That's a terrible mindset to have! I can't imagine you'd have done anything to deserve getting hurt!

( he couldn't agree with any of that at all. did crowley even think about what he was saying? how could he possibly deserve it? it could very well happen simply by merit of him being in the wrong place at the wrong time.

his gaze flicks back after crowley when he mentions the bond again, clearly hesitant. )

I—Well, I suppose. You do also need a bond to help regulate.

( he would rather not figure out what it meant to explode or whatever other strange side effects witches had. clearly, it was not as bad as the beastfolk, but he did imagine it still wouldn't be a walk in the park.

and he did want his bond to be with crowley. if he were going to choose anyone. he did, truly. he just felt uncertain and conflicted about the whole thing. was it a good idea? he hardly knew what the experience would be like and it did seem to be a very emotionally powerful thing.

on the other hand, there is a part of him (which he still assumes to be from his tiredness) that insists he should do it and keep crowley close. where he should be.

he tugs at his sleeves. )

Yes. Just for now then. We should still explore other avenues, of course, but I would hate for something to happen before then.