Lapis... she would be feeling guilty all the time.

[He levelled his gaze upon her steadily, knowing full well that the complicated factors were such that Lapis might not understand.]

And I would be the reason for that guilt. No many supportive words or feelings I can offer to her right now, that is the fact of the matter. She.... is afraid of something deeply personal to her in our world, and the changes this world brought to me-- to us all-- is representative of that problem.

Likely, she will not look at me the same when I return to her. Having those feelings reflected in my own heart would simply make an already complex situation more difficult than it must be.