[At the insistence that he would figure it out fast because sheep are easy to work with, Onni shrugs. He'd seen them before, on the farming island when he'd gone to help out with the harvest, and while they'd always seemed calm and even-tempered, he'd never really known what to do with them, where to even start with tending to their needs or anything like that. And they were big, big enough to do him harm with their horns if they'd wanted to, at least when he was 13. He hadn't wanted to get close. He suspects that Reynir probably thought they were easy to work with mostly because he grew up with them. It doesn't seem so simple to Onni. But he doesn't comment, because there's no use arguing with Reynir, in his experience, and there's no use wasting his energy arguing about something so pointless when they have bigger things to worry about.
Listening quietly while Reynir explains that they've probably got books on fauns at the Coven (he makes a mental note to check for himself) and that he knows a faun and has asked questions. That he'll be afraid of fire and hyperactive and chatty around the full moon, hyperactive and chatty and obnoxious. Onni huffs out a breath, his mouth lifting just slightly at one corner.]
So nothing will change at the full moon, then.
[He says it with a completely straight face, but there's a hint of teasing to it. The rest of it, he's not sure what to do with. Reynir says he doesn't want to lose track of anything from home, but Onni can't wrap his head around Reynir being disappointed by having that connection still if that's true. Maybe it's just because Onni has missed his home for so long, maybe it's because he's here and everything feels wrong and he can't feel his gods, can't retreat to the dark, comforting solitude of the forest. It isn't the same here.]
Mm. Well, if I can manage to get the hang of the stupid magic system here, then I can hopefully be powerful enough to look out for both of us.
[ Reynir rolls his eyes when Onni says he'll just be the same at the full moon, but there's no mistaking the tug of a smile at the corner of his mouth. He's a little worried it genuinely will be a problem - just how manic is he going to get - but that all feels a little less intimidating when Onni is joking about him being an annoyance all the time, exactly the way he'd thought that Emil or Sigrun might joke.
As for Onni saying he'll protect them both once he wraps his mind around this place's magic: ]
Well, I can help look out for us, too. Faun powers or no faun powers. There's more than one way to paint a rune. Metaphorically, I mean.
[ He thinks about mentioning the conversation he'd had with a guy who offered to teach him swordfighting, but he decides against it at the last moment. He doesn't want Onni saying something about it not being necessary or that it is too dangerous or who knows what. He'll know when he needs to... ]
Oh, um.
[ Reynir rubs the back of his neck, considering. Most of the changes he's going to have to make will be just in tending to his own body - thinking about what he eats, dealing with different needs for grooming, etc. But he doesn't want to just leap to telling Onni he can't help. Especially when he's been sort of avoiding dealing with all this so far. ]
Just... knowing you're gonna keep me from going feral is helping a lot. And - everyone I've talked to has said the whole transition is easier if you're not fighting against it or... denying it, so. You're already helping, right now. With this.
[Onni doesn't miss the way Reynir smiles slightly, the corner of his mouth rising a little, when he makes that comment about him being the same as always. Well, it's good to see that his sense of humour is intact. Onni had only half meant it, really, but his own sense of humour has always been dry and had a touch of truth to it.
Reynir's protest that he can help look out for them too, with or without special powers, is more predictable than his response to the first comment. Onni nods, once, and makes a noise of assent in his throat.]
I know you will. Doesn't it make you bigger, at least? Stronger maybe, at least a little? Either way, those horns will be dangerous weapons once they're grown out. The sheep on the farming island always made me think twice about messing with them, when I saw those horns.
[He seems to have no shame about admitting he'd been afraid of sheep of all things, but he's never had much shame. Not about that kind of thing.
What he hadn't expected was for Reynir to suggest any way for him to help. It had been right to offer, but Reynir seems to be stubbornly independent, refusing to do what people want him to do and instead just going about and doing as he pleases with no real thought to danger or anything else. But Reynir says that he's helping already, by promising to keep him from going feral. And he mentions that the transition is apparently easier if one doesn't fight against it. Nodding thoughtfully, Onni lifts a hand and presses his fingertip against his mouth for a moment, thinking.]
That makes sense, I suppose. If you're not repressing it, then it won't get out of control. That kind of thing?
[A pause, and his pale eyes lock on Reynir's face for a moment, trying to read him.]
With this? You mean...not being weird about it? There's no reason to be weird about it. It is what it is.
[ Reynir, who has a healthy respect for the potential harm that just about any farm animal can do if it sets its mind to it, merely nods when Onni mentions being properly intimidated by sheep when he was younger. Of course, the thought of using his own horns in a similar fashion... his mind shies away from it. It would have to be an awful struggle, and he's seen the kind of damage that a horn can do. He doesn't want to have to do that.
But it's all just hypothetical, just talk. It could be worse, and he repeats that to himself in his mind. ]
I don't know about bigger, or stronger. I might get a little taller, because of the legs, and hooves.
[ As if he weren't tall enough already. If that really does come to pass, doorframes are going to really start being an issue. That's not even mentioning what he'll do about clothes, and boots...
He halts his thoughts, before they spiral off any further into panic and dread. One thing at a time. ]
Yeah. That kind of thing.
[ Reynir looks at Onni, as he says, with that characteristic blunt kindness of his, that it simply is what it is. Onni really can't see anything special about his attitude, about the way he approaches these things. And Reynir doesn't know any way to make him see how unique it makes him. So instead, he just lets himself smile. It crinkles up the corners of his eyes, a flash of pure fond warmth. ]
[Onni blinks, tilting his head, trying to imagine it.]
You can get taller?
[Honestly, besides that fat Dane, Reynir is the tallest person Onni has ever met, and his long braid and how lanky he is only make him look even more tall. And long. Like a few tree branches in a sweater, but more...not graceful, but fluid. Like some very young long-legged deer, perhaps. The comparison is just going to be more intense once he starts getting those legs and hooves and all, Onni imagines.
It's a little difficult to imagine.]
Well. We'll figure that out when it happens, too.
[Then Reynir is looking at him with that strange expression, smiling, with warm eyes. Onni can't remember the last time someone looked at him like that...the memories of when Tuuri had are fading too quickly, and for just a moment he feels a little spike of panic, like he's going to forget her face or her smile or the easy way she said she loved him. For a second, the fear shows in his eyes, and he glances away from Reynir to try to hide it, as pointless as that probably is.
Taking a deep breath to ease the tension of what he's feeling, he calms himself and puts on a serious expression again before looking back at Reynir.]
Yes. Well, then, I won't start being weird about it, if you'll try not to act like you need to hide this kind of thing from me. You don't have to, because it doesn't bother me. Understand?
[ And, as if making a point of it, Reynir lifts up those long legs of his, propping his feet on the edge of the coffee table. But it's good, to joke like this. To take something that had been so frighening to him - the joints in his legs going the opposite way, and hooves, and all of it - and making it into something else. Just another of many jokes about the fact that he's so tall. Like it's all just a part of his life. Like he's the same person still that he had been when he and Onni first met. ]
You'll be glad about it when I can reach anything from any shelf, and all you have to do is ask me nicely.
[ They both know that the 'nicely' bit isn't necessary and he would do it anyway, but there's a fond, flirty joking tone to his voice as he makes that standing offer to Onni.
He sees Onni look away from him, have a moment of... some kind of confused emotion. But then Onni is telling him that none of this bothers him. And from someone else, Reynir would think that the simplest solution was the correct one - that Onni is uncomfortable about him and just lying about it. But Lalli had been clear about it: Onni doesn't lie, apart from that once. And that once had been... extreme circumstances.
So it's something else, bothering Onni. Something he hasn't felt comfortable mentioning, yet. But Reynir has learned from experience that the best way isn't to just ask directly. He'll have to coax Onni into discussing his feelings, from an oblique angle.
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Listening quietly while Reynir explains that they've probably got books on fauns at the Coven (he makes a mental note to check for himself) and that he knows a faun and has asked questions. That he'll be afraid of fire and hyperactive and chatty around the full moon, hyperactive and chatty and obnoxious. Onni huffs out a breath, his mouth lifting just slightly at one corner.]
So nothing will change at the full moon, then.
[He says it with a completely straight face, but there's a hint of teasing to it. The rest of it, he's not sure what to do with. Reynir says he doesn't want to lose track of anything from home, but Onni can't wrap his head around Reynir being disappointed by having that connection still if that's true. Maybe it's just because Onni has missed his home for so long, maybe it's because he's here and everything feels wrong and he can't feel his gods, can't retreat to the dark, comforting solitude of the forest. It isn't the same here.]
Mm. Well, if I can manage to get the hang of the stupid magic system here, then I can hopefully be powerful enough to look out for both of us.
[Well, he completely misunderstood why Reynir wanted cool powers. Oh well.]
Anyway, there could be worse interests than drinking and gardening. I don't mind drinking, and the garden is useful. You're pretty good at it, too.
[After a moment, he glances up, his eyes flicking to search Reynir's face.]
Is there something I should do to help you? Not with the garden, but with... [He gestures vaguely toward Reynir's head, the horns.] ...this?
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As for Onni saying he'll protect them both once he wraps his mind around this place's magic: ]
Well, I can help look out for us, too. Faun powers or no faun powers. There's more than one way to paint a rune. Metaphorically, I mean.
[ He thinks about mentioning the conversation he'd had with a guy who offered to teach him swordfighting, but he decides against it at the last moment. He doesn't want Onni saying something about it not being necessary or that it is too dangerous or who knows what. He'll know when he needs to... ]
Oh, um.
[ Reynir rubs the back of his neck, considering. Most of the changes he's going to have to make will be just in tending to his own body - thinking about what he eats, dealing with different needs for grooming, etc. But he doesn't want to just leap to telling Onni he can't help. Especially when he's been sort of avoiding dealing with all this so far. ]
Just... knowing you're gonna keep me from going feral is helping a lot. And - everyone I've talked to has said the whole transition is easier if you're not fighting against it or... denying it, so. You're already helping, right now. With this.
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Reynir's protest that he can help look out for them too, with or without special powers, is more predictable than his response to the first comment. Onni nods, once, and makes a noise of assent in his throat.]
I know you will. Doesn't it make you bigger, at least? Stronger maybe, at least a little? Either way, those horns will be dangerous weapons once they're grown out. The sheep on the farming island always made me think twice about messing with them, when I saw those horns.
[He seems to have no shame about admitting he'd been afraid of sheep of all things, but he's never had much shame. Not about that kind of thing.
What he hadn't expected was for Reynir to suggest any way for him to help. It had been right to offer, but Reynir seems to be stubbornly independent, refusing to do what people want him to do and instead just going about and doing as he pleases with no real thought to danger or anything else. But Reynir says that he's helping already, by promising to keep him from going feral. And he mentions that the transition is apparently easier if one doesn't fight against it. Nodding thoughtfully, Onni lifts a hand and presses his fingertip against his mouth for a moment, thinking.]
That makes sense, I suppose. If you're not repressing it, then it won't get out of control. That kind of thing?
[A pause, and his pale eyes lock on Reynir's face for a moment, trying to read him.]
With this? You mean...not being weird about it? There's no reason to be weird about it. It is what it is.
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But it's all just hypothetical, just talk. It could be worse, and he repeats that to himself in his mind. ]
I don't know about bigger, or stronger. I might get a little taller, because of the legs, and hooves.
[ As if he weren't tall enough already. If that really does come to pass, doorframes are going to really start being an issue. That's not even mentioning what he'll do about clothes, and boots...
He halts his thoughts, before they spiral off any further into panic and dread. One thing at a time. ]
Yeah. That kind of thing.
[ Reynir looks at Onni, as he says, with that characteristic blunt kindness of his, that it simply is what it is. Onni really can't see anything special about his attitude, about the way he approaches these things. And Reynir doesn't know any way to make him see how unique it makes him. So instead, he just lets himself smile. It crinkles up the corners of his eyes, a flash of pure fond warmth. ]
Yeah. It is what it is.
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[Onni blinks, tilting his head, trying to imagine it.]
You can get taller?
[Honestly, besides that fat Dane, Reynir is the tallest person Onni has ever met, and his long braid and how lanky he is only make him look even more tall. And long. Like a few tree branches in a sweater, but more...not graceful, but fluid. Like some very young long-legged deer, perhaps. The comparison is just going to be more intense once he starts getting those legs and hooves and all, Onni imagines.
It's a little difficult to imagine.]
Well. We'll figure that out when it happens, too.
[Then Reynir is looking at him with that strange expression, smiling, with warm eyes. Onni can't remember the last time someone looked at him like that...the memories of when Tuuri had are fading too quickly, and for just a moment he feels a little spike of panic, like he's going to forget her face or her smile or the easy way she said she loved him. For a second, the fear shows in his eyes, and he glances away from Reynir to try to hide it, as pointless as that probably is.
Taking a deep breath to ease the tension of what he's feeling, he calms himself and puts on a serious expression again before looking back at Reynir.]
Yes. Well, then, I won't start being weird about it, if you'll try not to act like you need to hide this kind of thing from me. You don't have to, because it doesn't bother me. Understand?
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[ And, as if making a point of it, Reynir lifts up those long legs of his, propping his feet on the edge of the coffee table. But it's good, to joke like this. To take something that had been so frighening to him - the joints in his legs going the opposite way, and hooves, and all of it - and making it into something else. Just another of many jokes about the fact that he's so tall. Like it's all just a part of his life. Like he's the same person still that he had been when he and Onni first met. ]
You'll be glad about it when I can reach anything from any shelf, and all you have to do is ask me nicely.
[ They both know that the 'nicely' bit isn't necessary and he would do it anyway, but there's a fond,
flirtyjoking tone to his voice as he makes that standing offer to Onni.He sees Onni look away from him, have a moment of... some kind of confused emotion. But then Onni is telling him that none of this bothers him. And from someone else, Reynir would think that the simplest solution was the correct one - that Onni is uncomfortable about him and just lying about it. But Lalli had been clear about it: Onni doesn't lie, apart from that once. And that once had been... extreme circumstances.
So it's something else, bothering Onni. Something he hasn't felt comfortable mentioning, yet. But Reynir has learned from experience that the best way isn't to just ask directly. He'll have to coax Onni into discussing his feelings, from an oblique angle.
And that requires time. ]
Okay. I'll try.