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lancer | diarmuid ua duibhne ([personal profile] ua_duibhne) wrote in [community profile] middaeg2019-06-27 12:00 am

[closed] why don't you tell me what do you need

Who: Diarmuid and Berserker
When: Late June
Where: The Coven
What: Walking Disasters of varying degrees of messiness make either a very good or very bad decision and Bond.
Warnings: whoops this got spicy nsfw

[Tuesday at the Coven, 8pm, if your mind is still made up.

Though Diarmuid knows that Berserker isn’t the kind of man that will go back on his word or shrink away from a difficult task, he still wouldn’t blame him if he decided not to show up. After all, he himself had started to have a few doubts about the whole thing upon initiating that temporary Bond with Waver. Now that he’s experienced it for himself, the reality of what he's agreed to has made itself very clear. Is he ready for what he might find in Berserker's mind? Or, for that matter, the potential ache of what quiet, deeply buried self-truths might be unearthed in his own?

Well, it hardly matters. The fact is that the vow that they’re supposed to swear to each other in the ceremony was, in his eyes, already half made on that night in the maze. Whatever uncertainties he might have felt in the past few days, they've never lasted long against the memory of Berserker's eyes, wild with something uncontrollable and animalistic. No, he has a duty to uphold the promise he made as a Knight and- strange though it is to think it- someone who was gifted with his trust. Speaking of which, he’s given only a small amount of thought to the words he’s going to be speaking tonight and he would wager that Berserker has devoted even less to it, if any at all. But it’s fine. They’ll discuss it when the time comes. There are only a handful of things that Diarmuid is set on including and none of them are likely to be sentiments that he'll object to anyway.

As things are, the Lancer-turned-witch has declined waiting in the well-lit lobby in favour of taking a seat on the steps of one of the many grand entrances to the Coven. The summer sun has long since given way to a cooler evening and, in the gloom, he makes for a particularly solitary figure in his dark cloak. With only a small orb of light- a spell he’s mastered since their expedition- bobbing around his head for a light and nerves starting to gnaw at his resolve, it’s no wonder that he’s paying very little attention to the book in his lap.

... the nature of the lycanthrope’s relationship with the full moon is a double edged sword, drawing them further from their humanity but...

He snaps it shut.

In some ways, Berserker really is much easier to handle than Waver. Hopefully, he won’t keep him waiting too long. Sighing, he glances back up into the courtyard, brushing aside that defiant curl as he tries to pick out the large, prowling shape of the other Servant.]
curruid_coinchenn: (imminent defeat)

[personal profile] curruid_coinchenn 2019-07-07 12:34 am (UTC)(link)
[ There is a certain relief in giving up control -- he's never liked being in charge of anything, per se. Letting Diarmuid control the pace, however, brings frustration with it. After denying his wants for so long, it's difficult for him to be patient. Take, conquer, destroy; that is what the Mad King is good at and what he's known for. He wants to give into his instincts, pin the other man to the bed, and completely ruin him. The only reason he doesn't is because this is easier. Well, that's a lie -- he is actually enjoying it. He enjoys having his "power" taken from him.

This is also a way to satisfy personal curiosity. If he gives Diarmuid free reign to do as he wants, what will he do with it? Will he listen to Berserker's desires or just take what he wants? There's a part of him that already knows the answer (the Lancer is a little predictable in some ways, after all), though there's still enough of a mystery to keep him interested.

Berserker writhes beneath the attention given to him. It would be so easy to overpower Diarmuid, yet he continues to accept this treatment. It's overwhelming despite it not being that much. Is it because he rejected his own wants for so long that every touch, every kiss sets his senses on fire? He doesn't know the answer, he just wants more.

The sheets tear in his grip as he feels the teasing tongue graze his nipple. Oops. He hadn't noticed how hard he'd been gripping at them, too caught up in the sensations being given to him. ]


...More. [ Not quite desperate, but pleading. ] Give me everything you've got.

[ Why was he so desperate for this kind of affection? He couldn't understand it, but they're past the point of understanding anything. Analyzing this could come later. He lets go of the torn cloth in his hand to clutch at Diarmuid once again, trying not to claw his skin up anymore than he already has. Any semblance of self-control is gone and it's strange for him to just give in. ]
curruid_coinchenn: (the hunt is what defines us)

[personal profile] curruid_coinchenn 2019-07-07 04:19 pm (UTC)(link)
[ This was insane. To give himself over to his own desires, to let Diarmuid take control is beyond anything he would've done. The most insane part of this, though, is that he doesn't hate it. He actually feels something about it more than passive indifference and it's positive. Bizarre, utterly bizarre.

He's not given much time to think about it, thankfully. If he took the time to think about the situation, he would be gone from here in an instant to never be seen again. The other man keeps giving him more to focus on than the confusion clouding the back of his mind.

Breathing heavy, he sits up as Diarmuid does and pushes himself off the bed. It's not to run away like a small part of him is telling him to do, it's to shed the rest of his clothing. A moment's reprieve in the heady haze of long-repressed desires. Everything is laid bare before the Lancer. His body bears a few still healing wounds from an incident in the hedge maze -- long, narrow gashes here and there. He'd been too stubborn to take care of them despite being given the means to do so.

After a moment, he settles back down on the bed, propped up on his elbows. ]


You don't need to thank me... [ It was really Berserker who should be thanking him. For bonding with him at all and taking this chance. An exercise of trust and mutual respect. ] You're proving yourself and you're doing well.

[ Faint, but genuine praise. It's the best one could hope to get from him. ]
curruid_coinchenn: (which of us was weak)

[personal profile] curruid_coinchenn 2019-07-08 03:46 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Nothing Berserker does is without intensity. Even his normal apathy is strangely intense. It's this particular kind of intensity that's rarely seen by anyone. It takes so many different factors coming into alignment for this to even occur. It's a perfect storm of bottled up desires and self-denial, bursting forth like a lightning strike.

There's no need to speak to the truth of the matter -- he knows Diarmuid understood what he meant. Berserker trusts few people and fewer still to be near him at him most vulnerable. Yes, he's still dangerous and can defend himself, but there are still weaknesses on display. The Lancer would never betray him, that much was promised.

He shifts a little to rebalance himself as he puts an arm around the witch. It's a warmer embrace than to be expected, an almost fond look on his face. The desire for more hasn't cooled off completely, but it's not longer at a boiling point. He kisses his temple, pulling him in just a little bit tighter. ]


I don't have to tell you. You know exactly what I mean. [ He runs his fingers through Diarmuid's hair as he leans in to capture his lips in another kiss. ] You're worth relying on.

[ Reassurance that didn't need to be spoken. He chose to do so out of courtesy -- he owed him that much, didn't he? ]
curruid_coinchenn: (praying for advantage)

never change deermood

[personal profile] curruid_coinchenn 2019-07-08 07:15 pm (UTC)(link)
[ This kind of intimacy is nearly alien, and yet he goes along with it. It's soft and gentle, completely unlike his natural temperament. He has no want to be more forward, though, preferring for Diarmuid to take the lead on pace. Too much too soon may damage their bond in some way -- not in a literal sense, of course. A delicate game of give and take.

Berserker nearly flinches away at the touch on his thigh simply because of how unfamiliar it is. He stops himself, looking momentarily annoyed. An involuntary response that he wanted to control. It was the same with the shiver the ran through him. How was he going to handle himself from here if a simple touch did that to him? It's impossible not to see how much he's enjoying this in his state of undress. ]


Don't be so formal. [ He knows that won't change Diarmuid's behavior and there's a part of him happy...no, satisfied, that it won't. It's almost endearing. ] Do as you will.
Edited 2019-07-08 19:16 (UTC)
curruid_coinchenn: (imminent defeat)

[personal profile] curruid_coinchenn 2019-07-08 10:47 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Actions speak louder than words. Even if Berserker wanted to respond, the only sound that comes out is a low moan. He keeps his gaze trained on Diarmuid, eyes half-lidded and lips parted. If he were feeling crueler, he'd mention something about how skilled the slender fingers wrapped around his shaft were. There's no need for that now -- he doesn't want him to stop. He rocks his hips in time with the pace the witch's stroking, unable to help himself.

It's so hard to voice what he wants, normally content to let whoever's he's with do as they please. His desires are an afterthought, nothing more. What does he want? How can he put into words what he wants? It's not even out of embarrassment, it's just simply being so out of touch with his own body.

He shakes off the haze of lust long enough to respond beyond wanting moans. ]


Faster... [ Nothing more than a strained whisper. ] Please, my knight.

[ A king he is not, but he wants to see Diarmuid's reaction to that almost fond title. This is little different from bed-sharing between a king and his knight, after all. ]
curruid_coinchenn: (tension and the fear)

[personal profile] curruid_coinchenn 2019-07-09 12:51 pm (UTC)(link)
[ If Berserker would stop to think about it for a moment, he would stop all this. It's too personal, everything moving far beyond the original intent of this. He could excuse it as a trust exercise, but that's not entirely the truth. He's given into his long-buried needs, pushed his bonded to do more than strictly necessary. It's deeply wrong for a number of reasons, and yet he can't stop.

Each motion draws a soft sound from him, continuing to rock up into the rhythm. His cock throbs from the attention, a bit of pre-come dribbling from the tip. There's an unfortunate reality that he could hit his peak at any moment -- how intense all of this is, paired with how long he'd denied himself is a dangerous combination. He'll hold it back as long as he can.

He balances himself on one hand, his other trailing lower on Diarmuid's body to settle in between his thighs. Such eagerness should be repaid, but it's so hard for him to say it. It's difficult to focus on anything but the sensations being given to him, his senses completely overwhelmed. ]


Do you want the same from me? [ The same strained whisper as before. ] I'll give you anything you ask.