[For a second he stares at Deku and then he laughs. Bitter and low as he runs a hand down his face.]
Damn it.
[He was so stupid. Why did he say that shit to Deku? Admit to being nervous about controlling all of this shit. Of course he wouldn't get it. How could he? He wasn't going through this and Katsuki wasn't the best at voicing his vulnerabilities. And yet... it made him feel strangely alone, in a new world in a new body, unable to sooth the fears and anxiety clawing within him over it. He just wants to retain something that's his. Even if it's just the strength of his will..]
God dammnit!
[For a second, a dark second, he thinks about striking Deku in a bitter retaliation for his failure to understand, egged on by his monstrous urges in the moons. But at the last second he turns and his fist collides with the bathroom mirror, shattering it. He breathes heavily, trying to regain control, before he turns to glare at Deku.]
If I'm the idiot, why are you the one who can't seem to get anything through that stupid fucking skull of yours? I'm not gonna Bond with you or with anyone. I'm gonna do this my way. And if that means that you're not gonna Bond with anyone, then be my fucking guest and deal with that shit. It's your stupid hill to die on.
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Damn it.
[He was so stupid. Why did he say that shit to Deku? Admit to being nervous about controlling all of this shit. Of course he wouldn't get it. How could he? He wasn't going through this and Katsuki wasn't the best at voicing his vulnerabilities. And yet... it made him feel strangely alone, in a new world in a new body, unable to sooth the fears and anxiety clawing within him over it. He just wants to retain something that's his. Even if it's just the strength of his will..]
God dammnit!
[For a second, a dark second, he thinks about striking Deku in a bitter retaliation for his failure to understand, egged on by his monstrous urges in the moons. But at the last second he turns and his fist collides with the bathroom mirror, shattering it. He breathes heavily, trying to regain control, before he turns to glare at Deku.]
If I'm the idiot, why are you the one who can't seem to get anything through that stupid fucking skull of yours? I'm not gonna Bond with you or with anyone. I'm gonna do this my way. And if that means that you're not gonna Bond with anyone, then be my fucking guest and deal with that shit. It's your stupid hill to die on.