[closed] if i should die before i wake

[quickwhip]

Who: Trevor Belmont and his Bonded
When: around the full moon
Where: His shared home
What: Trevor finally becomes a full vampire
Warnings: Character death, blood drinking, swearing, Trevor being Trevor


now i lay me down to sleep

[ When he felt it happen, he made sure he was at home. Well, "home" within this world. Where both Alucard and Sypha were, as he didn't wish to die alone. Funny that. Considering he'd spent a great deal of his life not really giving a shit what other people thought of him or coming to think he even needed anyone to begin with. But now all of a sudden? Now all of a sudden he didn't want to be alone and that's why he had been staying around the house more. Also he just... was too weak to do much else other than lay about in bed, on the couch, or slump himself over the window to enjoy the damp cool air.

He was going to only ever get to feel the night air soon.

He'd made sure to alert Berserker to what was happening when he felt a significant change within himself. As if his body was finally giving up, finally so tired from trying to fight off what it knew was coming the moment he first bared his fangs at Alucard months ago.

Death. He was finally dying.

When he does finally die, it's a little more peaceful than he ever thought his death would be. Really, he was sure he'd die by the hand of a night creature or some asshole from Hell. MAYBE some drunken jerk a long way down the line of his life. But to go like this, in his bed with his Bonded near... well, shit. Helluva lot more worse ways to go, isn't there?

He just feels... tired, when he goes. As if keeping his eyes open is the most difficult thing he's ever done in his life and it's with a smile on his face and a breathless fuck you to this world, that he finally just... goes, a hiccup or snap of pain within his bonds cementing it. Trevor Belmont. House of Belmont. Last of the Belmonts. Has finally been laid to rest. ]

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[quickwhip]

[ Maybe he should have. Would have spared him from waking up naked like he did. But, oh well. Least he knows for next time? Or maybe he'll just have better control next time. Either way, when the suggestion for more blood is made, Trevor looks to him with a slow blink of his eyes before he lets his head tilt a little, stands of brown hair falling in front of his face a bit as he does so. ]

Kiss me?

[cryptsleeper]

[The response is to kiss the top of Trevor's head. Soft and tender and letting him know that Alucard's there.

But not yet.]

When you wake tomorrow. [He knows it's cruel.]

It'll give you something to look forward to.

[quickwhip]

[ He's silent at the kiss dropped so gently to his head and allows for his gaze to slowly linger on Alucard so close to him. That's not what he wants. That's not what he asked for and he can feel the more feral part of him begin to stir again as hands curl into fists but he... calms himself. Doesn't kick or fight or squirm like when he first woke.

Instead he sits upright some, staring off ahead. Wondering. Until he finally just asks. ]

Do you... still... you know?

[ Want any of this? ]

[cryptsleeper]

Yes, of course.

[The answer is as ready and firm as any other thing Alucard has said tonight. And he thinks he knows why. He'll get a guess in, because they almost floundered entirely due to...well, emotional constipation on Alucard's end.]

Tonight is different. You know that tonight is different. There is a new part of you to account for, and until you're at an equilibrum, we still have to be careful.

I wouldn't be here, I wouldn't do any of this, if I didn't love you.

[.........oh.

shit.

He said a word.]

[quickwhip]

[ That... is definitely A WORD alright. One which he had no idea applied to him?? Like... at all. He'd more or less made peace that he was going to die alone (before all this vampire shit) and without anyone to care about him but since coming here, since coming to get himself tangled up in everything that is Alucard and Sypha... it's just... suddenly possible now? Somehow? It's stupid. It's really FUCKING STUPID to think that anyone could ever care about him. Because... he didn't care if anyone didn't. He... never did. Right?

But look at all that's happened since coming here.

So when Alucard says that word, Trevor finds himself blinking wide-eyed and, perhaps a touch surprisingly, more of the red within his eyes begins to lose itself within the blue, a mere few speckles of red now throughout his eyes. ]

You... what?

[cryptsleeper]

You heard me.

[Look. He said it once and--

holy shit.

Trevor's eyes shouldn't have changed that quickly. But they did. They're as close to normal as possible given the circumstances and there is a part of Alucard that just stares, mouth agape.]

[quickwhip]

[ With the way Alucard sort of just STOPS, Trevor feels a little... confused? Concerned? Uneasy? A little bit of all three? ]

...what? Is there something on my face?

[ And you can be sure he's TRYING to look at his own face. Head moving about. Eyebrows wiggling.

Yeah. ]

[cryptsleeper]

--Your eyes aren't red anymore.

[He has no idea how any of this goes now.]

[quickwhip]

Uh... they're not?

[ A beat. ]

Wait- my eyes were red?

[cryptsleeper]

Yes. But that's hardly the point!

[Okay he's just going to sit at the edge of Trevor's bed. By his feet, but still.]

[quickwhip]

The hell you mean that's hardly the point? Nobody told me my eyes were bloody red!

[ It's almost as if they've somehow fallen back into their usual way with one another. ]

I can't see myself. How else do I look? Oh god, am I horribly disfigured or something? Do I look like a bat?

[cryptsleeper]

I just said I love you and you're worried about eye color!?

[Oh yeah, back to normal.]

[quickwhip]

[ Oh. Right. That... happened. Yeah. ]

It just... you... were so shocked?

[cryptsleeper]

It was just sudden. Both things.

[This is so stupid.]

[quickwhip]

[ Yes. Yes it is and yeah, yeah they were both sudden. ]

So then... you mean it. What you said. Even if it was... you know... sudden.

[cryptsleeper]

I did. And I do.

[quickwhip]

Oh.

[ Yeah. Oh. Such a bad fucking thing for him to say in regards to that, HE KNOWS. But he just... wasn't expecting that?? He just woke up after being dead for however many hours and is only NOW starting to feel a little more like himself, ok? He just... this is all really weird. ]

Do you... feel that way... about Sypha, too?

[cryptsleeper]

Yes. I just haven't said it due to insane circumstances yet.

[quickwhip]

So... both of us then.

[ Like kissing both of them. Right. Got it?? Sort of. ]

And... that's what you want? It... makes you happy?

[cryptsleeper]

[He nods.]

Both of you. If you'll both have me.

[quickwhip]

[ Are they... ACTUALLY having THIS conversation right this very second with... all that's gone on tonight?? Sure feels like it. But, no time like the present? Not like he can roll on out of here or anything to avoid this. So, coming to sit up a little better, he bends a leg at the knee and looks to Alucard with those slightly speckled eyed of red before he just... sighs. ]

Alright, look. I... [ what the absolute hell does he even want to say here? ] ...this isn't how I usually do things. I mean, flirting, sure, ok. I guess. Ending up in bed with someone. Again, sure. If they're pretty or good looking. Why not!

[ a beat ]

But... even then, it's not like I do that all the time. Not a lot actually, if I'm being honest. [ easier to just keep people away entirely, right? ] Oh for god's sake, what the hell am I trying to say to you?

[ That last part he mutters to himself before he just hangs his head. Stuck where he is. ]

I... [ a sigh, eyes fall shut ] ...I do, too. You and Sypha. Love you.

[cryptsleeper]

[Trevor, you just died. That brings out a lot of emotions, bound to the bed or not. Perhaps it's just better to have it all out when everyone's raw anyway.]

...It's not easy. I understand, especially with everything that you've been through.

[But he says the words all the same. Alucard hadn't expected that, and when he meets Trevor' eyes, there's just something warm in there. Soft and small yes, but warm.

He pats Trevor's leg gently.]

We'll have to inform her, of course.

[quickwhip]

What is it with you and informing everyone everything?

[ That's mostly said in jest, the gentle smile tugging at the corner of his lips enough proof of that. Even if he DOES look away some. ]

I'm sorry for... how I've been tonight.

[cryptsleeper]

Pretty sure that this doesn't work as three of us if one is out of the loop.

[He shakes his head, inching up a little on the bed.]

Tonight? You're allowed.

[quickwhip]

[ There he goes with his logic and all. ]

Maybe, but... [ again, he sighs ] ...doesn't mean I'm proud of it. It's why I felt I needed you here. To try and help me back to who I am.

[ Sadly, he smiles a bit. ]

I didn't want to become a monster, Alucard.