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middaeg2021-02-23 01:05 pm
adventageous) wrote in middaeg2021-02-23 01:05 pm
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[Closed] 'cause I'm on your side, it's still you and me
Who: Alice Elliot and Karin Koenig
When: Feoveuer 23
Where: Karin's house
What: Sad girls comfort each other post-event
Warnings: Discussions of kidnapping, torture, and brainwashing.
[It's been a week since she's been freed from the Evergreen Circle, and Alice's memories still aren't whole.
Intellectually, she knows the broad strokes of what's true and what's been falsely implanted into her consciousness. She's Mirrorbound, an exorcist, the daughter of a priest, the lover of a man who would later be called Godslayer, a dead woman walking. Actually untangling what all of that means and which memories are tied to her honest existance has, however, been much more complicated and often painful. The false life the Circle had given her had for all parts and purposes been a pleasant one. As those memories break apart to reveal the actual tragedy and trauma of her own experiences, Alice is continually revisiting parts of her own history as if for the first time. Not to mention that the longer this whole process goes on, the more angry she is at having had her mind violated like this in the first place. It's exhausting, and she isn't recovering much energy when she sleeps--her dreams are restless and chaotic as her mind takes advantage of the opportunity to repair itself.
The only aspect of her life that she remembers with absolute certainty is Karin, which Alice strongly suspects is due to their Bond. That clarity has been beyond helpful, as Karin is recovering both physically and mentally from a much different imprisonment experience and shouldn't be expending extra energy making sure Alice is up to speed. This way, they can focus on getting better rather than figuring out what they mean to each other.
For Alice, that functionally means focusing on Karin's needs as much as possible. Part of it is borne from habit and predisposition--she recently remembered doing to same for Yuri during an intense bout of seasickness, and in a way it's what she was trying to do for the man in the cage at the party (Jaskier, was it?). Part of it is also survivor's guilt. The disorientation and violation she feels now must pale in comparison to what those in the dungeons suffered through while she was coddled in a comfortable home. She'll be all right with time. They need acute care. Karin needs acute care.
There are other people she wants to reach out to eventually. Dorian. Tsutha. Styx. Jaskier. But for now, Karin is her one and only concern.]
Good morning. How are you feeling?
[Alice is currently standing on a ladder next to the harpy's hanging nest, checking on her as she has been doing every morning since Karin's release to home care after a stay in the Coven's infirmary. She's been awake for hours, but it seems cruel to force a recovering woman awake before the sun has been up for a little while.
She smiles warmly, reaching over to smooth some feathers that had gotten ruffled overnight.]
Do you need anything?
When: Feoveuer 23
Where: Karin's house
What: Sad girls comfort each other post-event
Warnings: Discussions of kidnapping, torture, and brainwashing.
[It's been a week since she's been freed from the Evergreen Circle, and Alice's memories still aren't whole.
Intellectually, she knows the broad strokes of what's true and what's been falsely implanted into her consciousness. She's Mirrorbound, an exorcist, the daughter of a priest, the lover of a man who would later be called Godslayer, a dead woman walking. Actually untangling what all of that means and which memories are tied to her honest existance has, however, been much more complicated and often painful. The false life the Circle had given her had for all parts and purposes been a pleasant one. As those memories break apart to reveal the actual tragedy and trauma of her own experiences, Alice is continually revisiting parts of her own history as if for the first time. Not to mention that the longer this whole process goes on, the more angry she is at having had her mind violated like this in the first place. It's exhausting, and she isn't recovering much energy when she sleeps--her dreams are restless and chaotic as her mind takes advantage of the opportunity to repair itself.
The only aspect of her life that she remembers with absolute certainty is Karin, which Alice strongly suspects is due to their Bond. That clarity has been beyond helpful, as Karin is recovering both physically and mentally from a much different imprisonment experience and shouldn't be expending extra energy making sure Alice is up to speed. This way, they can focus on getting better rather than figuring out what they mean to each other.
For Alice, that functionally means focusing on Karin's needs as much as possible. Part of it is borne from habit and predisposition--she recently remembered doing to same for Yuri during an intense bout of seasickness, and in a way it's what she was trying to do for the man in the cage at the party (Jaskier, was it?). Part of it is also survivor's guilt. The disorientation and violation she feels now must pale in comparison to what those in the dungeons suffered through while she was coddled in a comfortable home. She'll be all right with time. They need acute care. Karin needs acute care.
There are other people she wants to reach out to eventually. Dorian. Tsutha. Styx. Jaskier. But for now, Karin is her one and only concern.]
Good morning. How are you feeling?
[Alice is currently standing on a ladder next to the harpy's hanging nest, checking on her as she has been doing every morning since Karin's release to home care after a stay in the Coven's infirmary. She's been awake for hours, but it seems cruel to force a recovering woman awake before the sun has been up for a little while.
She smiles warmly, reaching over to smooth some feathers that had gotten ruffled overnight.]
Do you need anything?