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Hiccup Horrendous Haddock III ([personal profile] thisisamazing) wrote in [community profile] middaeg2020-02-03 01:11 pm

[CLOSED] you spoke my language, and touched my limbs

Who: Hiccup Haddock and Newt Scamander
When: Forward dated to the 8th or 9th
Where: The Phoenix Tear / Newt's place
What: Two soft men try to stop being dumb about each other.
Warnings: None, they're too soft.

[It's been nearly a week- has it been a week? A week of dancing around each other, avoiding deeper conversation than brief greetings or requests. Newt had taken off a few days ago to observe the nesting Snowbirds around the farmland, and Hiccup... had stayed behind, to keep working on the repairs the Phoenix Tear needs and care for the animals. He can do that much.

It's been a long several days, but he's spoken to some people, spent plenty of time away from the house getting his frustrations out in the air, and has even spent a lot of time up on the Bright Wall, next to his and Percy's ballista, thinking in the cool air. He's had to reflect on a lot in the last week, ever since learning about Newt's feelings for him. He's probably gotten glimpses of his feelings through the Bond - the confusion, the conflict, the deep ache in his chest the longer they go without talking to each other. He's not used to trying to block off his side of the Bond, and while he tries it once or twice when he's especially frustrated, he doesn't turn to it often. He never has before, never needed to.

He wants that back. It isn't that he doesn't love Astrid, far from it, but... he's figured out pretty certainly that he loves Newt, too. And if he can only have this while they remain in Aefenglom, maybe they owe it to each other to try. But all of that depends on what Newt says too, what he wants.

This evening, Hiccup has finished the evening feedings, and is in the kitchen making a pot of tea. Sharpshot is stationed on the roof outside, just above the door, tail swishing back and forth - alert. The Terror will start "singing" (more like warbling) as soon as he spots Newt, which will let Hiccup know that he's arrived. Newt can probably feel the twinge of nerves coming from Hiccup; he's a little anxious about this, but he doesn't want to let them go another day only speaking a few awkward, stilted words to each other. That much he's sure of.

He pours a cup and prepares it the way Newt likes it, then pours one for himself, waiting for him to get home.]
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[personal profile] newtralize 2020-02-04 09:01 am (UTC)(link)
It's innovative. [Smart. Newt wouldn't so quickly leave, but he may have just went to see the creatures or to his room. He didn't really think he had anything in particular in mind at the time if he were being honest.

He quietly follows the other and takes a seat on the couch. Not close to Hiccup like he normally would. It was more of a respectable distance like they were playing a game of chess. Careful moves as they try to navigate each other as they had been since what had happened.

He thinks over the promise.
] I can try, Hiccup. [It isn't that he doesn't want to be honest to Hiccup, but more of Newt understanding himself enough to know he kind of does it. Sometimes unconsciously.] It's a learning process. [At least he's admitting it. He knows that he has, and for awhile, the tendency to put others before himself. In every possible way.]

I don't- it isn't that I mean to, uhm, hide things.
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[personal profile] newtralize 2020-02-04 09:27 am (UTC)(link)
Well...yes. [Newt doesn't look at the other, but down at the floorboards underneath their feet. Focuses on the grain of the wood.] I didn't want to make you uncomfortable. [It wasn't about liking other men or anything. It had never really occurred to him that it would be a contention, because it wasn't really an issue with wizards. The purity of your blood was a big deal, but his family wasn't old pureblood, really.]

I was okay with it, I suppose. I enjoyed your company and it wasn't as though I was bothered. If you didn't reciprocate. [And he had a tendency to just assume. He wasn't popular back home (though fame had changed that somewhat), so he just assumed.] I didn't want to complicate matters. [Which is hilarious, because it did end up, well, complicating things. Ironic. He doesn't know if it would have complicated things anyways had he brought it up on his own, but it isn't as though they could change that.]

Not in much detail. [Small details had came up, but he doesn't recall a time he had talked at length about it.] I grew up with just me mum and brother.
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[personal profile] newtralize 2020-02-04 09:55 am (UTC)(link)
I think I didn't want to get hurt again. [Heartbreak was something he didn't think he handles quite well at all. Maybe it was presumptuous, but it was normal to want to avoid the situation completely than to potentially get hurt.]

I- [The statement is befuddling. Does that mean Hiccup did? How is he supposed to take that.] Yes?

[There's a shake of his head.] No. Well, it's hard to remarry when you have two kids, I think. Financial burden and children belonging to a different father. Not everyone wants that. Extra baggage so to speak. We weren't an incredibly wealthy family. [It probably sounds crazy to Hiccup, but in larger societies and more "advanced" societies, there was less of a community when there's just that much more people.] I think she was content with the most part though. She had us and she had the hippogriffs.

I suppose circumstances are very different between us. In much smaller communities, there's sometimes less to learn. People fall in and out of love often, I think. And some grow to love multiple. It's actually quite common in many species of anima-I'm getting quite off track. [A nervous laugh and then he just stops and goes quiet. Quiet, but Hiccup could feel the flurry of emotions despite being quiet. Newt almost wonders if the other can tell how much his heart wants to leave his chest.] What do you mean?
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[personal profile] newtralize 2020-02-04 10:37 am (UTC)(link)
We don't want to do it to still cause it. [Hiccup had seen how Theseus and Newt had been. Struggling to fix things between them and sometimes getting too heated or too stubborn. They could want the absolute best for others, but that doesn't change the fact that they could very well hurt each other still.

Newt gives a bit of a helpless shrug.
] It isn't bad. Monogamy. It's still incredibly common. Probably more common than not with people. [It was just how society decided to advance, he thinks. Even Newt cannot deny that. He had loved Leta, then he had fallen for Tina.] I'm sweet on someone back home, Hiccup. [Newt had never really talked much about his private life, had he? Not even to Hiccup. At least, not about who he had loved and all. It never really came up, but also maybe it's an issue. He was terribly private about many of his affairs.] I traveled illegally to find her. I don't think it's fair to ask people to throw away what they had back home because we eventually will. Return home. [Well, that's what they're all hoping, right? Although, things are precarious back home that he isn't sure what to feel about that. That's unimportant though.] Awhile ago, I had experienced some parts of my life. While here. I don't think I talked much about it, but I imagine that you saw how it affected me. It's a little unfair, this place. We can still experience our own lives while keeping us here, but still taking people away. Things here aren't so stable. Astrid could appear as could Tina. As could either of us disappearing.

[He takes a breath before releasing it.] There are things that I know that are constant though. Honestly, I can't help but be a bit gobsmacked that you were completely oblivious. While it had obviously worked to my hopes about it not surfacing, it really is impressive. [Hiccup, you idiot.] But, my feelings haven't changed in months. They haven't changed in this awfully awkward week either.

[Newt rubs the back of his neck sheepishly.] I fancy you quite a bit. You know.
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[personal profile] newtralize 2020-02-04 11:17 am (UTC)(link)
I- [He huffs a bit.] It's a very serious thing! I could have gotten in a lot of trouble for doing so. The Ministry rejected my request to lift my travel ban. Multiple times! [Which probably just makes it funnier to Hiccup. That Newt had tried to lift a ban and still ended up running off for a girl of all things. Newt really was that type of guy who just followed the matters of his heart.

Yet stumbled with Newt. Well, Newt's circumstances with Tina were also quite different, but whatever.

And, honestly, he isn't even sure where exactly him and Tina stood. Things were a bit awkward during Paris.
] Yes. Everything else. [Hiccup can probably feel it. The uncertainty mixed with Newt's dismissive comment. An unwillingness to talk about those troubles though. Just that something loomed over the horizon and it didn't seem to bode well.

But at least Newt can be distracted. He looks at the other and just-
] Hiccup. You guys snogged and you still thought you were just friends? How on bloody hell was I supposed to think you fancied me when your idea of what friends do is befuddling. [Seriously, like. What. All this time, was Hiccup just saying they were best friends because he didn't realize BEST FRIENDS DON'T DO THAT?] Do you normally snog your mate? [This is a serious question.

He's trying to take this seriously, but honestly, Hiccup really has him gobsmacked. Newt doesn't even realize how Hiccup moves closer and how his fingers curl around Hiccup's own.
] Your dad should have given you the wisdom about kissing apparently. [He's teasing. A bit.]
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[personal profile] newtralize 2020-02-04 12:22 pm (UTC)(link)
[Newt has so much to say. How ridiculous it was that they thought that to how he had assumed that it wasn't possible for them to date to his vocabulary. None of that actually is voiced though because Hiccup is suddenly much closer (it wasn't suddenly, Newt just didn't realize) and he's being tugged forward just a smidge and-

Oh.

Whatever was on the tip of his tongue dies and whatever he was thinking was gone. All he can suddenly fixate on is how close Hiccup was and Hiccup's lips on his and how wonderful it was. And maybe he just melts a little and his eyes flutter closed as he kisses back. Shy and inexperienced.
]
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[personal profile] newtralize 2020-02-17 12:41 am (UTC)(link)
[Newt's hands linger on Hiccup's arms; fingers curled against the fabric of Hiccup's sleeves. He almost looks at the other with a dazed look and a flushed face that reaches his ears.

And he can't help the smile on his face. The breath of air he exhales that he hadn't realized he might have been holding.
] Yes. I agree. I much prefer this. [All the stress and anxiety he had been feeling seems to just leave his body. It's almost laughable that this had been so distressing.]

I was never fond of it. Enchanted mistletoe. Not that, well, kissing you has ever been an issue. [If it was, it was wanted. Not that Newt will say that out loud.]
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[personal profile] newtralize 2020-02-24 04:11 am (UTC)(link)
I don't know if you've noticed, but being awkward is something of a natural state of being for me at the best of times. [He isn't so oblivious not to know that his social skills weren't exactly stellar.] I can only be glad that you didn't realize that my feelings during the kiss were less than platonic, Hiccup. Knees weak so to speak.

[Newt is all stiff and a little awkward. The closeness of the other was nice, but he doesn't really know what to do. He's probably overthinking it all.]

I just didn't want to make you uncomfortable.
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[personal profile] newtralize 2020-03-06 09:30 am (UTC)(link)
I- [Newt lets out a sheepish laugh.] I don't think it ever occurs to me that anyone would like me. It's not exactly, well, common of a thing. [And all that becoming famous brought was people constantly talking about his eligibility, but he wouldn't know an admirer if it kissed him on the face.]

No, no. It isn't something I'm used to. I'm sorry. It'll take me a bit of time to grow used to. I've never been particularly, uhm, physical in any capacity. It's very new to me.
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[personal profile] newtralize 2020-03-23 01:54 pm (UTC)(link)
Well, there's quite a few things I can think of as to why. [And Newt's reply is just as serious. Self aware to know some of the things he does and why it doesn't jive well with others.]

It's- That's not something you have to apologize about. I just- I suppose I wish I weren't quite so, well, awkward. [He shouldn't be this hesitant with physical affection at his age, right?] I guess I had just spent so much of my time with animals and taking very little time to interact with others proper.

It- Well, better late than ever, right? [Newt gently places his hand in Hiccup's own. A willingness to try.]
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[personal profile] newtralize 2020-03-31 05:15 am (UTC)(link)
Amazing is too strong of a word! [He flushes a bit. Hiccup is so much sometimes. Not in a bad way, but still a lot for the more reserved man.

He laughs a little. Something sheepish.
] I do. I would like to, well, return the gestures. [At least at the same level as the other, though he doesn't think that will ever happen with how affectionate the other seems. For now, Hiccup will have to take shy kisses and gentle hand holding and the like until Newt opens up to the other more.]

We were quite daft about it all. [A chuckle after the other kisses him.] I don't think it would have happened unless we were close. [Though, Newt typically didn't make such close bonds with just anyone. He valued the people in his life more than others might.]
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[personal profile] newtralize 2020-04-07 07:46 am (UTC)(link)
You're quite a bit sometimes, you know that? [Newt smiles so warmly at Hiccup though, that it's impossible for the other to think he's bothered by it all.

Newt might not initiate too much, but at least they can happily stay curled up together on the couch. How he tucks himself against Hiccup comfortably after they had been avoiding each other for that stretch of time. It was awful and felt like an eternity and maybe he didn't truly realize how much he yearned for this closeness.
]

I- You know, I think we'll be at this all day. I would like to push pass how much dawdling that was done. [A little huff.]
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[personal profile] newtralize 2020-04-10 05:41 am (UTC)(link)
Raw vikingness. I wouldn't go that far. [A soft laugh.]

We'd be at it for months if we went with how long it took you to realize. [Newt retorts with a slight shake of his head. A grin on his face.] There are things I much rather talk about. Oh! They were quite gorgeous. The snowbirds! Beautiful creatures. [Newt's face lights up immediately when he remembers that he had just returned from his trip and what his trip was about.]
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[personal profile] newtralize 2020-04-17 11:50 am (UTC)(link)
That sounds rather difficult to do, honestly. You do ride a dragon on the daily after all.

[He laughs softly.] They were wonderful! Quite darling, actually. I found them so wonderful and very playful. Curious and wonderful creatures they were. The young ones were very happy to play. Their feathers- Oh! The feathers are gorgeous. I really should show you some. I learned so much while I was out there. Their habitats and their habits and particulars. You really should see them. I think you'd love them too. Beautiful things- [There he goes.]
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[personal profile] newtralize 2020-04-27 08:32 am (UTC)(link)
I'm not that humourless. You offend me. [Except he isn't actually offended.]

We can go tomorrow! I, well, I had intended to go back, but I was running low on certain supplies. [It hadn't been to avoid the other. Not completely. Newt really didn't need any sort of excuse to end up away from civilization for days to weeks (or months) on end after all.

He's getting up and heading to where he had left his case. It wasn't that he wasn't comfortable, but that he was quite excited to show the other what he had brought back. He assumes Hiccup will follow anyways.
] I think they'll be there still for a bit of time. If we get errands done and everything prepared, we can possibly leave by early afternoon- [Newt seems to be wrapped up in preparations and ignoring the fact that his body still needed proper rest.

Hiccup just got him worked up is all.
]
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[personal profile] newtralize 2020-04-28 11:37 am (UTC)(link)
[It's so very new. This intimacy. Hiccup can feel it from Newt. This fluttering feeling as he kisses him.

Newt pauses when he feels a gentle hand on his shoulder. It's only a slight pause before he prattles on about supplies and other necessities and he waves the other off as though to let the other know he heard him while being equally dismissive about it.

He's much too absorbed in showing the other everything as he opens the briefcase to start his descent into the case.
] Yes, of course. But first, you really must see how gorgeous these feathers are. They're quite fetching. We can have tea after this. [Please stop this man. He is a danger to himself.] I've also got sketches of them, though they aren't quite as good as my usual and it really is quite unfortunate. I think I took some photos of them because of that. Would do me no good when I have the ability to have pictures of them alongside drawings.
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[personal profile] newtralize 2020-05-19 05:24 am (UTC)(link)
Tea, yes of course. [He is...definitely not listening. Newt is rummaging around the tiny little shack. It's cluttered and filled with all sorts of things. From plotted plants to books and papers to nets and cages. The space is crammed and the table was even more of a mess of his usual desk in his room.

He finally hands Hiccup a stack of loose papers. All of them have sketches of varying quality along with a plethora of notes scribbled wherever he could fit them (that wasn't taken up with drawing). Newt himself seems to be rambling, but it's hard to say if he's directing it at the other or just talking to himself at this point while he continues to putz around.

Eventually, he pulls a glass jar out filled with feathers. They're crystalline and quite fetching.
] You must see them before they leave. It would be an opportunity lost otherwise.