foundfamilies: (do you really want to be completed)
Leslie ([personal profile] foundfamilies) wrote in [community profile] middaeg 2020-09-20 06:54 pm (UTC)

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[Leslie is also thinking of Hubert's memory, from when she watched alongside him as the boy he once was ran from those soldiers. She doesn't think of Hubert as being anything like the soldiers who roughly dragged him back unwillingly. She doesn't even consider that he might be thinking something like that.]

[Instead, it is merely adding weight to his words. The man the boy became certainly lived those words he says to her now. If a problem is beyond your strength, you find a way to shift the odds in your favour. That's what subterfuge is, isn't it?]

[She also thinks of Ozymandias's advice, when he told her that she limits herself by thinking she can only hope to master rote memorization or not believing in her ability to accomplish great things. She thinks of many conversations she's had in Aefenglom and in the last few weeks before she arrived here, where people have encouraged her or gently corrected her. With the piece from this conversation, her thinking shifts a little more away from the ways she learned most of her life, where falling short of perfect is a failure meant that she should have worked even harder into exhaustion, to something new.]

[The shackles of her childhood aren't easily broken, but the shape of an approach beyond beating herself up over the strength she doesn't have is starting to form.]

I will.

[She will learn from it. She means that with every fibre of her being.]

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