[It's a good thing that Reynir lets it go, because the only response he can muster to that declaration is a deep sigh. It isn't worth arguing about, not when there's so much more going on in his mind, so much more that he's having intense feelings about.
His gaze shifts to rest on Reynir's hand, where his fingers are threaded between his, where his thumb brushes so gently against the side of his hand. It's such a strangely affectionate and comforting gesture, and Onni abruptly feels his eyes filling with tears. It doesn't make sense that it would hit him the way it does, that little bit of kindness. Isn't kindness supposed to comfort? It's completely illogical that the more Reynir's thumb moves against his hand hurts, makes his ribs go tight enough that he can't breathe, his gut twists, his throat aches, and his eyes sting with tears. It's stupid.
Reynir says it can be not-okay, and the tears well up more. Onni lifts his hand and scrubs it over his face, both hoping that Reynir won't notice and knowing that he will. Even if he doesn't see what's happening, he's sure to feel it through the Bond. Onni's grief, his confusion, his hurt, all of it is being transmitted directly to Reynir, he's sure of it, and suddenly he knows why people don't want to get Bonded. It's so much more complicated than he'd anticipated.
For a long few moments he's quiet, mostly because he can't speak with his throat closed up, but then he finally does, his voice rough from holding back tears.]
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His gaze shifts to rest on Reynir's hand, where his fingers are threaded between his, where his thumb brushes so gently against the side of his hand. It's such a strangely affectionate and comforting gesture, and Onni abruptly feels his eyes filling with tears. It doesn't make sense that it would hit him the way it does, that little bit of kindness. Isn't kindness supposed to comfort? It's completely illogical that the more Reynir's thumb moves against his hand hurts, makes his ribs go tight enough that he can't breathe, his gut twists, his throat aches, and his eyes sting with tears. It's stupid.
Reynir says it can be not-okay, and the tears well up more. Onni lifts his hand and scrubs it over his face, both hoping that Reynir won't notice and knowing that he will. Even if he doesn't see what's happening, he's sure to feel it through the Bond. Onni's grief, his confusion, his hurt, all of it is being transmitted directly to Reynir, he's sure of it, and suddenly he knows why people don't want to get Bonded. It's so much more complicated than he'd anticipated.
For a long few moments he's quiet, mostly because he can't speak with his throat closed up, but then he finally does, his voice rough from holding back tears.]
Yes.