[open] how am i gonna be an optimist about this

[deadvotional]

Who: Hua Cheng, Percy de Rolo and Open
When: Auguril
Where: Around
What: Catch-all for both my idiots; quests, Lunasa, and etc.
Warnings: Possible discussion of an immensely shitty childhood

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[deadvotional]

[ There's a moment's pause while Hua Cheng waits for the ghost to react, and when she shows no signs of movement his eye darts quickly in Lan Xichen's direction. It's measuring but brief before his attention goes back to the greater threat.

Will she still respond if he gives the wrong answer to someone else? Would that bring an attack down on both of them? He lets out a breath, one side of his mouth curving up just slightly. ]

My mother gave me a milk name. After she died no one else cared enough to bother.

[ Still no movement from the ghost. Perhaps it is honesty she's after, then. ]

[zewu_jun]

[With no sign of hostility after the exchange, Lan Xichen hesitates as well. Then, turning his attention to Hua Cheng, he gives the other man a serious look of concern.]

No one? But surely you have not lived alone all this time. What do others call you?

[He's thoroughly distracted from the mission now with the personal concern outweighing the job.]

[deadvotional]

[ One of Hua Cheng's eyebrows lifts, but he doesn't look away from the spirit, who is regarding him back with that same blank intensity. How much of the soul is truly there? He wonders.

But he also snorts in response to the question. He is called so many things these days. Chengzu and Crimson Rain. San Lang. Any of the myriad other names he's given, when needed. But he's been using the one here most often, and that's what he gives now. ]

Hua Cheng. [ It's as true as any of the others. Nothing from the spirit. She hasn't even glanced in Lan Xichen's direction.

The stillness lingers just long enough to nearly catch him off guard when she does speak again. ]

What will you do if he never loves you?

[zewu_jun]

[Lan Xichen listens, mostly settled into a support position as the lady seems to be focusing on Hua Cheng to engage in this strange game of questions. So far there hasn't been any violence, so he takes that as a sign that his companion is passing her tests. It's only his own surprise that prompts him to engage further. He knows very little about the man and hearing it now catches him off-guard. He does give an affronted expression, however, at her next question, stepping forward as if to shield Hua Cheng.]

There should be no need to ask such personal questions. What is it that you wish?

[deadvotional]

[ The ghost continues to ignore Lan Xichen entirely, almost looking right through him as he moves forward. Whatever this is, it is for Hua Cheng alone, it seems.

Lucky that the man himself merely snorts in response. This spirit knows something, apparently. More than just a simple remnant, and that makes him curious enough to keep playing the game. Personal, yes, but Hua Cheng has already exposed himself more thoroughly in this place. This is another easy answer. ]

I don't need him to love me. [ Want, yes. He's wanted for so long that he can't remember himself without it. But he doesn't need it. If all he ever gets is his highness' occasional smiles of thanks, he'll consider himself blessed. ] I will continue exactly as I have been. His most devoted follower.