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Event Log: June, What Lies Beneath

Event Log: June, What Lies Beneath

Down, Down, Down

    The group leaves on the morning of the 16th, a band consisting of Mirrorbound, Theodore and Sowilo from the Coven, and one of the two returned Wilders to lead the way. The latter three will only be present for the first leg of the journey: from the North Gate to the Northern Outpost by teleporter, then a few hours' hike to the site. A tunnel yawns open, fallen rocks built up around it in mounds. Everyone is offered enchanted lanterns to light the way, and their guide takes them perhaps a mile down before he and the pair from the Coven must part ways with the Mirrorbound.

    The poorly-lit tunnel leads steadily downward. The way is marked by their gracious hosts to be, with arrows drawn in softly-glowing algae painting the walls so there is no mistaking which way to go; a good thing, because the deeper the party goes, the more tunnels branch off of the largest one, twisting and turning into the dark. It takes some hours to reach a familiar cavern lit with algae and glowing crystals, a herd of the velvet wormipedes idly milling about the small lake and stream that led into town in the dream. Much nicer long boats are set up and waiting to take them deeper, along with respectfully quiet Monster guards to steer them.

    They take a slightly different route from the dream, but before long, they reach the curtain of grayish green moss that dangles down into the water, stretched across the wide tunnel exit like a membrane. It parts on its own as the boats pass, though beware if you are infected by the Cwyld - it will not allow passage, only reach out long, tough tendrils to try and envelop you, the touch of it burning acid-bright where it is harmless for those uninfected.

    Past the curtain of strange moss, the cavern city opens up before them, vast and spacious, dimly lit with more algae, crystals, and softly glowing orbs of magic. It's like being plunged into an eternal twilight, somehow soft, cast in gentle colors.

    The boats bypass the markets this time, drifting farther down a branching stream into the city proper, to dock next to stone platforms. The winding streets and flowing canals branch out all around them with no rhyme or reason, the city sprung up around the natural layout of the caverns rather than the other way around. Buildings are carved out of tall stone spires, the windows and doors covered in fluttering silk, many of which are pulled away so that fascinated locals can peer out at the scene unfolding.

    The Matriarch herself comes to greet the group, ringed at the back by spear-carrying guards, all Monsters. A tall, long-limbed Arachne woman bearing battle scars and stark white hair, she looks perhaps in her 30s, and speaks with a booming, commanding voice, amplified by a charm. As she speaks, ten Wilders are released from silk rope bonds and nudged to join the Mirrorbound; they're a little roughed up, perhaps, and shaken, but none are seriously injured. A few Monsters also make the rounds, placing copper tokens in the hands of ten individuals.

    "Welcome, travelers! This meeting was foretold and so it has come to pass. During your stay you will be treated as our honored guests. You may come and go as you please, but we ask that you use the same tunnel you entered through; we have not yet re-secured the other entrances from Cwyld nor the tribes. I would hate for danger to befall you while you are under my care." Her smile is wide, her eight eyes bright, and her teeth are very sharp. "We have prepared temporary residences for your use. I hope you will stay for the celebrations. I look forward to meeting with some of you very soon."

    Notably, she does not mention the surface where from the Mirrorbound came, and those around her do not ask.

I. The City
    The Mirrorbound receive mixed reactions from the Underground. Some are fascinated by these visitors personally invited by the Matriarch and allowed past the markets; others are wary and suspicious, believing them to be wolves in sheep's clothing. In the city proper, most passing Monsters are armed, but this doesn't seem to be anything new. Still, step cautiously - plenty do not take well to even unknowing offense and will pick a fight, or may see these guests as easy, weak targets to pickpocket or mug in the dark corners of the twisting streets. The guards only step in if things take a turn for the worse or if the fight is very obviously imbalanced - they step in more for Witches being attacked than Monsters, because they feel Witches require protection more. Still, not all are so unscrupulous: more citizens are delighted to talk, even if they still seem skeptical about a whole world up above.

    Mirrorbound, as guests of the Matriarch, are given nearly free run of the city, allowed to explore such locations as the marketplace, the library, the shops, the schools (the Arena for Monsters and the Academy for Witches), and the tunnels and caverns outside the protective moss barriers. The only places they (and most locals) are expressly barred from are the Matriarch's audience hall, the upper level of the library, and the guards' barracks.

      a. The Marketplace
        The marketplace is much larger than previously thought - it rings the entire city, and stalls spill onto the streets of the inner city as well in a lazy sprawl. There are some shops with actual buildings, but they're fewer and more expensive: alchemy and apothecary shops, a couple of restaurants, a weapons shop or two, nice clothing shops. Most, though, are independent merchants who set up and take down their stalls every day and night. Any number of Underground-sourced foods, clothing, weapons, trinkets, and more can be found at the stalls; they barter, or exchange chips of precious metals and gems, but they'll take cune coins with fascination. The marketplaces are the liveliest areas of the city with Monsters and Witches alike, from all walks of life, mingling and sharing gossip and idle talk.

        Those who lost items to the burrowing hyenas at the Northern Outpost some months ago should keep an eye out: the hyenas are fairly common down here, serving the roles of pets or working dogs for Underground citizens, and a few merchants deal in more interesting goods. The missing items can be found scattered across some stalls, and the merchants will gleefully tell perusers that these things come from the surface, aren't they fascinating? Don't you want to buy? Luckily, it shouldn't be too hard to get your things back. They'll take all manner of interesting trinkets in trade.


      b. Library
        The library is bound to be a popular stop. Monsters get some strange looks if they enter the spire just off the courtyard from the Academy, but they aren't barred from entry; most just feel that reading is for Witches. The building is only two levels - one closed off at the top, guards keeping everyone out, and the rest is just one very tall floor ringed with a spiral of platforms and stairs to access the honeycomb-shaped shelves built into the walls. All their books are written on scrolls of silk, and the librarians bark at patrons to be delicate with them, some are very old.

        If one has endless time, the scrolls can offer a look at life Underground: historical accounts of past Matriarchs, brave warriors and battles against nomadic tribes or hideous beasts, their history as they know it, scrolls on offensive and defensive magic for Witches, fighting techniques for Monsters, information on their unique flora and creatures that can be found outside the city, and even plenty of fiction - sword and sorcery novels all set in the tunnels and the city. It's just a bit difficult to find what, specifically, you're looking for, because if there's any kind of organization, it only makes sense to the deep-dwelling denizens. Maybe make it a team effort! You'll also need some simple translation spells, because their system of writing is quite different to the common system in Aefenglom; even then, it may not be accurate on older scrolls.


      c. The Guest Villa
        Those who choose to spend several days in the Underground are given modest accommodations in a tall stone building. These guest chambers boast gentle lighting, wide beds, backless sofas, potted decorative fungi, and stone furniture. It's... cozy, with humble individual rooms and larger common rooms for gathering. The algae grows in delicate patterns across the walls, pulsing in soft colors. They've gone out of their way to provide what comfort they can, but there aren't enough rooms for everyone to have their own - everyone will need to share with one or two others, so choose someone you can get along with.


II. The Tunnels
    Mirrorbound are not restricted only to the city. There are many entrances to the cavern where it resides, the openings all covered with sheets of that same gray-green moss; some wider tunnels obviously see more use than other, narrower ones, and the footpath of many Underground denizens is easy enough to trace, the stone worn smooth. The path to the velvet wormipede cavern is one of them; they're raised as livestock, all at once food, transportation, and producers of silk and hide for clothing. This is much the same as the dream. Another well-worn tunnel leads upward to an agricultural center, though, and still more lead out into the wild. They're warned, but not hindered, before they leave for anywhere other than the farms or the livestock cavern; dangers abound in the Underground.

    Those who do much wandering may notice something going on as well; the guards stationed at each tunnel mouth can often be found talking to each other in low voices about an unknown red algae that seems to be growing on the protective moss. It can be found primarily around the lesser-used tunnels so far, starkly bright against the dull green, and this seems to be a point of concern...

      a. A Botanist's Dream
        It's a short walk down a wide, inviting tunnel to reach the place where the city grows fungi and underground plants for food and medicine. Large rats and hyenas both are present to keep opportunist creatures and insects from demolishing the carefully-cultivated beds of rock and soil, and small blind fish swim about in the large pool of shallow water, in which grows something like seaweed. One of their primary sources of food, besides bug and rat, are mushrooms of many sorts - all the types that grow in the farms are edible, though some may be an... acquired taste. The Fauns and Witches who tend the beds are happy to offer samples of anything that can be eaten raw; they're most enthusiastic about a type of spherical mushroom whose cap opens up to reveal what tastes and feels like savory cotton candy, and a type of flat fungi that tastes sweet and fizzy and offers a heightened good mood for an hour after.


      b. The Wild Underground
        The lesser used tunnels are a different story. A mile out from the city, Cwyld runs in thick black veins through the stone walls, infecting the sparse plants and many creatures that live out there. Careful not to touch. Infected and uninfected creatures both are highly dangerous to explorers, including stone-burrowing moles with wicked teeth and claws that can cut through metal like butter, vicious white wasps that carry lethal venom, and berserker vampire bats that survive on the blood of other animals and people alike. Some infected fungi give off blindingly-bright flashes when disturbed, while others will cause rashes and blisters on contact. Explorers are warned not to touch anything if they can help it.

        As well, the nomad tribes roam the less-civilized tunnels and caverns. These are small bands of usually Monsters of different types in mixed groups, though some can be found dragging humans along with them. Nearly all of them are some degree of feral, and plenty bear Cwyld infections in different stages of seriousness. They don't stop to ask questions before they'll attack anyone, including each other, in hopes of robbing them blind and leaving them for dead. As vicious and quick as they are, perhaps it's no wonder they value strength in the city?

III. Graduation Day (21st - 23rd)
    The Underground does not have 'Litha' as Aefenglomites know it, but come the 21st, they do have a major celebration. They simply call it the New Year, or Graduation Day, depending on what festivities are asked about, because the three days serve as both. At this time of year, with more magic in the air, the algae and crystals glow much brighter, cycling naturally through different colors that cast beautiful rainbows across the imposing stone structures. This display is how they mark the start of a new year, and it coincides with the graduation of young Monsters from the Arena and Witches from the Academy. The New Year is a time to celebrate Bonding, partying, and showing off one's skills in the hopes of attracting a new Bondmate or romantic partner. Tensions can also rise high as rivalries are settled, and small brawls in the streets are common; the guards don't interfere, again, unless things get too dangerous. They're content to let citizens work out their own issues, but unfortunately, this means Mirrorbound may get dragged in on occasion!

    Small fights are also a tried and true tradition to show off one's abilities around this time of year. It serves multiple purposes: attracting a Bondmate, establishing a place in the unspoken hierarchy of the city, and working out problems with others. Monsters are more likely to start brawls than Witches, though it isn't wholly uncommon to bear witness to two rival Witches throwing spells at each other in an alleyway over their grievances. They're more likely to be stopped, as magic can be quite destructive.

      a. A Matching Pair
        The un-Bonded should take precautions during the New Year celebrations. These fascinating newcomers are bound to draw the eye of curious locals, and they may put on a violent or flashy show trying to draw your attention in return! The most common way to show that you're already taken during the celebrations is with face-painting: several stands set up around the marketplace with cosmetics and brushes, and two (or three, or more) people painting matching designs on their faces and bodies signify them as a set - either Bonded or intending to Bond. That doesn't mean there won't still be competition for your heart, but it will lessen significantly, especially if you're a Monster-Witch pair already.


      b. Exhibitions
        Primarily intended for the graduating classes of Monsters and Witches, the exhibitions are an official stage set for their coming-of-age; this year, however, the Matriarch has decreed that Mirrorbound may participate as well, in the interests of getting to know one another! They're interested to see what these strange travelers can do, especially against some of their own. Mirrorbound are encouraged by excitable locals if they seem reticent, but of course, no one is forced. (Just don't be surprised if you're called a coward for refusing!)

        At the Arena, a massive sunken ring with stone benches for spectators ringing the whole of it, young Monsters learn combat skills, with and without weapons, and how to harness their unique physiologies in the dangerous world of the Underground. Their yearly exhibition fights take place all through the three days of the New Year, and young Monsters battle each other til first blood to the cheers and jeers of citizens (and more importantly, Witches) come to watch. The longer the battle, the more impressive it is - and Monster Mirrorbound will have no shortage of eager opponents wanting to test their skills against the unknown. Generally, the fights result in bruises, small cuts, and little else, but rivals for the same Witch might take it farther on purpose before they're wrenched away from each other by the teachers.

        Meanwhile, at the Academy, the tallest stone spire building in the city, young Witches learn magic from a young age. It isn't exactly the same as magic taught at the Coven, but many concepts are similar - barriers, evocation, enchantments meant for weapons or shields, healing, most of the magic they're taught at this younger age is for combat, protection or practical purposes. They only learn more frivolous magics after graduation. Much like their Monster counterparts, they give solo or duet shows of their flashier and more impressive magical skills in the courtyard, with many citizens coming to watch and take stock of the new generation. Mirrorbound Witches may find themselves being cajoled into putting on a show of their own by curious locals wanting to know what kinds of magic are taught elsewhere.

IV. Aefenglom - Litha (21st - 23rd)
    Meanwhile, for those who have chosen to stay above-ground or those who have left early, Litha comes once more to Aefenglom, bringing with it beautiful pink and purple skies, a far departure from last year's red tint. It has the city in a much cheerier mood for the celebrations. While they know that several Mirrorbound left for a while, they don't seem too aware of the actual mission, and have very little to say on the matter - they'd rather have a nice Litha, after last year's bad omens!

    Many of the activities from last year return, better than before, including the brothels opening up their doors (showing off all the wonderful new styles in lingerie!), collecting flowers to put under one's pillow in order to dream of future partners, and wandering the hedge mazes that have been magically constructed in certain parts of the city. Seeing off ships happens regularly as well, citizens setting floating candles into the harbor and river to wish them luck.

      a. Love Boats
        A new attraction for Litha is being rolled out this year right on the River Temese! Near the gate, an enterprising Faun has set up a few small boats, each just big enough for two and shielded with fine gauzy curtains for privacy. Couples are invited to buy a ride down the river together, assured it will certainly set the mood. Those who have no partners are offered (or cajoled) to be randomly paired with someone, because perhaps it's fate! The boats drift lazily down the river and stop on their own next to a small dock right before they reach the Harbor. Unless you're willing to swim, hopefully you like your boat partner, because you're stuck with them the whole ride.


      b. Predictive Pools
        One bathhouse in the Entertainment District has laid an enchantment on one of their semi-public baths for Litha. When two people stand in the water together, bare, it will begin to glow and take on one of a handful of colors that they say will predict the pair's compatibility level! Sexually, romantically? Well, why not both? The only thing is, they've lost the instructions, and cannot seem to remember what color means "most compatible" and what color means "not compatible at all"...


      As a reminder, all sexual content should be clearly marked in comment headers, or else moved to a comm-locked log or personal inbox! Be good to each other.


    Welcome to June's Event Log, What Lies Beneath! The Underground will be open until mid-July at minimum, and possibly longer. Characters can come and go if they're willing to make the trip multiple times. As always, please direct your questions here! The NPC threads will take place here. Aaand, the Action Tracker is right here! Make sure to let us know what your characters have been up to, good and bad, by July 7th, as this will help determine how Mirrorbound-Underground relations might proceed in the future!

weiward: (pic#13690750)

[personal profile] weiward 2020-07-13 03:36 pm (UTC)(link)
[so it wasn't anything that her friend said or did. but somehow that doesn't lessen his concern as much as he thought it would.]

Maybe a witch could help you. Lan Zhan, he's always been very good about healing. He's helped me many times. I'm sure he would try to help you too.
long_live_the_queen: (murder does not cure headaches)

[personal profile] long_live_the_queen 2020-07-13 04:00 pm (UTC)(link)
[Ursula might have been awkward about saying things, but Kaede had insider knowledge. The fluttering worry and anxious energy building and curling in the Bond took precedence, and like a switch her interest in Eren went into a closed off, compartmentalized box. That could resume later. Her Bonded's distress took precedence now.]

Wait.

[The stiffer feathers on the Chimera's tail fwicked against his ankle--stop that for a second--before she put the scroll down and circled around the table. Kaede wriggled one of those poorly fitting gloves off before setting her hand on the Witch's shoulder, shoulders tensed in a worried frown.]

Ch-- Ursula, are you okay?
oathkeeper: <user name=vhazzrhossze site=tumblr.com> (☀ 58)

[personal profile] oathkeeper 2020-07-13 04:49 pm (UTC)(link)
[Don't think such depressing things, Vanitas. Sora doesn't have a single thought in his head that one of them might go back home someday. Even with other people have come and gone that sort of thought hasn't even crossed his mind. Maybe someday the universe will have someplace else for them to be but right now Sora isn't worried about that.

But he does take a second to hug Vanitas close, feeling that little tickle of pondering on their bond and with the way Vanitas buries close.]


Sorry, my fault. [Sora grins,] This is fun, though. I really like this!

[He chuckles and then lets go of Vanitas so he can point at one more selection. This time it's a simpler background of a cityscape with flower petals floating.]

Here, let's do this one so you can be cool again.
piromare: (d19)

[personal profile] piromare 2020-07-13 05:18 pm (UTC)(link)
Of course not. I'd actually appreciate that... I live in the Haven, in a cottage with a larger balcony than most.

( because his nest is there, and he enjoys the space and fresh air while being able to rest without too much fear of bad weather. helps that he's used to living out of cities and the like, too. )

I do too, but I'm happy I ran into you. It makes me feel better knowing he has people from his world that know him well.
darkcharge: (91)

[personal profile] darkcharge 2020-07-13 05:23 pm (UTC)(link)
It is your fault. Glad you're taking responsibility, even if you're not really sorry at all.

[ But he'll take the hug anyway. Van releases Sora to look through all the backgrounds. When it seems like Sora's found one, he hovers over the Puca's shoulder. An... Interesting selection? ]

How is this going to make me "cool" again?
beariot: (bird has flown)

[personal profile] beariot 2020-07-13 05:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Honestly, Ursula thought she might have been losing her mind. She was supposed to be the idiot when it came to that sort of thing, but were these two really not aware of what they were doing? Of the mood they were creating? ]

I'm fine! [ Almost too insistent. ] But aren't you two getting a little...

[ She struggled to find the words for it. ]

Not safe for work?

[ Nailed it. ]
Edited 2020-07-13 17:45 (UTC)
scatmaam: (with each bullet screams your name)

[personal profile] scatmaam 2020-07-13 05:52 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Well. This guy certainly was asking the right questions. She had gotten used to people just accepting those sort of things that she was almost surprised, stopping a moment to actually processed that he'd asked something perfectly reasonable for any warrior to ask.

She had to admit... it was a little exciting. But she tempered her battle lust for the moment, understanding it was probably the worse possible time and situation to be picking a fight just to have a fight. They could find a reasonable excuse for that later, on better terms.

She pulled down the mask that had been covering her face, letting out a small sigh. Her fangs were more visible then, making her status as a turnskin all the more obvious. ]


Unless you give me reason to, I've no reason to turn my spear against you as an enemy, and I doubt I ever will have to, given we're both Mirrorbound.

But if you'd be willing, I'd like to cross blades with you as an ally, sometime later, when we're not under scrutinizing eyes.

Does that satisfy you?
scatmaam: (from a heaven we'll never know)

[personal profile] scatmaam 2020-07-13 05:53 pm (UTC)(link)
Would you be surprised to know I'm a queen?

[ Scathach chuckled, realizing just how often people were surprised by her status. ]
scatmaam: (to kiss with a girl who's as ugly as me)

[personal profile] scatmaam 2020-07-13 05:59 pm (UTC)(link)
Your lack of expectations still inform your experiences, and from those experiences form your preferences.

If I were to give you a roasted mushroom from the surface now, I don't doubt you'd find it strange in comparison to the one you just ate, yes?
cardtrick: (seventy one /)

[personal profile] cardtrick 2020-07-13 08:15 pm (UTC)(link)
[ By all accounts, she should have all the tools she needs to be good at this. Focus and visualisation are cornerstones of her magic, too. But this is... hard. Like using the levitating hoop hard.

But she's gonna master that levitating hoop one day, and she's gonna master this too! Trucy's face scrunches up, and a grunt of effort grinds out from between her teeth as she focuses on that shimmering space above her palms. ]


Whoa!

[ Effort has her leaning forward too far, losing her balance as the shimmering light grows into a blinding white.

Not... quite. ]


Oof... Ow.
stopfen: (since that day)

[personal profile] stopfen 2020-07-13 09:08 pm (UTC)(link)
I guess...I've had them for a long time. [She was old enough to drink now. Heck yeah, adulthood...Even if fifteen was old enough to get booze where she was from.]

Isn't he the guy who really didn't want to eat the rabbits? ...I think I upset him.

[Said with absolutely no guilt. Yes, the buns were cute. But even rabbit meat had been a rarity for a long time. Then she blinks, oh yeah, rabbit guy. ]
oathkeeper: <user name=vhazzrhossze site=tumblr.com> (☀ 32)

[personal profile] oathkeeper 2020-07-13 09:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Gee, always saying it like it is.

[Sora snorts and then quickly drapes an arm over Vanitas' shoulder again. This time he pokes both his hands at Vanitas' cheeks. Poke poke.]

Maybe if you grin you'll look cool! Let's see!
darkcharge: (208)

[personal profile] darkcharge 2020-07-13 09:34 pm (UTC)(link)
I am and I won't stop.

[ Van huffs! Especially when there are fingers poking at his cheeks. He pats at those hands. ]

I don't need to grin!
stopfen: (What’s the truth?)

[personal profile] stopfen 2020-07-13 09:58 pm (UTC)(link)
[The explanation does little alleviate the glare. Too much doubt after months and months of lies. But before she speaks, she scoffs.]

A little creepy...[an understatement. But she grits her teeth and listens. That's a lot of words, though-]

Why should I belive you? ...It sounds like you're just saying what I'd want to here.
fiddlestick: (elliot193)

[personal profile] fiddlestick 2020-07-13 10:36 pm (UTC)(link)
[He sighs]

Honestly...I'm not expecting you to. You run from problems too ... so even if I had proof, I don't think you'd wanna hear it.

[Just like him.]
oathkeeper: <user name=vhazzrhossze site=tumblr.com> (☄4)

[personal profile] oathkeeper 2020-07-13 10:59 pm (UTC)(link)
[Sora seems to snicker playfully and he quits his poking fairly easily. He still stays nice and close.]

Okay, let's make cool faces for this one.

[He might try to mimic Vanitas' expression??]
stopfen: (swirl up in the sky)

[personal profile] stopfen 2020-07-13 11:00 pm (UTC)(link)
[That gets another hiss.]

And how would you know what I do and don't do?
fiddlestick: (elliot203)

[personal profile] fiddlestick 2020-07-13 11:09 pm (UTC)(link)
Well...you have quickly exited any conversations with me that made you uncomfortable.

[Like. several times.]
stopfen: (A heat envelops my trembling neck)

[personal profile] stopfen 2020-07-13 11:12 pm (UTC)(link)
Just because I've not told you something doesn't mean I'm running away from it. Otherwise, I wouldn't have gone to you with my ear.
fiddlestick: (elliot172)

[personal profile] fiddlestick 2020-07-13 11:17 pm (UTC)(link)
[He shakes his head]

Not physical discomfort.

Emotional discomfort. Like whenever someone brought up the ideas of friends or bonds...? You actually ran off a few times.
darkcharge: (82)

[personal profile] darkcharge 2020-07-13 11:18 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He looks at Sora and frowns for a moment. What is with that expression. ]

What is a "cool face?" And what kind of face are you making right now?
stopfen: (by my pounding heartbeats)

[personal profile] stopfen 2020-07-13 11:39 pm (UTC)(link)
Why are you assuming that just because I've not spoken to you about it, that I have spoken at all? [A dry snort, not even close to her maybe-laugh. Just unamused. ] I've spoken to others. My friends.
fiddlestick: (concern)

[personal profile] fiddlestick 2020-07-13 11:57 pm (UTC)(link)
["my friends". Yeah, he doesn't miss out on that implication. That he wasn't a friend]

Ouch. Nice little dig there...

[But he's not going to let it get a rise out of him]

Mikasa...I'm sorry I kept it from you, I really am. I just...didn't want to keep hiding things from you.
finesseblade: do not take (51.)

[personal profile] finesseblade 2020-07-14 12:00 am (UTC)(link)
[ Felix goes quiet for a moment, staring down at his hands draped across his knees and thinking about how familiar this all sounds. He may not have lived it, but he lived something very much like it, and knows what that bloodshed looks like. ]

I fought in a civil war not unlike yours. We thought our king dead. In truth, he was wandering the country like a beast in search of blood, and when we found him...

[ He shrugs, and then glances at her, his mouth twisting into a grimace. ]

At least you have the conscience to regret it. That's worth something.

[ He wonders if Dimitri ever will. Sylvain tells him something changed after Gronder, but Felix has not seen it for himself yet, and he wonders. ]
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arturiarex: (29)

[personal profile] arturiarex 2020-07-14 12:15 am (UTC)(link)
They did not think me dead... merely that I was too distant and too cold. Too perfect, I suppose. Inhuman.

[ She sighs quietly and her shoulders slump. Just a little. ]

I could've prevented it, I think. Or maybe it was doomed from the start. All I know is that the loss and grief pains me still and... for a while I was determined to fix it, even if I had to unmake myself in the attempt.

[ Still does, in a way. But she's getting better. ]

I apologize for burdening you with this story; it isn't something I often share.