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GON 🌿 FREECSS ([personal profile] freecshow) wrote in [community profile] middaeg 2020-08-24 04:50 am (UTC)

SORRY FOR ESSAY

[Gon is a little curious by Reynir's animated receptiveness to Gon's words, and he blinks as he his ankles, listening intently.]

Hmmm... I mean, it's a little understandable, right?

[Gon rolls his eyes, kicking his crossed ankles as he thinks about how to articulate it.]

How do I say... I was hesitant to make a Bond, too. It probably sounds crazy for me to say something like this, but there's some kinda deeper, scary stuff in me I don't want other people to experience or see...

[Gon's eyes fall back on Reynir, leaning forward with some exaggeration.]

So I didn't even want Killua to Bond with me, even though he already knows that stuff! Maybe your friend Onni feels something similar. [Gon tilts his head with a thoughtful hum, eyeing Reynir with weighing measure.] Sometimes it's scary for people to know you too closely... Or to be so connected they can't escape from those parts of you.

But!

[Gon lifts a finger, expression warming with giddiness as he giggles airily, swinging his legs again.]

I was of course stupid for thinking that, and everything's fine! Being Bonded feels really great. When we touch it somehow feels even better than it used to, and sometimes if I'm in pain cuz of Monster growth stuff, contact helps alleviate it, so that's convenient! And sometimes when Killua's really, really happy, I can feel it. Even if he's being shy, and doesn't want to show it. It's nice.

Even if I had to feel his pain or his sadness, I wouldn't mind. Having a Bond is still a little stressful cuz I don't want him to feel burdened, but it's been great so far. I'm really happy we decided to do it.

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