two monsters don't have the same feeling, he's noticed. Less of a draw and more of an exchange. But that's comforting in its own way.]


Nah. You stopped short of it being a speech.

[One side of his mouth twitches for a moment, as though he tries for a smile that never quite forms. But at least the effort existed for a moment.]

But... That explains it better. So... thanks. [He's not sure what else to say, really. He's still troubled by it all, by whatever it means, by knowing that he can't just drop this alternate-universe Minato. He'll have to follow up and see it through. But Fie has a hell of a point. He doesn't have to do it alone. ]

I can fill you in when we get home, I guess. Not a whole lot to tell, though.
hoboagogo: (A feeling that I love to hate)

[personal profile] hoboagogo 2020-07-09 07:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[He nods. And really, he feels that he had told basically all there was to tell. The encounter had been incredibly short, and he hadn't given Minako more than a chance or two before shutting off and leaving.

And... sure, he'd been a tiny bit scolded here... but in a productive way, really.]


...Yeah, we can grab something if you want. Indoors, probably.

[It is muggy and gross outside, now that summer is swinging around into full force-- and he brings up a hand to lift the thick hair from the back of his neck as he speaks, give it a moment to breathe.]

You, me, an' Louis should go out to the Wilde sometime to cool off. I bet it's cold as hell around there now.
hoboagogo: (Know I could be more clever)

[personal profile] hoboagogo 2020-07-17 09:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[He nods-- though her mentioning Louis and Minato means that he's going to have to tell them that she exists. He almost wonders if Minato already knows, since she was aware of him. Either they'd already found one another here, or it was a secret from back home he'd never knew. Either way, that's yet another thing to add onto the list of things to do.

He's pulled from his thoughts, though, as soon as that hand hits his shoulder- and by now he's familiar with that sudden weight of her pulling herself up, and tucks an arm down to catch her opposite leg as it swings over his hip, tilting his head forward slightly just to make sure his horns aren't in the way of her suddenly riding on his back. (They're really no where near her, but figuring out exactly where they lay and orient is taking a while to get used to. At least he's not hitting himself on doorjams anymore, though.]


You that tired already? [An easy tease. He knows that she's likely nowhere near. Fie could push herself through total exhaustion, if she had to. But that doesn't mean she won't help herself to the opportunity of grabbing a ride, even if it is paid for with thin fingers working through his hair as she ties it up for him.]

Alright. We can run by the market, then home. Maybe ask Louis if he wants a winter retreat later on. [He shifts his arms under his legs, hiking her up a little on his back, before continuing to walk.] Give us all a break from the place.