[If the grim and pitiful details ever came fully to light, it's very likely that Mello would decide he did not in fact wish to know the long version. Some things are better left concealed, buried and shameful, at least... according to the paragon of mental health who stands filthy, hungry and homeless by choice before Mello.
The question doesn't exactly make things easier to confront or address. It's so direct; it's not L's style, so much, not where emotions are concerned anyway.
He'll answer bluntly, then.]
Because it is difficult.
[It's likely as close as he can come to admitting that he is in fact not alright, though the evidence is clear and plain. As are the reasons a person like L might be difficult to let into one's home or life. He fights with his answer before he gives one that might be trying for humor, might just be the tip of the iceberg.]
I take a lot of showers, for one.
[When he has access to a shower.]
The hot water runs out.
[It's his way of saying that other things run out, too. Kindness, patience, grace.]
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The question doesn't exactly make things easier to confront or address. It's so direct; it's not L's style, so much, not where emotions are concerned anyway.
He'll answer bluntly, then.]
Because it is difficult.
[It's likely as close as he can come to admitting that he is in fact not alright, though the evidence is clear and plain. As are the reasons a person like L might be difficult to let into one's home or life. He fights with his answer before he gives one that might be trying for humor, might just be the tip of the iceberg.]
I take a lot of showers, for one.
[When he has access to a shower.]
The hot water runs out.
[It's his way of saying that other things run out, too. Kindness, patience, grace.]