[ but he'd like to. probably. maybe not now, but going on a night hunt is bonding, right? the longer they sit there, the more he feels himself relax, though he's still a whirlpool of emotions and it's... difficult to maintain.
and then his father is just watching him and he blinks and looks up, finally facing him, and is kind of at loss for words, because it's silent and he's not sure if he's supposed to say more? it's overwhelming to say the least, but he's almost getting used to it, and there's a ball of something growing inside him that he doesn't know how to define yet, but it's not. not bad, really.
but he's also afraid this is just a one time thing and he doesn't want to lose it. he doesn't want to think about things going back to before. especially not when his father says that and his mouth twists in a frown and he swallows on a lump again, because it almost sounds like a goodbye and that's not fair. ]
I'm... I... I don't want you to leave again.
[ leave. because saying "die" would probably choke him up again, as if he isn't already doing so, and he takes a breath. would his father still be dead once he somehow makes it back home? the details of coming here are still muddled and confusing and it doesn't help. ]
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and then his father is just watching him and he blinks and looks up, finally facing him, and is kind of at loss for words, because it's silent and he's not sure if he's supposed to say more? it's overwhelming to say the least, but he's almost getting used to it, and there's a ball of something growing inside him that he doesn't know how to define yet, but it's not. not bad, really.
but he's also afraid this is just a one time thing and he doesn't want to lose it. he doesn't want to think about things going back to before. especially not when his father says that and his mouth twists in a frown and he swallows on a lump again, because it almost sounds like a goodbye and that's not fair. ]
I'm... I... I don't want you to leave again.
[ leave. because saying "die" would probably choke him up again, as if he isn't already doing so, and he takes a breath. would his father still be dead once he somehow makes it back home? the details of coming here are still muddled and confusing and it doesn't help. ]