[ Are they... ACTUALLY having THIS conversation right this very second with... all that's gone on tonight?? Sure feels like it. But, no time like the present? Not like he can roll on out of here or anything to avoid this. So, coming to sit up a little better, he bends a leg at the knee and looks to Alucard with those slightly speckled eyed of red before he just... sighs. ]

Alright, look. I... [ what the absolute hell does he even want to say here? ] ...this isn't how I usually do things. I mean, flirting, sure, ok. I guess. Ending up in bed with someone. Again, sure. If they're pretty or good looking. Why not!

[ a beat ]

But... even then, it's not like I do that all the time. Not a lot actually, if I'm being honest. [ easier to just keep people away entirely, right? ] Oh for god's sake, what the hell am I trying to say to you?

[ That last part he mutters to himself before he just hangs his head. Stuck where he is. ]

I... [ a sigh, eyes fall shut ] ...I do, too. You and Sypha. Love you.