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đ’œđ“ƒđ“‰đ‘œđ“ƒđ’Ÿđ‘œ đ’źđ’¶đ“đ’Ÿđ‘’đ“‡đ’Ÿ, ([personal profile] amurder) wrote in [community profile] middaeg2019-05-29 08:34 pm

yes, i admit my defeat (semi-open!)

Who: Salieri, Amadeus and y o u.
When: Late May, full moon.
Where: The Shopping District
What: First changes.
Warnings: Mild body horror, not so-mild mental distortions.



— closed to Amadeus ([profile] quam)

[The moon hangs her body against the dusk- exalted, luminous.

She at first compelled Salieri to keep to the safety of his new home, away from lights and noise. It was a tempting offer given his recent illness, and a mercy when he felt the tumultuous energy of his own body finally fitting into place. Despite that ready comfort, despite the urge to stay inside and shield away from what was inevitably coming to take place-

—He takes his coat and leaves.

The freshly swept roads and color-tinted sidewalk of the District lead him to a bordered music shop with fanciful musicians painted along the walls. Trumpeters and violinists pose within its windows and inside a seamless phonograph fills the shop with a mild concerto consisting of strings. Salieri's demeanor barely warranted even the most subtle glance and like smoke he glided through each room with a haunted, hooded gaze. Patrons of the store come and go, the hour wanes into night. One can still hear the phonograph playing merrily as the store illuminates its showrooms and light candles with flicking wrists.

But another sound carries just beneath the merriment.

The gradual crescendo of keys float up from a distant corner of the shop. A small hallway past the winds leads to a grand parlor room with ghostly curtains swaying in the night breeze. In the middle of the room Salieri sits, hunched over the shop's only grand piano. His hands diligently follow each note to memory, strike each key with a flow that seems nearly mechanical. The music is low enough that its managed to go undetected all this time, but another sound is steadily climbing its way above that pitch.

It's the sound of Salieri's ragged breath as he plays and clings to the keys as though his survival depended on the sounds they produced.

Something heavy and sharp scrapes across the polished floorboard. There are muted noises now— crackling bones, fabric tearing. Something beneath the piano grows until it can barely fit. The thud of a great, weighty paw resonates as it slams down on the pedals beneath the bench. Claws protruding from the fur catch the wood, graze it with razor-like tips and leave wide carved streaks in their wake. Salieri stifles a groan— keeps the noise lodged in his throat and lowers his head even more. Sweat drips from his bangs and splatter on the ivory keys.

There's certainly no doubt about it now— with Salieri's pants in shreds and newly grown legs bent painfully under the bench, it's all too clear. He is changed— indefinitely.

And he continues to play— until he suddenly doubles over what seems like a sharp spasm of his chest.
] Gngh...!

You've— you've finally answered, h... haven't you, Signore?


[Salieri lets out a wheezing laugh, thick and hollow at the same time.] Damn you— I still— I still have my fingers. You cannot take that away, aha.... gh—


— OPEN.

[And then life goes on!

Somehow, at least. For Salieri, this night certainly started off a bit differently. Painful, elongated limbs aside, it seems the full moon simply hasn't had enough of manipulating the dour Maestro. He's made quick use of his new furred legs and for good reason, considering the glares the locals were giving him. It's quite obvious that Monsters aren't welcome on the more posh side of town— newly changed ones more so. Salieri makes himself scarce, barely keeping an eye on the trail itself as he focuses on simply walking. The rough pads beneath his paws barely register the texture of the road underneath them— it's unsettling, to say the least, but so long as he can make it back to his room then all should be well.

But of course, it simply isn't that easy.
] Ah...!

[God, not again.

Salieri shuts his eyes against the splitting headache, sways as he narrowly avoids running right into a couple in his way. He can feel the wary stares and hear the whispers— Really? Out here? No, don't look- those things are bad luck, you know how it is.

How easy it would be to turn and snarl at them.

He almost considers it too, whipping his head around to scan which eyes were currently pinned on him. He feels a growl build in the back of his throat—

and feels his head jerked to the side.
] —!?

[He's... caught on something. But not just something— a plant. A long, thick vine protruding from an apothecary's stall has reached out and entangled itself around him.

Or rather, his newly curled horns which he... didn't even realize had taken form. He takes a moment (or two) to consider the idea that he'll more than likely become an abomination by the end of the day, then finally considers on how to untangle himself from this extremely stubborn vine. It clings tight, as though it wants him to stay. With a long suffering sigh Salieri reaches for his dagger.

And the vine clings on tighter.
] Nn! Wretched little—

[There's no possible way this blasted thing is alive... is it?]
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[ for all of a moment, he truly thinks that perhaps the man in grey was successful in hiding that passion of antonio salieri's, far away and never to be seen beyond its terrible and warped battle variation.

... so as salieri continues, amadeus can't help the amused little smile that lights his face. ]
Ah. And there he is! The strict, Imperial Kapellmeister.

Your words bite, Excellency, as usual. And a little sharper now that you've got the fangs [ he thumbs at his own, much less impressive canines, exposed in his grin ] to back them up. [ a short giggle. ]

Ah, but you're right. You do know me well, Salieri. [ he decides to say, just before moving on. ]
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[ oh. well, don't mind him for a brief moment, because that reminds him that he still has his coffee here. it's easy to get distracted when music is involved. he takes one long sip before continuing — ]

Well, the truth is, I went to Parliament. [ what else does a masterless servant do in a world without opera, after all? ] About the possibility of reopening one of the theaters. If no one else was interested in running it — I'd get a loan, of course — and run it myself.

Ahahaha, I don't have the cleanest reputation in the world, but I've no record here, right? [ listen to how completely free from guilt he says all that. ] Well, something seems to have tipped them off, for the representative there may as well have become an immovable bull. She drilled me rather brutally with questions, and warned me that all the performances would be heavily monitored — and worst of all: altered if necessary.

[ censorship ... his apparently immortal enemy. ]

She was hellbent on discouraging me away from it the entire time. I was really just inquiring for the future, so I committed to nothing and left. [ over the top of his coffee cup, amadeus sighs a heavy, frustrated sigh. ] It was a horrible interaction, Salieri! It seems there's some conscious effort to keep the theater art suppressed, and I've no idea why! [ oh, now he seems pretty upset. this is really beginning to feel too much like he's back home in vienna again – struggling forever with the avenues of his passion. ]
Edited 2019-07-02 08:06 (UTC)
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[personal profile] fordeath 2019-07-02 08:55 am (UTC)(link)
[ once again, he feels as if salieri is hung up on the completely wrong part of what he said here!

and yet, somehow, he doesn't mind... a little huff of a laugh escaping him, made of something quiet and ancient: humility. the imperial kapellmeister, so diplomatic, so stately – the perfect mediator between the powers that be and the flurrying storm of this genius' creative passion.

perhaps there are some things they truly can't escape, servant or not. as it always has from the older man, that calm and objective reaction serves to mellow his mood a little, and hold him back, as not to get too overexcited. he leans forward on his knee, conceding humbly but playfully. ]
I suppose I'm used to it.

[ but ... "you'll have to work within their guidelines somehow" ... he sighs deep afterword. ] ... Used to both things, in the end.

Ugh, I shouldn't have to accommodate stupid rules anymore, though! Well — I never should have had to, I'm a genius! But it's especially frustrating now. [ the huff he lets out is a pouty one, before he takes another, grumbly sip from his coffee. then, he looks up, quirking a brow at the avenger. ] What about you, Salieri? Don't you want to write for the theater at all?
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[ it's disappointing, to say the least. he imagined within him a growing flame of purpose flared to life, briefly waning when he sees that his fellow composer's was nothing but smoldering ash. did they not share this after all? must he go this alone, in the end?

after all that they've revealed to one another ... after everything tonight? amadeus frowns at salieri, a beat of silence passing between them. ]


No. [ he finally says, looking away. defiant, like a child. ] I don't understand.

[ in theory, he knows what's holding salieri back: the sheer uncertainty of his nature, his status as a servant and what this new world is doing to him. what he doesn't understand is why, if salieri had the opportunity, here and now, to pursue music if even for just one moment before the madness took him again – a year, half, a month, a week, a day! – he wouldn't take it? he can hardly sympathize when, in his life, he threw himself into those haunting, sleepless nights for the glory of music and music alone. ]

I can't stand for this. You shouldn't either! We're artists, Salieri, not politicians — we have a more fulfilling purpose to serve, and a duty to serve it. [ but ... maybe he's the only one who feels that way. yes, he never really was like any other artist, was he?

amadeus scoffs, resigning then to speak only for himself. ]
How am I meant to enrich this world if theater as a whole is in shambles? I refuse to be censored. [ yet, how to go about it? ... ] I'll have to think of something.
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[ he remembers shared stories of small scale childhood rebellion. descriptions of broken spinets, tales of violated curfews and insolently blunt remarks of the town's organist — all motivated by a true, unabashed love for music that amadeus recognized immediately, knew like an old friend. between the laughter and the snide jokes made at their mutual librettist's expense. as they finally, after being released from the unforgiving and all-seeing hold of the viennese courts, saw eye to eye.

he knew then that salieri wasn't entirely the rigid, unforgiving man that his position made him out to be. he wasn't clueless in the ways of music – his sense for pure, divine talent, as it turned out, as potent as his own. he thought, then, that he had an admirer in salieri, sympathetic to the plight of an artist who wrote for a deaf public.

he hoped that if the ex-kapellmeister had a chance to help him now, that he would. in the end, he doesn't blame him for not doing so, given the circumstances of his spirit origin, and the dismantled state of the theatrical world here. it's an intimidating endeavor to tackle an entire nation's attitude on art and the societal rules of expression.

but, in his opinion ... that's what an artist is meant to do. and if salieri means not only to refuse to help, but to stop him completely ... to lecture him and discourage him? then has this man become any better than the pompous officials he was just mocking? maybe he should consider that things are fundamentally different now, and that salieri's unruly passion is wholly in the past.

amadeus closes his eyes for a moment, contemplating all this, and the answer he wishes to give the man, before he finally speaks up. ]
No.

In fact, you're completely wrong, Salieri.

If you believe after all this time that I'll let my work be butchered by idiots, or sit merely in my head unperformed, then you're a fool. ... —Ah, oops. [ he frowns, at salieri then away. at himself. at all of this. ] Well, I haven't changed, you know. I'll always be this way — impudent, obstinate, incorrigible! [ that's his excuse. but salieri has to see, that he can only ever be utterly dedicated to music, whatever that may mean. ]

But I no longer have to worry about being in debt, or dying. I don't have a wife or kid to provide for either! I'm a composer and a Servant with the chance of a lifetime. [ as he speaks, the heat simmers down inside him, until he's considering all things as a matter of fact. because really, it is. just the nature of things, and the nature of himself. he glances at salieri now, eyes searching for some understanding in the other man's expression. ] Salieri, you should know that if I can make music without having to kiss the ass of another slimy statesman that I'll do it. Unquestionably.
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[personal profile] fordeath 2019-09-26 02:48 am (UTC)(link)
[ with the rise of his temper, he expects the reflection of salieri's own to increase in magnitude. they were both incredibly stubborn creatures when it came down to it – immovable in their ways and they rose the ranks of courtly popularity and public perception respectively because of it. he's not foolish enough to believe their personalities wouldn't clash and continue to clash on this point. salieri, like his father, was a prudent man, a cautious man, content to stay within sets of written and unwritten limits both if it meant a secure position.

amadeus ... had never been that way. no — advice like that has its place, of course, but never in a world that censors theater to this degree. amadeus is prepared, then, to continue to argue salieri on this point when he inevitably scolded him again, allowed his anger to flare, when.......—

the man .... laughs? ]
—?!

[ the vibration of that laughter dislodges all the fight from his heart and replaces it with sheer ... confusion! he watches the man, stunned (and when salieri stands without pants, he's inclined to look away) ] Wait... Salieri– [ and takes the rare, speechless moment from himself to listen. until salieri has said all he's said, each word striking him harder than the last. ]

Do you ... mean that? You understand very well what you're saying, don't you ... ? You haven't succumbed to lunacy, have you? [ there are two full moons here, but ...

"i am salieri," he says! so easily! as though the avenger hadn't spent the entire span of his servant existence battling that question! it was the obvious conclusion from the very beginning, but still! "i'll simply have to go along." "i'll be on your side." ]
Salieri — you'll overload my ears.

... And my eyes, Kapellmeister. [ kindly ... sit back down with him for now it's very distracting ] Pray, do you mean it? Truly?
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[ that's not right, he thinks.

there's much to be said about whose fault it truly is that salieri's reputation ended up warped so. in truth (and as much as he may be slow to admit it), not all blame can rest on the shoulders of a cold, gossiping public. all the terrible dramatics in his life that led he and his father to fantasize quite descriptively about italian cabals and all their conspirators played their part just as well.

no, amadeus is the center of those rumors — fabricated by a populace who thrived on tragedy, who revered the genius posthumously better than they had in his years of living — but is the reason nevertheless, that salieri was forgotten as the esteemed hofkapellmeister and remembered as mozart's killer.

so then ... what could salieri possibly mean when he says he's "ready again"? because of him? what did he do other than call salieri a fool? ]


... I think you're underestimating yourself a great deal, Kapellmeister. Yourself, and the nature of the world we find ourselves in.

[ leave it to him to strip the moment of its romance. ] You were always capable of it, Maestro, but the Sisters seem to have given you the form to act on it. [ form, like a style of musical expression, but form like the way this world and its magical properties deconstructed them as servants, and rebuilt salieri ... in this way. ] Perhaps practicing some paganism is due. Hahaha. [ ha ha ha ]
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[ salieri. the imperial kapellmeister antonio salieri. the court's favorite – the emperor's favorite, the man who lived out his seventy-five years of life and witnessed the absolute highs and the absolute lows of one's career... a teacher, a friend. his friend. that salieri was in there, under the layers of rumors-made curse, all along.

and no amount of him and his genius could have helped pull him free from the shackles of an avenger. never on his power alone.

that's what he meant. he's only giving credit where it's due.

this world has performed miracles upon arrival the likes of the holy grail might be capable of. it's fascinating and bizarre. ]
Ahaha, I don't think they do that here.

[ as salieri demonstrates one of said features, amadeus leans closer (and effectively decides to ignore the rather morbid use of the word "shell" to describe his body—) to get a better look. ] They're pretty big, but I imagine you'll be used to them before long. [ some kind of sparkling excitement shines in his eyes as he examines the spotted, fluffy legs rather intimately. then: ] ... Can I touch them, Salieri?
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— [ his lips part, a smile suspended with no words to come as salieri goes through the motions, within which he finds no solid answer to his request.

once the leopard has finished making a fuss, amadeus raises a brow, but slyly avoids that accusatory stare. ]


Okay, okay! ... I take it that's a no? You could simply say so, Herr Salieri. [ he turns to nurse his coffee like he would the small, smarting wound of rejection. ): ]
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[ aren't they his bare legs? the fur coat on them isn't exactly meager, but still.

from that dejected angle of his, amadeus snorts into his coffee, shoulders lifting sharply when salieri gives in so quickly. he didn't really mean to guilt him into it — he can take rejection, after all, but he won't say no after that humble concession.

now he smiles a smile at salieri which is both outwardly patient and yet clearly gleaming with a barely veiled zeal. ]
Really? You're sure? [ ... seen in the way he moves forward despite those questions.

amadeus places a hand at salieri's knee and immediately sinks his fingers into the dense fur there, ruffling it a bit. ]
Wow — it's thick, Salieri, and soft. Come, feel! You haven't yet, right? [ come to think of it they sort of just sped their way out of that music shop to this spot. had salieri been sitting there with two strangers for legs without attempting to be acquainted this whole time?

meanwhile, amadeus brushes along the grain, down the man's shin in short, light pets. eventually he introduces nails — watches salieri's expression as he scritches ever so slightly in that spot. ]
Perhaps this goes without saying, but they also seem much more powerful now, don't they? I wonder how high you could jump with them...
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[ by the time amadeus has noticed salieri's discomfort (or, what he perceives to be), he's already fiddling with the fur at the backs of the chimera's legs where it hangs at its most fluffy. ] ?

Hm? Whatever you're feeling, Kapellmeister, come out and say it. [ for now, he'll pull away. though the display of childish curiosity might say otherwise, he does understand that stroking these legs, no matter how fresh and new they are, is just as good as doing the same to the avenger's human ones; strange and intimate. ] You won't touch them?
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[ if amadeus had a tail of his own, it would surely be swaying and wagging right about now.

the moment salieri crosses his legs and shows off those black paw pads underneath, a sudden "oh!" escapes his lips, and the sparkle in his eyes seems to shine its brightest.

amadeus quickly scooches closer, sitting right next to salieri on the same step now, and laughs. ]
Ahaha! What kind of reaction is that, Salieri? [ he shakes his head. can't the man see how exciting this is? ] Well, maybe you just need more time with them. [ as he says this, amadeus leans over, peers at them ... and then, gently pokes the center of the largest pad. it's squishy... ]

... Will you be wearing shoes over these, Kapellmeister?

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