( soothing is probably the very, bitter last way that aziraphale would think to describe absolutely anything about the situation including the way that crowley is talking to him now. he knows that he is trying his best in an unfamiliar and terrifying situation, but it doesn't help for him to say that it was alright. nor does his tone. things could not feasibly be less alright right now.
everything was wrong, everything was terrible, and the worst part is the way that crowley keeps inching forward. hands raised, movements slow, and aziraphale feels just a bit like a wild animal that has been caged up in this room.
maybe he is. but he won't accept it. )
I do not— This is not—
( he tries, but the words stumble on his tongue. he wants to shout, wants to say the numerous things that are on his mind and that he feels he should definitely make crowley aware of. this is not alright. this is not going to be alright. he was not going to hurt him.
for as bad and upsetting as this night was, he wasn't going to allow himself to do anything that might cause harm to crowley. he wouldn't. he couldn't. it was unthinkable. he would not allow himself to become some. . . unsafe thing! transformation into a beastfolk or not.
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everything was wrong, everything was terrible, and the worst part is the way that crowley keeps inching forward. hands raised, movements slow, and aziraphale feels just a bit like a wild animal that has been caged up in this room.
maybe he is. but he won't accept it. )
I do not— This is not—
( he tries, but the words stumble on his tongue. he wants to shout, wants to say the numerous things that are on his mind and that he feels he should definitely make crowley aware of. this is not alright. this is not going to be alright. he was not going to hurt him.
for as bad and upsetting as this night was, he wasn't going to allow himself to do anything that might cause harm to crowley. he wouldn't. he couldn't. it was unthinkable. he would not allow himself to become some. . . unsafe thing! transformation into a beastfolk or not.
aziraphale lets out a weak noise. )
It is getting worse.