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Who: Alucard and Trevor
When: 20 Octeuril
Where: The appropriate ceremony room etc. and the duo's apartment later.
What: Bonds
Warnings: Added as needed

[The next several days after everything afforded Alucard no time at all to sit and do research. There was too much chaos to contend with throughout the city, and that was no environment conducive to sitting down and balancing Belmont fears about becoming a vampire or dhampir issues with the word witch in general.

When it had cleared, Alucard sat. He did the work. He gathered the information, spoke to the people who explained to him how the city's vampire population was sustained and debunked the nuances of vampires as Alucard and Trevor knew them from home, and wrote it all down into three actionable plans.

Plan 1: We do nothing.

Plan 2: We do your idea from several nights ago.

Plan 3: Bonds until matter is not workable

They were all carefully detailed, with plan 3 eventually suggesting that plan 2 be put into place if the situation was truly and utterly impossible for Trevor. It was something Alucard could respect, but only after an attempt was made to avoid well, sun exposure after a full transformation happened.

(He did not want that full transformation. It demanded death. Alucard knew himself, and knew he'd sit beside that corpse until it rose again. He knew the emotions that would provoke, even if Trevor wasn't his favorite person in the world.)

In the end, they had gone with plan 3. All that was left to put it into action and approach the Coven to undertake the ceremony itself, and that brings them both to here. Now. Within a magic circle that Alucard swears he must have seen in one of his father's magic books before.

They're given the go signal for vows. Alucard breathes out.]

I'll go first. Only fair.

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I'm not--

[No, he's mopey. Alucard can't deny that, and so he just sits there for a moment.]

The whole thing made me realize how much I miss Sypha.

[That's only a very small fraction of what's going on, but Alucard's happy to lie and say that's the whole of it for now.]

[ He's not sure what he expected to hear but, for some reason, hearing that has him glance over to the blond a little curiously before he looks ahead of them. ]

Nice to know I wouldn't be missed. [ a beat ] I'm sure she's fine.

[ Even though she's never been on her own before and he knows she seemed worried about being separated from her family but... details. ]

I'd rather she not see me like this anyways.

[Alucard's face is downcast, and much of his expression in profile is shielded by hair. There's a thin trace of a frown on his lips though, and his hands rest atop his knee caps, shoulders hunched forward slightly.]

You'd be missed.

[The response is automatic. Soft. Exhausted.]

I understand. But she'd be...[Alucard shakes his head.] She'd be more capable of giving you actual support.

[ They're both probably the best and worst for this in terms of everything that's happening. Despite his knowledge and "experience" with vampires, Alucard is one, if even half, and has been all his life. He knows how things feel, look, taste, smell, sound... all of that shit. He knows it because he's lived with it all his life and that's something Trevor can't exactly say he has any experience with. So to recognize certain signs before maybe even he himself does... that's valuable and something Trevor needs when he's like this.

Yet they're both the worst because... neither are that great at expressing themselves beyond childish insults at one another. So it's sure to be a time either way. ]

Or pity.

[ He mutters that with a sigh and allows for his arms to cross as he looks off in the other direction. ]

Look. You're a vampire yourself, if even half. I've only ever had the experience of killing them. Living as one isn't exactly my area of expertise there. So don't think you're not valuable in all this. I'd honestly just stake myself through the heart if it was just me here having to deal with this.

[Alucard knows that Trevor isn’t wrong. Not really. Not in a meaningful way, because he’s entirely correct about the fact that Alucard is an expert in being a vampire. That he can be helpful here, and that is is valuable in all of this.

But. But.

It isn’t the most important thing. That’s the real point.]

She doesn’t do pity. Just empathy.

[It’s an important distinction in Alucard’s opinion.]

I would like to be able to do more.

And I would like to not be turning into a fucking bloodsucker. We just have to work with what we've got, don't we?

[ There's still frustration laced within his voice despite the influence of both the mist and the full moon having passed. ]

Can't you... I don't know... do a spell or something and stop this?

Yes, Belmont. I can wave a hand and the problem is fixed, because I'm so thrilled to be the thing that got my mother killed.

[It's snapped with too much heat. Alucard can't make himself care.]

And I'm having a fucking great time turning into a vampire.

[ It's snapped back at the blond before he sighs, pinching the bridge of his nose. ]

Look. I didn't meant it like that, Alucard.

[ They're both in shitty situations right now. ]

[He should growl at that. Call Trevor self centered because they've only focused on his problem. His angst. And it's the other reason Alucard wants Sypha here. She'd at least give him half a shit and let him talk, rather than all feelings going to Trevor.

That thought casts itself over Alucard, and he wraps himself in it. Stares ahead, unaware of any emotions already bleeding over.]

[ They're both stumbling around in the dark with their own situations and without Sypha here to more or less help them navigate through everything they're both feeling - to be that emotional support they clearly both need - it's bound to be a time for them both.

He isn't sure what to say, what to do when Alucard starts getting mopey here on the bench and he's liable to just wander off... when he suddenly feels something bleed into him in a way that feels as though something is attaching itself to him and makes him feel... irritated. Moody even and it has him stare ahead. Confused. ]

Are you... doing that?

Doing what?

[Alucard finally looks up, golden eyes shifting and settling on Trevor. He's far too caught up in his feelings at the moment to realize anything transferred.]

[ Maybe not then? Is he imagining things? Hell if he knows. ]

Er- nothing, I guess. I don't know.

[ It just... didn't at all feel like anything he had been feeling himself. ]

You're sure?

[Alucard's lips thin into a frown, and his head is tilted slightly. Rather dog like, in point of fact.]

[ How does he even describe this? Is there even anything to describe in the first place? He doesn't know and it has him glance away, feeling frustrated and confused. ]

I don't know what I'm sure about. It just felt like feeling something that wasn't mine. I don't know.

[Well. There's an annoyed noise.]

That's likely to happen with this bond thing.

What is?

[ Feeling the emotions of one another? Because... that's probably going to get real annoying real fast? And he doesn't want Alucard to... feel things from him?? ]

There are...shared experiences from time to time, based on everything I read. That was in the plan I wrote down and wa--

[Shit. He felt Alucard's emotions. Shit. There's a moment where Alucard registers what's really happened, and the only expression on his face is that of absolute mortification.]

Wait... [ let him see if he's getting this right ] ...you're telling me we share experiences with each other through this? As in... whatever we're feeling?

[ Isn't that some sort of... invasion of privacy or something?? ]

So you can just tap in and feel whatever I'm feeling?

No. Tapping in doesn't happen, in so far as I can tell. The whole thing seems random, like sometimes a string will be plucked and the other will feel the vibration.

[ That's... not entirely all that reassuring? The opposite, actually, since it seems so random and unexpected. GREAT. ]

Great, so. Can't even keep my hands to myself, right? Or does that suddenly all change once I'm a vampire? No, because you wouldn't be here if that was the case. So, great.

[Alucard is quiet. He stays very quiet for a while, and then he feels his shoulders slump. They may as well fall onto the floor.]

It'll go both ways. We'll...I don't know. Learn to ignore what aren't our thoughts, and be respectful enough if we run into it.

Ignore our thoughts. Right. Sounds easy enough.

[ Oh the sarcasm which drips from that. But, there's no point in arguing about this. No point in trying to make this any more awkward than it already is and with coming to remember something he had been told about bonds previously, well... yeah. ]

Just... I don't know. If it helps then... I guess it's a small sacrifice to pay.

Unless you have a better plan, Belmont. Believe me, I am open to all ideas at this point.

[Sarcasm and bitterness is a comfortable home for them both, after all. They can work with it. Wrap it around themselves and know they're in familiar territory.]

[ Sounds about right, doesn't it? In which case, Trevor just sighs, feeling defeated in a sense. There's really no better thing for them to do in this situation, is there? The last thing he wants is to lose control of himself and attack someone and Alucard... loses magic or something? So he needs a... monster to bond to. Ugh if he doesn't hate that he's now lumped into that category. Fuck off, world. ]

Look, I'm not all that happy with this shit any more than you are. So if we have to deal with it, then we have to deal with it.

Yes right. Of course. Tolerating the other.

[He sounds almost sad about that, that it's nothing more than tolerance. But Alucard then stands up, suggesting that the conversation is, if not over, at a point where he'd rather leave it for the time being.]

Would it be easier for you if the roles were reversed?

You mean if you were a vampire like you already are?

[ Because... yeah?? It would be?? Like... a lot?? What a question, Alucard. But Trevor sighs and just begins to walk then, figuring they're heading back to the place they have for themselves here. ]

The thought of me wanting to chomp on someone's neck or even want to drink blood in the first place is enough to make me sick.

I meant being labeled the thing your family was accused of being and murdered for, Belmont.

[The Belmonts were witches just the same as Lisa of Lupu, after all. It's a worthy question in Alucard's estimation, because here? There's no better option one way or the other. He's given it a lot of thought. He knows that if Trevor bore the title witch he'd be just as miserable.]

[ Oh. Right. ]

Does it matter? I'd be screwed either way then.

[ And that just gets him to sigh again as he starts to head off, lingering just enough for Alucard to follow. ]

Just come on. I'm getting tired

[So much for the attempt to have an actual conversation and perhaps mutual sympathy. Alucard's at least certain that he can't talk to Trevor about his own personal heartache in all of this, and that's...well, it's good to know.

But it's it's own kind of misery making, and so he just stays put, aware that being around Trevor is going to just make matters worse for the time being.]

Go ahead. I'll be here for a while longer.

[ Look, neither of them are amazing at this and this is certainly going to take some time with the both of them. For now? Maybe it's best to just... let it be. Have them settle into all of this and just figure it all out.

That doesn't mean Trevor doesn't come to look back to the blond. ]

You're sure?

[Alucard's entire posture makes it clear he's sad. Extremely sad, and that being alone would be a terrible idea. This isn't the kind of vampiric brooding he usually does either, there's a different texture to it, but his mouth is happy to contradict him.]

Yes.

[ This is some bullshit if he's ever seen it. ]

Well... the bond tells me differently.

[ So there. ]

Just... come back with me. Please?

[...He hates this excuse already.]

I'd like to at least be outside, Belmont.

[That's a truth, but also for Trevor's sake if he's going to be honest. There's a finite amount of daylight Trevor can enjoy now. Alucard's of the opinion that it's his own job to force him to enjoy it.]

We can be outside if you want. Just... don't sit out here by yourself and mope, ok?

[ Frowning a little to the blond, he turns then, waiting for him to accompany him back to the place they have here for themselves. ]

[Alucard sighs. There's enough reason in him to pick up on the fact that this is Trevor's version of comfort. The thing Alucard wants more than anything, just from an absolutely different person. This...everything, it's not ideal, but he's the jerk if he refuses it.

So he doesn't. He stands up slowly.]

Lead the way.

[ He takes a few steps forward but, knowing still that Alucard is being Alucard, he looks back to the blond before he holds his hand out and just... looks away. Maybe a touch embarrassed. ]

Give me your hand and before you say anything, no, I'm not going to fucking bite you.

I didn't think you were.

[God Trevor, you don't have to tell him you think that lowly!

But he does offer his hand all the same.]

[ Well like he knows??? But when he takes Alucard's hand into his own, he shoots a quick glance to their hands before he looks away again. Standing there. Clearing his throat then. ]

Does, uh- that feel better?

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[In response, Alucard simply squeezes Trevor's hand. It's a careful, measured gesture, but he means it, he really does.

Trevor's hand is still warm. That's important too.]

Thank you.

[His voice is impossibly quiet when he says the words.]

Right, well. [ Why is he feeling AwKwArD about this?? ] Let's go then, ok? No point in standing around here.

[ And so he decides to lead the way with Alucard in tow, holding his hand and trying not to feel like a fool about it. ]

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