[ Strange, how dear big brother asks and Kadaj can only... smile. With a chuckle. A chuckle that turns into a hum that turns into a sigh. How does he begin to describe it? Why does dear big brother even want to know?! Really... isn't that the real question he should be asking.

He stumbles forward a bit, catching himself before he can actually hit the ground and laughs a little to himself as he drags his feet along with him, straightening himself up with trembling fingers holding onto each other. Tugging. Pulling. ]

I... don't know. I don't know! Can you believe it?

[ He attempts to lace his erratic sense within his words, but ultimately, falls short as does his tone once more. ]

I feel like I want to burst into a thousand different colours and swim into the lifestream. Everything feels so strange, brother. But maybe I'm the one that's strange.