[closed] October catch-all

[turmoiling]

Who: Jin Guangyao and various
When: Throughout Octeuril (and possibly backdated Septeril)
Where: Aefenglom
What: Catch-all log for various things
Warnings: None yet.


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Comments

[zewu_jun]

[They were terrible. Lan Xichen knows that, but he also knows that Jin Guangyao won't want to talk about the things that hurt him most. He never has, because those things are still weighing on him. If they weren't, he wouldn't come out of the dream realm with injuries like that. They are still threats to Jin Guangyao because he believes they are. Trying to talk about that might only make it worse.

He smiles softly when the hand rests on his arm. A small, comforting gesture reminiscent to ones they had shared before in another world, long before the truth came out. They weren't all bad times. Even though the reality was much harsher than Lan Xichen had known, even then, Jin Guangyao had kept his word and had not hurt him. That still meant something.]

I saw my mother.

[turmoiling]

[Ah. How that ties into the injuries he's seen is unclear, but dreams are so often fragments of things set loose in unfitting circumstances. He nods, with at least some degree of understanding from what Lan Xichen shared with him in the past.]

It must have been difficult.

[zewu_jun]

It... made me realize that there are things I still cannot do.

[Nothing like a nightmare about being helpless to bring into focus how much you still need to work on yourself. He could blame others, but really, what Lan Xichen concluded was that if he wants to do anything, he has to become stronger.]

I should have been able to find you. I wanted to.

[turmoiling]

[As intensely personal as they were, if there had been anyone he could suffer to have seen his dreams, he would rather have had it be Lan Xichen than others. Though he's not thrilled at the idea of seeing his brother any time soon, it will be all the more uncomfortable for their experiences there.]

Perhaps that is the nature of such a dreamwalking, that it would prevent it.

[zewu_jun]

If we were together, then we could have prevented these injuries.

[He thinks, at least. Maybe even that is a bit too optimistic, but Lan Xichen does think that there would have been safety in numbers to some extent. They have supported each other fairly well so far (when they aren't arguing). He scoots slightly closer, putting his hand on Jin Guangyao's back and starting a slow massage.]

A-Yao, did you notice anything strange in that city?

[turmoiling]

[It's definitely optimistic, but Jin Guangyao nods anyway. The muscles are still at first, but it was hardly a restful sleep. He tries to relax into the familiar touch and remember details beyond just the personal.]

There was feeling that there was some other presence lurking nearby. I know I am not the only one who felt it.

[He recalls his gaze flickers across the other present Mirrorbound, looking for possible judgemental eyes. With none in sight and slow to move into a fully comfortable position still, the snake half of his body shifts again, curling back around Lan Xichen and resting tucked up against his back, narrower tip resting on his leg.]

[zewu_jun]

Do you think that it will follow us?

[If they can bring crystals out of the dreams, then maybe that dark presence can follow them out as well. And do worse. He felt that presence watching them in the city, but couldn't pick up anything about it. Was it a living creature? A spirit? He frowns slightly, leaning closer to Jin Guangyao for comfort of his own.]

I knew it was only a dream, but it hurt to see them again. I thought if I did, I would be happy.

[There is something tight in his throat as he says that. A wire pulled inside him.]