[closed] winter pool time

[cryptsleeper]

Who: Alucard, Sypha, and Trevor
When: Early in the month
Where: The Pool of Desire and the route there and back
What: Quest
Warnings: Added as appropriate



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[cryptsleeper]

[Alucard's listening carefully. Brow furrowed intently, because this is a crux and he's dragged them both to this point. Maybe it would have happened organically. Maybe it wouldn't have, because Sypha would be here and everything would just be focused on her, leaving the dhampir off to the side and further wrapped up in his own emotional nonsense while the other two stepped forward together. Like what it'd be back home over time, the other two visiting the castle and the Hold but never truly staying.

He's demanded Trevor's vulnerability. The bare minimum Alucard can do is listen and read between the lines.

But it doesn't demand that. Not really.]

I'm sorry. [Not for dragging them bothto this point. That they needed this is clear now.] I realized you were trying, but I didn't know how to respond because I was wrapped up in myself. That was unfair and cruel. I won't defend those actions or add commentary. Nothing is defensible. I failed you, her, and those vows.

[He did. He'd understand if Trevor wanted to call things off based on that criteria alone, in truth. Maybe he was looking for the excuse to do it.

The idea of forgetting Sypha makes Alucard ache, but for a different reason. He won't tell Sypha that. It's for Trevor to share or, more likely, not.]

I care for you and Sypha deeply. I am very bad at expressing it. I knew that in words I would always fail, but had hoped that in action, I'd improve somewhat. I clearly haven't.

I don't know where things go from here, beyond endless apologizing on my end.

[quickwhip]

[ This is just... a damn nightmare, in a sense. NONE OF THIS was supposed to ever see the light of day and yet, here he is, just spilling his guts out to one of the two people he didn't want to. Ever.

But Alucard speaks and... he has no fucking idea what to say. No surprise there. He feels... so much. TOO MUCH and it makes him dizzy in a sense. The sun and not having fed also doesn't help, but. He just ignores that. He's good at doing that. ]

You don't have to apologize. Like I said... I get it. I get being wrapped up in yourself and not caring.

[ He's done it himself for... how many years?? ]

Just... I don't know.

[cryptsleeper]

There's a difference between getting it and it being appropriate and fair to other people.

[Alucard falls into silence. Walks past Trevor, and when he does, extends his hand back if Trevor wants to take it.]

Let's go find Sypha and get out of here.

[quickwhip]

[ He doesn't take Alucard's hand. Rather, he tucks his hands into his soggy cloak, following along with his head just... a fucking mess. He doesn't know anything right now.

But getting out of here... that sounds like a good idea. ]

[cryptsleeper]

[The hand drops. And Alucard withdraws further into himself.

The Belmont is right. They've solved nothing.]