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[closed] if i should die before i wake
Who: Trevor Belmont and his Bonded
When: around the full moon
Where: His shared home
What: Trevor finally becomes a full vampire
Warnings: Character death, blood drinking, swearing, Trevor being Trevor
now i lay me down to sleep
When: around the full moon
Where: His shared home
What: Trevor finally becomes a full vampire
Warnings: Character death, blood drinking, swearing, Trevor being Trevor
now i lay me down to sleep
[ When he felt it happen, he made sure he was at home. Well, "home" within this world. Where both Alucard and Sypha were, as he didn't wish to die alone. Funny that. Considering he'd spent a great deal of his life not really giving a shit what other people thought of him or coming to think he even needed anyone to begin with. But now all of a sudden? Now all of a sudden he didn't want to be alone and that's why he had been staying around the house more. Also he just... was too weak to do much else other than lay about in bed, on the couch, or slump himself over the window to enjoy the damp cool air.
He was going to only ever get to feel the night air soon.
He'd made sure to alert Berserker to what was happening when he felt a significant change within himself. As if his body was finally giving up, finally so tired from trying to fight off what it knew was coming the moment he first bared his fangs at Alucard months ago.
Death. He was finally dying.
When he does finally die, it's a little more peaceful than he ever thought his death would be. Really, he was sure he'd die by the hand of a night creature or some asshole from Hell. MAYBE some drunken jerk a long way down the line of his life. But to go like this, in his bed with his Bonded near... well, shit. Helluva lot more worse ways to go, isn't there?
He just feels... tired, when he goes. As if keeping his eyes open is the most difficult thing he's ever done in his life and it's with a smile on his face and a breathless fuck you to this world, that he finally just... goes, a hiccup or snap of pain within his bonds cementing it. Trevor Belmont. House of Belmont. Last of the Belmonts. Has finally been laid to rest. ]
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[Look. He said it once and--
holy shit.
Trevor's eyes shouldn't have changed that quickly. But they did. They're as close to normal as possible given the circumstances and there is a part of Alucard that just stares, mouth agape.]
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...what? Is there something on my face?
[ And you can be sure he's TRYING to look at his own face. Head moving about. Eyebrows wiggling.
Yeah. ]
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[He has no idea how any of this goes now.]
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[ A beat. ]
Wait- my eyes were red?
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[Okay he's just going to sit at the edge of Trevor's bed. By his feet, but still.]
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[ It's almost as if they've somehow fallen back into their usual way with one another. ]
I can't see myself. How else do I look? Oh god, am I horribly disfigured or something? Do I look like a bat?
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[Oh yeah, back to normal.]
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It just... you... were so shocked?
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[This is so stupid.]
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So then... you mean it. What you said. Even if it was... you know... sudden.
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[ Yeah. Oh. Such a bad fucking thing for him to say in regards to that, HE KNOWS. But he just... wasn't expecting that?? He just woke up after being dead for however many hours and is only NOW starting to feel a little more like himself, ok? He just... this is all really weird. ]
Do you... feel that way... about Sypha, too?
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[ Like kissing both of them. Right. Got it?? Sort of. ]
And... that's what you want? It... makes you happy?
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Both of you. If you'll both have me.
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Alright, look. I... [ what the absolute hell does he even want to say here? ] ...this isn't how I usually do things. I mean, flirting, sure, ok. I guess. Ending up in bed with someone. Again, sure. If they're pretty or good looking. Why not!
[ a beat ]
But... even then, it's not like I do that all the time. Not a lot actually, if I'm being honest. [ easier to just keep people away entirely, right? ] Oh for god's sake, what the hell am I trying to say to you?
[ That last part he mutters to himself before he just hangs his head. Stuck where he is. ]
I... [ a sigh, eyes fall shut ] ...I do, too. You and Sypha. Love you.
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...It's not easy. I understand, especially with everything that you've been through.
[But he says the words all the same. Alucard hadn't expected that, and when he meets Trevor' eyes, there's just something warm in there. Soft and small yes, but warm.
He pats Trevor's leg gently.]
We'll have to inform her, of course.
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[ That's mostly said in jest, the gentle smile tugging at the corner of his lips enough proof of that. Even if he DOES look away some. ]
I'm sorry for... how I've been tonight.
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[He shakes his head, inching up a little on the bed.]
Tonight? You're allowed.
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Maybe, but... [ again, he sighs ] ...doesn't mean I'm proud of it. It's why I felt I needed you here. To try and help me back to who I am.
[ Sadly, he smiles a bit. ]
I didn't want to become a monster, Alucard.
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[He did a little. But the end result?]
We'll keep making sure of it.
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Yeah. Thanks, Alucard.
end here i think
Of course.