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GON 🌿 FREECSS ([personal profile] freecshow) wrote in [community profile] middaeg2020-07-24 02:56 am

IM 15 I CANT GET MARRIED

Who: Gon and Killua
When: 7/17
Where: The Coven
What: baby's first bonding ceremony (they are both the baby in question)
Warnings: none!

[after rolling around for a couple of days in anxiety, Gon finally asserted to Killua on the 16th that they do the bonding ceremony the next day. it's been enough days to prepare—Gon's peeked in on some classes about bonding, and he's taken a couple of days to write his vows. in general, while able to succinctly express himself, Gon's not terribly poetic, and any attempt in that direction is of course too unlike him to where it's uncomfortable and embarrassing to consider. but at the same time, to concisely put together his feelings regarding Killua is a tremendous feat. stuff he's been thinking about for over a year...

but it would be a lie to say that he hadn't been eager to express his intentions a bit more to Killua. so now's the time. honestly, while the couple of days have been for crossing his Ts and dotting his is with the process, it's mostly just been for Gon to feel centered enough to be more natural about the process. you know. acclimation. maybe. Gon is completely unused to being this nervous about anything, and he hopes that he can get his dumb head on straight after this is all out of the way. before meeting Killua at the Coven, Gon wakes early; he meditates, works out, bathes, has a good meal and various things to be sure he's worked out any weird jitters.

so he greets Killua with his expected pep and enthusiasm, eyes bright as he waves his friend down, his warm charcoal gray ears lifting with his expression. he's only just gotten used to them, and they're finally no longer sore. in the summer heat, Gon's simply dressed in his shorts and undershirt (scandalous as ever in the eyes of the natives to this world, unbeknownst to Gon), and the fur on the tops of his forearms are a bit denser and spans out longer, about to his elbow, and a little past his wrists. Gon's horns are no longer cast over by flesh and mottled scabs; they're still modest, but the keratin is exposed, and they're a little bit longer. they have a nice sheen, but are a simple and dull gray, not yet with any other attributes; they have what looks to be the beginning of points, but no length or curve, and his fur may appear a bit more dense. there's a chance that Killua may notice the fur previously covering the fronts and backs of his shins (though, funnily, not the sides of them) seems to be creeping out from the tops of his boots, just a bit...]


Killua!!
killuwatt: (in the end)

[personal profile] killuwatt 2020-07-24 08:23 am (UTC)(link)
[ Killua looks normal. Hands in his pockets, waiting in one of the courtyards where they'd set their meeting spot, seeming just about as cool and collected as he normally does.

It's a huge lie.

His heart threatens to burst out of his throat when he hears his name in that familiar voice. He turns, a bit too suddenly, eyes a little too wide.

He takes in Gon's appearance in a moment, taking note instinctively of each small change, committing him to memory all over again. He swallows. ]


Gon.

[ Killua raises a hand. For a moment, he's not sure what to do with it, whether to reach out or not, getting the sudden and near-overwhelming urge to hug him. Instead, he just waves. ]

Ugh, it's so hot today, isn't it? I'm already all sweaty... gross.

[ It's not the heat as much as it is the nerves.

For being the one to suggest it outright, Killua finds himself kind of terrified. He's still not sure what he's even going to say. Not that he hasn't thought about it, of course, but-- ]


L-let's get inside already.
killuwatt: (next to the mausoleum)

[personal profile] killuwatt 2020-07-24 08:55 am (UTC)(link)
You look like you've grown more since the last time I saw you. [ Killua observes, falling into step beside him as they make their way inside.

It is significantly cooler in the building, thanks to the stone structure and magitech. Perhaps some sort of cooling spells as well? Killua tries to detect what it could be, but there's just way too much magic all over the place here, and he doesn't have the kind of knowledge of finesse yet.

It's a distraction. Just as much as Gon's chattering about the architecture and stained glass is.

Killua's heart is thudding loudly in his temples, nearly drowning out Gon's voice. Each step feels like it's pulling them closer to--

Something. Something Killua has no name for. It isn't just the Bond for necessity's sake. It isn't just this place. He watches Gon: the way the unfamiliar long ears twitch, the subtle tension in his back and shoulders, the pointless chatter meant to distract them both, and he knows that Gon feels it too.

Once they arrive, the tall Witch who led them here calmly asks both them to step into the magic circle painted on the stone floor, moving around them once they oblige to begin activating the spellwork.

Killua stands inside the circle facing Gon. So close that in the stillness he can feel Gon's breath stirring the air in front of him. He wonders if Gon can hear his pounding heart. ]


Join hands, please, [ says the Witch, stopping near them outside the edge of the circle.
killuwatt: (I've been dying to tell you)

[personal profile] killuwatt 2020-07-28 08:05 am (UTC)(link)
[ Gon's hands are so... warm.

Killua's eyes widen when he's grabbed, and for a moment, he freezes up a little. He stares at Gon's face, the determined look in his eyes. Then, carefully, Killua turns his hands to lace his fingers with Gon's.

His heart is pounding. ]


Very good.

[ Killua spares the Witch a strangely anxious glance, looking back at Gon again immediately after. His mouth opens slightly. Closes again. He takes a breath, trying and failing to sound casual. ]

Okay, cool... So what are we supposed to do now? Say we agree to be Bonded or whatever?
killuwatt: (what you did)

[personal profile] killuwatt 2020-07-28 08:34 am (UTC)(link)
[ Oh, crap. This is exactly what he was hoping against. Killua knew about the vows, obviously, but when he'd tried to research and ask some natives, he'd gotten such varied responses it really didn't make him feel prepared. He'd written and scrapped several versions, and in the end hadn't even brought any of them with him.

Stupid... augh!

Killua freezes up again, eyes falling to their entwined hands. When Gon gives them a squeeze, his heart skips, restarts with a stuttering, hard thump inside his chest. He feels like he's practically about to start vibrating with anxious anticipation.

It sounds so formal. Killua takes the 'stepping forward' bit perhaps too literally as he takes a tiny step closer to Gon. He opens his mouth--

And then Gon cuts in, saving him. For the moment. ]


Uh... y-yeah! Sure. I don't care. Go ahead, Gon.
Edited 2020-07-28 08:34 (UTC)
killuwatt: (and sleeping for the wrong team)

[personal profile] killuwatt 2020-07-31 08:32 am (UTC)(link)
[ Whatever Killua had been envisioning, it wasn't this.

The words out of Gon's mouth are so characteristic in earnestness and intention -- but stand alongside the less familiar self-awareness and the way his voice quivers a little around the edges with nerves and raw sincerity.

Killua's vision fogs slightly; he blinks, fast. ]


Gon...

[ The soft syllable spills out of him, unexpected even to Killua in the beat of silence that follows. His hands squeeze Gon's hard in surprise.

The world stills, slowing. His breathing feels so loud. For a moment, Killua finds himself processing too many feelings to name, overtaken by the simple fact that he understands something now that he'd only grasped the shadow of before. It hits him how hard Gon is trying, in his own way. How he's been observing, keeping his distance in ways meant for Killua's benefit. The guilt he'd clearly felt for what had happened during the eclipse. Even the questions about Bonding on the public network that had made Killua so frustrated with him.

He's trying to be a better friend -- a better partner, now. After everything that's happened, after the time and distance for both of them to think on it and start to heal, the honesty and acknowledgement is a relief. It may not sound like it to the Witch overseeing the ceremony, but Killua hears the apology in Gon's vows. It makes his chest ache.

After several seconds too long in awkward, tense silence, Killua finally manages to unstick his throat enough to say more. ]


I... I want to Bond with Gon.

[ A breath. ]

I promise to stay by his side and support him-- in the ways that will help him keep his promise. To keep him safe too. Even from himself.

[ Killua swallows, looking down at their hands. Looking at Gon's face makes his cheeks burn and his heart pound and he feels so awkward and he can't remember sentences or how to form them. ]

A-and to do... all the stuff Bonded Witches are supposed to do with the giving magic and... and stuff.

[ He manages to look up at the Witch while avoiding Gon's gaze as thoroughly as possible. ]

Okay, seriously-- This is enough, isn't it? For the spell or whatever?
killuwatt: (light 'em)

[personal profile] killuwatt 2020-08-01 09:24 am (UTC)(link)
[ Killua can't help but stare too, wide-eyed as he watches the Witch literally... tie the knot between them. His earns are burning.

It's subtle, but as the magical threads vanish into thin air, Killua could swear he feels something, somehow clicking into place; it's an oddly satisfying sensation, like the sort of pleased thrill of pressing the last piece of a puzzle into place.

He doesn't even realize he's still gripping Gon's hands until the Witch points it out. ]


--oh.

[ Embarrassed, Killua pulls his hands quickly back and sticks them into his pockets. Super casual. For sure. ]

Well... that's it, then. It was quicker than I thought.

[ He narrows his eyes up at the Witch (largely to avoid meeting Gon's) to demand: ]

You sure you did it right?

[ Honestly, he doesn't doubt it and he has no reason at all to be rude to the person helping them out, but Killua feels antsy and strange and way too keyed-up after that. Harping on the old lady for just doing her job is far easier than trying to sort out his feelings. ]
killuwatt: (am I more than you bargained for yet?)

[personal profile] killuwatt 2020-08-02 08:46 am (UTC)(link)
[ Killua is more than happy to follow Gon's lead as he takes over chatting with the Witch. With the ceremony done and the Bond in place, Killua doesn't have anything more the really wants to ask her right now, and instead just listens to Gon's questions as he follows after them, hands in his pockets. His shoulders feel loose. He feels... good. Happy.

It's not a big difference, but it's there. When he concentrates, he can feel Gon. Like a flicker of warmth somewhere in the back of his consciousness, an invisible pull. The urge to reach out and touch him again is strong, but Killua resists it. For now.

Saying his own goodbye -- and perhaps an unexpected thank you -- to the Witch when they're escorted back to the main part of the building, Killua finally turns to face Gon again fully. His chest warms, tight but not in an unpleasant way.

He smiles back. ]


What're you thanking me for, stupid? We decided to do this together.

[ Pulling one hand out of his pocket, Killua lifts his arm as he takes a step closer. Arm-bump? ]
killuwatt: (in the end)

[personal profile] killuwatt 2020-08-03 12:56 am (UTC)(link)
[ Maybe it's more because he's so keyed-up and still processing this development than it is because of the Bond, but the light smack of their hands against one another feels like a spark, sending a tingle all the way up Killua's arm.

Gon's grinning and giggling is contagious. He grins back stupidly-- then groans with exaggerated disappointment at the reminder they don't have money here. ]


Aww, why'd you have to bring that up? It's so annoying having to keep track of stuff like that.

[ Keeping track of your money and expenses. Wow. What a terrible, impossible to imagine thing. ]

I am pretty hungry though...

[ He'd been too nervous to eat in the morning, even though he'd worked out as usual. Oops. ]

Huh? Uh, if you want to cook something, I guess... Like what though?
killuwatt: (come on come on)

[personal profile] killuwatt 2020-08-03 01:15 am (UTC)(link)
Huh? Why bother when it's not like the money would run out. That seems like a huge waste of time!

[ Keeping track of finances is for nerds with too much free time, clearly! Killua has way better things to do. Like buy a bunch of useless shit with the money he's not keeping track of. ]

Hmm... [ he grumbles, sticking his hands in his pockets again as he turns on his heel, marching toward the exit from the courtyard with the clear expectation Gon will follow. ]

That doesn't sound bad, I guess... [ but it does sound kind of boring. ]

Hey, you don't have to get me something to eat! I can take care of it myself, you know. I'm just obliging you since you're so weirdly gung-ho about cooking all of a sudden. Whatever. Cook fish if you want to, I'll eat it. But I'm getting dessert too.
killuwatt: (up up up)

[personal profile] killuwatt 2020-08-03 02:20 am (UTC)(link)
It's not like I'm paying rent. Why does it matter? Stop harping on me like you're my freakin' accountant or something!

[ Killua speeds up, huffing audibly. There's a patisserie not too far out of the way. He thinks Gon will like some of their fruit pastries. Not that he's about to actually say that or do more than obliquely point it out and later pretend he hadn't thought of it at all. Of course.

Gon declares that like he's just decided something major. Killua glances over his shoulder. ]


Show me what?
killuwatt: (we are)

[personal profile] killuwatt 2020-08-03 02:30 am (UTC)(link)
I know how to cook. Enough.

[ But he's lazy and he doesn't know how to cook anything that interesting, so why bother? ]

I've been doing odd jobs here and there when they sound interesting. There was this pet store that had a bunch of weird cats run away... I got some money out of them. Are you suggesting I get a job now too?

[ Killua meets his smile with a scowl, incredulous.

A job?! Imagine! ]


Have you been working regularly?
killuwatt: (the story's all off)

[personal profile] killuwatt 2020-08-03 02:38 am (UTC)(link)
[ oh, look: a subject change! ]

That makes sense. You're a total fishing nerd.

But why until you get hooves? I don't think they're gonna be on your hands so what's that got to do with fishing...?

[ oh god. HOPEFULLY NOT?! ]
killuwatt: (whoa thinkin about gon again)

[personal profile] killuwatt 2020-08-03 03:06 am (UTC)(link)
Hoof rot sounds bad... ew.

[ This is not a thing Killua has ever considered. And now he's low-key worried. At least Gon knows what he's doing. ]

I've seen a lot of hoofed people around here though. There's no way they don't have options. Maybe there are spells that can protect hooves and make them water-resistant? I guess the traction problem is an issue though... traction-enhancing spells?

[ something to ask his instructors about now. ]
killuwatt: (remember me)

[personal profile] killuwatt 2020-08-03 08:28 am (UTC)(link)
Does it bother you a lot?

[ Killua slows a little to walk beside him more comfortably rather than hurrying on ahead. He glances over at Gon, watching his expression. ]

Knowing you're going to... change?

[ He thinks it would freak him out. But Gon seems so ready to just accept it and go along with it. Maybe that's for the best. It's not like he's getting a choice.

Killua just wishes there was more he could do to help. And he can't do anything to help if he doesn't know how Gon is feeling. ]
killuwatt: (and here's)

[personal profile] killuwatt 2020-08-06 08:02 am (UTC)(link)
Ha. You've always been hard-headed. I think the horns make sense!

[ Killua smirks, reaching over to poke one of them lightly. He knows that Gon probably isn't looking for sympathy; it is what it is. Even if it bothers Killua too. Feeling sorry for him isn't actually going to help, and will likely only make Gon feel worse. ]

Pfft, what do you know about Faun culture? Isn't it all drinking and dancing and playing lutes or whatever? [ And... dating... quick, think about something else before he starts blushing-- ]

You don't do any of that stuff!
killuwatt: (which side wins)

[personal profile] killuwatt 2020-08-07 08:42 am (UTC)(link)
Commune with nature, huh...?

[ Killua shifts the angle of his hand to ruffle Gon's hair before moving it out of the way when he starts butting against his palm. That lopsided smile makes his heart thump hard against his ribs.

Too flustered to return it, Killua looks away with a shrug, sticking his hands back in his pockets as he walks faster. ]


I guess you do know a lot about plants and animals. That's lucky. Though there are different plants and stuff here than I've seen back home...
killuwatt: (this week)

[personal profile] killuwatt 2020-08-07 08:54 am (UTC)(link)
[ Killua glances at him, raising a brow. ]

I guess that could be useful when we go out exploring... but you don't really need to forage when we live in a city.

And you especially don't need to start eating random stuff! Ask someone first, you weirdo. It's not like we're in the middle of nowhere.
killuwatt: (come on come on)

[personal profile] killuwatt 2020-08-07 09:00 am (UTC)(link)
Are you saying you're gonna go out there and lick the dirt?!

[ Killua sticks his tongue out at him with an exaggerated gagging noise. ]

Gross, Gon!

[ he knows that's not what Gon means. it doesn't matter. Gon would probably go lick dirt, after all. ]
killuwatt: (cute little ball of murder)

[personal profile] killuwatt 2020-08-10 08:48 am (UTC)(link)
[ Killua can't help but laugh too, jogging faster to keep Gon chasing him through the streets as they make their way toward the Haven. Killua teases him a bit more about the dirt, cheekily asking him if he eats bugs and twigs too, and the conversation just devolves from there.

Having insisted on dessert, Killua swings by a patisserie to grab a couple of decorative tiny cakes piped with summer flowers. Part of it is because it feels like a special occasion (it is a special occasion) and it feels somehow more commemorative with a cake, even if that's more a notion he got from other people than his own experience. But Killua won't say that part aloud. He's satisfied just spending time with Gon like this. Feeling Gon's happiness in a soft echo to his own, now. It's... more soothing than he'd expected it might be.

Depending on what Gon wants to cook, they might need to stop by the market as well, but eventually, they make it to Killua's cottage. He leads the way in. ]


Phew, it's hot...

Oh! I was able to find some soda here. I didn't expect it. It came out of some crazy big magitech machine! I bought a few bottles. Wanna try some?