[ He whispered it against Julian's ear while his fingertips massaged slowly up his chest, pressed Julian back against his chest. ]
It's not your place to judge who should go and who should stay, that's not fuckin' on your shoulders. You do everything you can, and then you do more, and it... fucking sucks, to be the one left alive, and to always wish it had been you, instead. To know... they'd all be better off.
But you can't let their memory be an anchor. What does that say about you? About how you think of them? If they could stand in front of you and hear everything you've done in their memory, how would they feel?
Use it. Be better. Be the best. At something, anything. Push yourself, like nobody else can or will. Don't let it be a fucking anchor, let it be your... standard, the flag you pin in every success you chalk up.
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[ He whispered it against Julian's ear while his fingertips massaged slowly up his chest, pressed Julian back against his chest. ]
It's not your place to judge who should go and who should stay, that's not fuckin' on your shoulders. You do everything you can, and then you do more, and it... fucking sucks, to be the one left alive, and to always wish it had been you, instead. To know... they'd all be better off.
But you can't let their memory be an anchor. What does that say about you? About how you think of them? If they could stand in front of you and hear everything you've done in their memory, how would they feel?
Use it. Be better. Be the best. At something, anything. Push yourself, like nobody else can or will. Don't let it be a fucking anchor, let it be your... standard, the flag you pin in every success you chalk up.
Do it for them.